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gems-of-lirema · 6 years

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GEMS-OF-LIREMA’S RP PLOTTING CHEAT-SHEET Want new-and-exciting plots for your character? Long to reach out to more of your followers, but don’t know where to start? Fear not! Fill out this form and give your RP partners both present and future all the of juicy jumping off points they need to help you get your characters acquainted. Be sure to tag the players whose characters YOU want more cues to interact with, and repost, don’t reblog! Feel free to add or remove sections as you see fit. Template here.

(Putting it under a read more because this is fricking long holy cow. Ah, that’s the price I have to pay for 7 muses...I’m coding everything in case anyone wants to focus on a specific muse)

Mun name: Sean

OOC Contact: IMs on tumblr work best for me, I have a Discord (ask me for the link) & a Discord Pokemon server as well if that’s more convenient

Who the heck is my muse anyway: 💜 The Fool (Eusine): Has no idea what he’s doing, but he’ll be damned if he does anything w/o his Rulebook. 💛 The Rulebook (Morty): Just trying to make it through the month to provide for his 3 roommates. 💎 The Stoic (Steven Stone): Just your average rich vagabond who has a boyfriend & refrains from speaking. 💙 The Wolf (Wolf Grunt): Trusted psychic bodyguard of Team Skull. Always itching for a battle, whether through Pokemon or through their paws. 💚 The Smart Aleck (N Harmonia): The Stoic’s somewhat narcissistic boyfriend. ❤️ The Grump (AZ): Just your average gentle giant going through the motions. Always sassy and never happy. 🖤 The Rebel (Guzma): It’s ya boi. If he’s not careful, his need for destruction will be his own downfall…

Points of interest: Everybody’s got issues! :D Some more noticeable than others…

💜💙💚🖤 Most of my muses (specifically Eusine, Wolf Grunt, N, and Guzma) typically act on a whim if no one keeps them in check. 💜💚 In Eusine and N’s case, they don’t actively want to hurt anyone, but they trust their own judgement better than anyone else's (even if their own judgement is terrible). Of course, Eusine will only do something stupid if Morty’s not around. 💙🖤 In Wolf Grunt & Guzma’s case, they’re not afraid to cross boundaries in order to get what they want. They are a part of Team Skull, after all. 🖤 Guzma swears like a sailor. (Mun disapproves of this & tries not to do this in real life.) 💎 Steven doesn’t talk much, and is very quiet compared to all my other muses. He may avoid you if he knows you’re psychic, or if he knows you know about his curse. 💚 As mentioned above, N is self-centered and typically only speaks for himself. ❤️ Besides his ridiculous height, AZ seems pretty normal, even if he rarely smiles. 💛 Morty’s pretty normal too, but he’s as stubborn as a mule when it comes to personal opinions.

What they’ve been up to recently: Uuuuuuuh my main verse could use some work so all the interactions I’ve made so far don’t pertain to it at all ._.; (I suppose I’ll just call it “The Verse that Never Was” since the Reincarnation AU & Spirits of Chaos AU is basically the aftermath of it. Technically, it involves all my AUs, but that’s a story for another day .-.)

💜 Eusine has no direction or plans, he’s a NEET. He does have a major crush for Morty, but he’s always turned down... 💛 Morty really misses his old job as a Gym Leader, but hasn’t done anything to get it back. Secretly, he does have a thing for Eusine, but he’s too afraid to admit it. 💙 Wolf Grunt was kicked out of the house by their adopted father, Morty, and both know they don’t belong in Team Skull. Despite this, Morty refuses to take them back until they earn his respect. Wolf Grunt couldn’t care less, as they’ve been living in Team Skull for almost two years now. Even if they do miss him every now and then… 💎 Steven is still learning to control his curse, and will not trust anyone to talk about it or help him control it. 💚 N doesn’t trust anyone with Steven’s powers either, and may seem overprotective of him at times. He believes he can help Steven by himself. (Spoiler alert: he can’t.) 💎💚 Steven & N have been dating for 5 years, and plan on engagement. That is, if either one of them are confident enough to propose to the other. Which they’re not. 💚 Like Eusine with Morty, N can’t go anywhere without Steven, and is lost without him. ❤️ Although AZ has finally reunited with his Floette, he is still fighting the old ghosts of his past, feeling great remorse & missing his brother greatly. 🖤 Although Lusamine is dead in my main verse, Guzma is plotting his revenge for what she did to him, starting with the destruction of Aether Paradise. He doesn’t really have a set plan (besides shooting everything), and if he carries his plans out now, he’ll be losing a lot more than Team Skull… (i.e. Ya boi’s gonna die, somebody stop him.)

