#disclaimer: i'm absolutely not. in fact i'm having a breakdown over nothing (again. what's new)

[born-to-lose]

If I get back to depressed posting this week, blame it on my period ok. I'm a normal mentally healthy person whose hormones are just going crazy :)

#disclaimer: i'm absolutely not. in fact i'm having a breakdown over nothing (again. what's new) #i just feel like the worst person in the world because hmmm what if i'm the reason my best friend has been feeling like shit?? #at this point it's not even wannabe entertaining posts it's just sad because the person i'd tell about my struggles is struggling himself #and i don't wanna unload my thoughts to him when he has his own problems and if i'll probably in turn make him feel like shit #i really don't wanna make him feel guilty for anything because i'm most likely just overthinking but uhhhh i'm actually The Worst #the thing is i know i broke his heart and i'm trying too hard to make up for it and indirectly beg for another chance all the time #and i know it's too late because i fucked up big time but will that stop me from getting my hopes up? of course not! 😃 #tbh i have no idea why i Did That and i wish it was december 2021 again so i could change it but guess i'll die #oh and i relapsed. not doing good at all at the moment 😗✌🏻 #i'm just. so tired of it all. guess i'll go back to writing depressive songs and crying (and maybe worse) for the rest of the night #mel talks