listen. listen. i know that my way of reacting to my own anger isn’t great. i get very quiet when i am usually pretty talkative, and i am conflict avoidant so i am silent and kinda just shut down. this isn’t great. it’s not ideal and it’s not healthy. however. perhaps it is just me. but that is preferable to taking your anger out on other people. neglecting to tell someone that they did something that you did not like, then exploding at them when you are having a bad day (while also proclaiming (still in the most horrible, mean, scathing tone possible) that you’re not actually angry at them) seems to me like a worse alternative to shutting down and being quiet. is staying silent and shutting down good? no. but does it allow time to go away and think then come back? yes. exploding at someone ends up hurting the person you explode at and further alienates you from them. you make it clear that you are not someone to be trusted and instead someone to be avoided. and i would know this because i used to explode. i hurt and alienated people by doing so. do i still have a lot to learn when it comes to dealing with my own anger and how i shut down? yes. is it a good way of dealing with high intensity emotions? no. but am i taking out my anger on people by shutting down? no. and i think that makes a big fucking difference
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