Where to find them: All my muses currently live in Alola. 💛💚💜❤️ Morty, N, Eusine, and AZ all share a house on Route 1. 🖤💙 Guzma & Wolf Grunt, of course, live in Skull Mansion/Shady House/Po Town. 💎 Steven’s a vagabond and may switch between living in these two houses. Otherwise, it’s difficult to find Steven in one spot. In fact, he may fly to a different region on a good day.

Current plans: None of the stuff I plot with other people pertains to my main verse, as I still wish to develop it further. (Even though I’m torn between keeping it or letting it go c’: ) Since this is getting fricking long already I’m just gonna tag the people I have active threads for/want to plot with more. I apologize to all of you c’:

@dragonfly-grunt @heartbxnd @lushjunglesrecipes @steelwingchampion @thebella-matthews-666 @trainer-riz

Desired interactions: - Duplicates! Some of the best interactions I’ve had so far have been with duplicates, so if we share the same muse, I’d love to plot things between them ^_^ (or just have them be so confused as to why there’s two of them xD) - I’m a sucker for crossovers, as one of my AUs (Spirit of Chaos) is a crossover in and of itself. Here’s a list of all the fandoms I’m willing to interact with ^_^ - Feel free to interact with my AUs too! I love them all c: (you can find them in Rule 8 of the rule’s page.)

💜 For Eusine: He needs to learn that he can’t always depend on Morty to decide everything for him. This could be done by virtually anyone, though he does have a crush for Gym Leader Jasmine in my main verse. Oh yeah, and he needs a job. Or money. Or possibly both. 💛 For Morty: Any Sabrina muses or other Pokemon League muses with psychic powers? Sabrina may give Mortimer the motivation he needs to get his Gym Leader job back...if only because he hates her guts ._. (This could also be true in any other psychic’s case) 💎 For Steven: Steven may be the best option for any crossover interactions, only because his curse allows him to travel between different realities, and even merge realities if he’s not careful… (not to say that he’s the only muse I’ll use for crossovers: all my muses are open for that ^_^) 💙 For Wolf Grunt: They’re a lone wolf when it comes to Team Skull (pun intended), and actually have a hard time opening up to any other grunt. Deep down, they're homesick...not entirely for Morty’s home, but for Sinnoh. If there are any muses from Sinnoh, Wolf Grunt may latch onto you like a leech ._. 💚 For N Harmonia: Somebody help the poor tree boy learn that self-gratification is not the same as self-confidence c’: Yes, N actually has a really low self-esteem (as he’s still trying to find himself & his purpose), and only acts narcissistic as a facade to hide his true emotions. 💚 Also, since N talks to Pokemon, I’d love for him to interact with some Pokemon muses (again, not to say that I’ll only use N for interacting with Pokemon muses ^_^) ❤️ For AZ: Lysandre muses! AZ needs to learn that it’s ok to love his family. Even if he’ll act pretty hostile to Lysandre at first, deep down he wants nothing but the best for him. He sees his brother in Lysandre, and if he’s not true to his feelings, he may end up ignoring Lysandre like he did to his brother (which is the last thing he wants). ❤️ Otherwise, somebody. Hug the gentle giant. Please. Just. Go into my inbox right now and hug him. I’m a sucker for AZ hugs c’: 🖤 For Guzma: Er...I already get enough interaction with Guzma as is...But he does have a secret power that no one, not even himself, knows about. That’s all I’ll say...

Offered interactions: 💜 Eusine’s a musician: in fact, it’s his passion! If your band needs a drummer, he’s your guy. He’s also great for livening up parties, as he loves to do water tricks for anyone. 💛 Morty has his own Psychic reading business! Worried about the future? Old ghosts of the past keep haunting you? Or are you just curious about your lucky numbers? Morty can do it all. (interactions will need to be plotted first of course...unless you don’t mind any infomodding ._.; ) 💎 Steven doesn’t really have anything to offer...unless you’re itching for some reality-warping shenanigans. This can range from turning water into wine or turning the moon into a blood-red moon (again, must be plotted first, considering how reluctant he is with using his powers & dark his powers can become…) 💙 Wolf Grunt can, and will, beat you up. In fact, they’re looking for someone to fight with everyday. 💚 N doesn’t have much to offer either...Unless you’re a Pokemon. He loves speaking to wild Pokemon. ❤️ AZ can do pretty much anything: cooking, playing musical instruments, designing clothes. The only person holding him back from doing it all is himself. 🖤 Like Wolf, Guzma can and will beat you up. He’s always armed.

Current open post/s: Check the #open rp tag & the #prompts tag, those are always open ^_^

Anything else?: - I live in US Central Time if that helps - All links to my muse’s pages & their relationship to each other can be found in the rules page (Rule 8 specifically) - Please for the love of AZ someone critique me on my main verse it sucks

Tagging: No. You can do this if you want & say I tagged you.

#long post is long #//reference

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phaniecastello-blog · 6 years

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Challenge 3: A talk with a Royal

(( I finally had my rp with my fave @mallory-schreave haha. Thank you, Grace. (2.002K) ))

The ghost of the past and present

Another elimination, the second one to be exact. Two girls left the palace. I didn’t know them at all, but one of them used to give me the impression of being quiet and reserved, and the other one seemed to be the opposite. I knew where those thoughts were leading me anyone can be the next

Thankfully I was able to do several things at the same time, torture myself with scary thoughts, scroll through my phone trying to find a good Secret Santa present for Misty and feeling the urge to go to the kitchen for snacks. I quitted the first, postponed the third and gave my full attention to the second. Going through tons of photography gadgets that I wished I knew for what exactly, were they for.

My eyes stopped on a small, silver colored, square-shaped, camera. It claimed to be as good as any professional one and it was so light you could clip it on your clothes. I instantly remembered seeing Misty carrying her camera around the palace all the time, it couldn’t be much comfortable.

I guess that’s when you know someone is passionate about something, when no matter the obstacles, inconveniences or how uncomfortable it might be, you just feel the need to do it because the happiness and satisfaction are worth any difficulties. Those kinds of feelings could apply to people too. That’s how I felt about art, and I find myself hoping one day I could have that someone, too. The thought came with an image in my mind, that made me startle.

The gift. Focus on the gift.

I tapped on the ´buy now´ button and it was charged on my account instantly, according to the shopping site it was going to be shipped in a few days, just in time for Christmas.

Ok, done. Now snacks

I entered the palace main kitchen with a whim for nachos with guacamole. It was my first time in there, but I always had imagined it full of professional chefs and the best backers of Iléa, some helpers running all over the place and vapoury pots on the enormous stoves; but I couldn’t see any kitchen staff when I came in, it was very quiet, although I could still smell trails of strong coffee, teas and … perfume?

I looked around the place and my eyes founded a girl standing in front of a counter. I recognized the blonde, beautiful hair and smiled for myself. I was hoping to meet her for a long time and the occasion was finally here.

“Good evening, Princess Mallory” I said doing a small bow.

The Princess turned around facing me “Whatever” She said and then went back to her business; I wasn’t able to see what it was.

I frowned confused by her attitude and tried to remember what could I have done for her to behave that way, but I couldn’t find anything, besides hitting her youngest brother I haven't done anything wrong.”Have you seen anyone from the kitchen staff around?”

“I sent them out.”

Goodbye to my nachos. I could felt my stomach complaining and I thanked God it didn’t make any sound because that would have been more than embarrassing. The idea of making my own guacamole crossed my mind, but since I had never done one by myself before, I hesitated for some seconds. It just had 3 ingredients so, it couldn’t be easier. Suddenly I understood Nate’s disbelief when I told him I knew how to make pasta. If it wasn’t for my grandmother I wouldn’t know such a thing.

I walked towards the opposite counter. “Okaaay, I guess I will have to try to do this by myself... sorry if I’m disturbing you, but I need to eat something... Do you want some nachos with guacamole? I made the offer opening all the drawers in front of me, looking for the bowls, kitchen tools and ingredients I needed.

“God no! That's way too many carbs” She said playing with her bright hair ends.

I bite my lower lip feeling guilty for a moment that didn’t last. “Well, yeah, you are right... but it would be just this time, they won’t hurt…” I teased smirking.

She looked at the ingredients I put on the table, while I was chopping the tomatoes carefully, trying to get small and similar pieces.

When you see those kitchen shows on tv, it looks so easy

“Fine, whatever.” Mallory said.

“I have to confess I have never done it by myself before, but it’s not like I’m making paella or whatever is complicated in the kitchen world” I cut the avocados in halves and put them in a bowl to be smashed “can I ask you what were you... preparing?” I asked.

“A wheatgrass recipe” I could sense a proud tone in her voice. It was obvious she likes to take care of herself from head to toe. I was sure she was going to grow up to be as beautiful as her mother.

“Uh... yes, wheatgrass juices are popular among the models. They don’t taste very nice if you ask me” I tried to dissimulate a disgusted face. I used to have nightmares about wheatgrass when I was younger, Loretta used to make me drink those juices at least 3 times a day.

“You're a model, right?”

I nodded “Yep, my mother is a fashion designer…” My muscles tensed a little, I had tried to avoid mentioning my mother. My conscience could be clear, but if regular people used to get judgmental when they heard her name, Royals had a free ticket to do that.

I finished the guacamole and put the bowl between us. ”Here, hope it tastes good” I said crossing my fingers, then I opened a bag of nachos and spread them on a plate.

Mallory gave a suspicious look to the mixture and then finally decided to taste it. “Omg, It doesn't suck!”

I scoffed a laugh. Even though I knew my recipe wasn’t the best one, I suspected the young Princess wasn’t exactly easy to please. Men will have to work hard to get her heart.

“Thanks... I guess I can add guacamole to the things I can cook, right behind cereal and instant soup” I winked

“More than I can make” She shrugged

“Well, you are Princess you don't have to know stuff like this if you don't want to... what do you do for fun or...?” I guess it could be horse riding or maybe fencing. I had always like to learn some fencing.

“What I'm told”

Okay, maybe I’m watching a lot of movies

I narrowed my eyes at her with disbelieve “With all my respect. you, but you don't seem like a person who does what it's told…”

She turned and leaned on the counter “I'm proper when I need to be, but I've always reserved the right to voice my opinions”

“mhmm, I understand” I had tried to use that method myself, but the difference was, my mother, doesn’t even care about my opinions, and I wish I was brave enough to make her listen “but at least you like what you do, right? I mean being a princess and stuff” I continued, shrugging

“It's nothing exciting” Mallory said.

“You can always find something entertaining to do... a hobby”

“I have hobbies” She rolled her eyes at me

“Okay, okay” I kept eating the nachos, while I tried to get things straight. I asked what did she do for fun, the answer was: what she’s told, but now I’m learning that she also had hobbies….maybe hobbies aren’t enough for her to have fun. That’s when a crazy idea came to my mind and before I could think through it, I opened my big mouth “I just had an idea, but I don't know if it would be possible, obviously we would take care of a lot of security issues... would you like to go to one of our fashion shows someday? I mean, you are clearly interested in fashion” I said pointing at her outfit.

“Oh right, you're Stephanie Costello” I shivered at the change of her tone. Then she crossed her arms and continued “I know exactly why you're here”

I closed my eyes and pressed my lips together. It was happening again, my mother’s reputation was ruining my life. “It’s Castello” I corrected her, let me guess, is it fame? or... maybe power what you have in mind?” I tried to remind myself this time I wasn’t able to fight back like I used to do with all the pretentious girls that surrounded back at work; it was the princess standing in front of me. I already knew this could happen, I knew the royals might think the worst about me, that was one of my biggest fears since the beginning. My job now was to change it.

This is going to be harder than I thought

“Nope. You have a very nice mother, don't you?” She said sarcastically.

“Huh ... define nice” I said playing innocent. “She’s definitely different from conventional mothers”

“I heard she just adores my mother” Should I run away or? “What are you? Living out her failed dream or a form of revenge?” She raged.

My nerves tensed and my head hurt so bad, I have started to feel dizzy. I massaged my forehead and then I let go a deep breathe “Look, I-I don’t have nothing to do with my mother’s past. I guess it will be hard to believe but we have never shared opinions …”

She raised an eyebrow and gave me an evil smirk “Mmhm. I believe you”

I tried to stand as straight as I could when what I really wanted to do was to disappear. I could feel anger and frustration flowing through my veins, but I knew it wasn’t the Princess fault after all Loretta had said and done terrible things about the royals in public, even if she had promised me not to. “I don’t blame you, probably I would think the same if I were you.” I mumbled the next words “I’m also used to it.”

She crocked her hair mockingly “Tragic”

I realized the conversation wasn’t making any sense at all, there was no way I could make her believe in my words and I was just making a fool of myself.

I rolled my eyes and dropped my arms at my sides, giving up “Since I don’t have any physical proof of what I’m saying I guess you have 2 choices: You give me the benefit of the doubt, cause you know, I think you are intelligent enough to get your own opinion about someone or you just keep judging without even knowing me”

She came closer to me and taped my nose. “Mmhm” I crossed unconsciously, my eyes following her finger and then hold my breath, trying not to scream, holding the tears that were threatening to fall. I put my hands on my stomach as brushing my dress. “I-I will go now, you can have the rest,” I said tilting my head towards the nachos She grabbed a chip and dips it in the guacamole “Much appreciated” I bowed and quicken my step out of there.

In my way, to my room, I was still trying to keep myself together meanwhile my thoughts weren’t helping

If Mallory knows about Loretta who else knows? Does Nate know? Was he being nice to me just because he has to? He’s a gentleman, a Prince.

I felt my heart heavy on my chest. All I wanted was to prove the media and everyone else wrong and get a life for my own for once.

Before the meeting with Mallory I was waiting for the right time to talk to the Queen, but in that moment I just felt the urge to do it, no matter how nervous I was about it, I needed to speak with her that night.

#Challenge 3 #selection oc #Mallory

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bxll-cxpher · 7 years

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⭐️⭐️⭐️ 300 Follower Giveaway ⭐️⭐️⭐️

I can’t believe this blog is going to be a YEAR old in a month. I know I dropped off the face of earth for a few months but I’m back and plan to stay back. A lot of my old partners aren’t here anymore BUT I have met so many wonderful people in the last week since I have returned. This is a little thank you/half assed promo post for those special people that I particularly enjoy writing with and that Bill is absolutely nuts for. Not to mention a little giveaway, too~!

⭐️⭐️⭐️ FOLLOW FOREVER ⭐️⭐️⭐️

⭐️⭐️⭐️ THE PINES FAMILY ⭐️⭐️⭐️

@pinetrce - Holy heckaroni. I LOVE your Dipper so much. I love the thread we have going on for the We’ll Meet Again AU/verse/whatever. Bill and Dip’s interactions make me laugh so much and I always enjoy seeing you on my dash ALL THE TIME and I await each and every reply from you! Quality!

@theglitterytwin - YOU HAVE BEEN AROUND FOR SO LONG OF THIS BLOG’S LIFE AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. You are such a positive person and I love your portrayal of Mabel beyond reason. She’s so bubbly and happy and it’s addictive. I love every thread we do because it flows so well with our muses.

@bannedinmoststates - This Stan. This Stan right here. We need to do more threads together but I already super adore your Stan. “Staniel” and Bill fighting? Give me more of that! Punch him in his stupid eyeball! Also I am a Big Fan of your Mabel cosplay. A+++ stuff, my friend.

@sufordtive - Let me tell you about this Ford right now. It’s been TWO fucking days since we met and I messaged them on a whim. It was such a great decision because talk about immediately clicking. Headcanons and memes galore! I cannot WAIT to do a serious thread with you because DAYUM. Even with our crack/Dicksword conversations, I LOVE your Ford soooooo much. Bill, too.

@bolotiesandjournals - The sassiest Dipper ever. I know we have yet to do the werewolf AU/where Bill and Dipper share a body but... I love talking to you on Discord so much. You are super amazing and Bill is already So Attached to your boyo. The hijinks they would get into in both of these situations is hilarious and I think about this a lot. Thank you for messaging me out of the blue. Friendship made.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ DEVOTED WORSHIPPERS ⭐️⭐️⭐️

@wxll-cxpher - This is Bill’s demon bf. They have a beautiful baby triangle daughter named Lilith Guacamole and the mun is absolutely wonderful. I have been sending her snapchat doodles of Bill doing silly things over the year and she replies with Will drawings and it always cheers me up. Also our URLs match. We’re fuckin’ twins, okay?

@useless-stereotype - I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE PAZ. I swear to God, Paz is the cutest angel I have ever seen and the way you write is beautiful. I have seen threads where she’s an energetic ball of love and others where she’s super murderous and loyal. Which is awesome and I love seeing that in a character. Bill’s on and off girlfriend ( mostly on ) and he loves her deep down. He just doesn’t show it because he’s a fucking triangle. <3

@bezazzled - I know we’ve been out of touch for a while but hell. You are a Mabel that makes me laugh so hard and every interaction we have puts a big grin on my face. My new favorites are “I can’t believe Bill sent a nude to Ford” and “Great Aunt Bill Cipher”. Keep being you and never change. To more RPs in the future!

@flannelandchill - I know you haven’t been active for some time but hey, I wanted to mention you here, too. I LOVE your Wendy. She’s so chill and she is Wine Mom’s favorite kiddo. I will always remember the thread where Bill takes over and texts her “dates” with ridiculously violent and insulting things. That was the best ever.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ HONORABLE MENTIONS ⭐️⭐️⭐️

@ted-audrey-blog - No offense but Bill hates Ted. Me on the other hand... I love that you always send me asks to answer! It’s a lot of fun and it makes me very happy that I can deliver quality that makes you keep coming back.

@wxrstliink - I haven’t really interacted much with you but damn. The sass-off with Bill and Pacifica had me in tears. I hope we can do more threads in the future! Thank you for giving me a chance!

I am sure I’m missing people but those are the ones that REALLY stand out. It’s such a short list ( and I’m sorry ) but please know that I appreciate the hell out of everyone. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sticking with me all this time.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ GIVEAWAY ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Okay, okay. I’m a poor as fuck girl with two jobs and some passable artistic talent. One ( 1 ) reblog and you’ll be put into a list that will be randomly generated with random.org for a prize. This time there will be three winners and the prizes are the following:

First place winner: A fully colored/shaded/highlighted drawing of your choice! If you have an OC you want me to draw, provide references.

Second place winner: A flat colored drawing! Same thing applies with OCs.

Third place winner: An uncolored drawing. Same as above for OCs.

I’ll be deciding the winners on Tuesday! Good luck and thank you!

#follow forever #whewh #that took a lot out of me #haha

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shanny-tired · 7 years

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(OOC) What it Does For Me.

Hey! How’s it going there pal? Still following this blog I see. Sick of Shanaris yet? Tell me what ya’ think of this grumpy old hag in an ask or something, if nothing else to expel some of your own dislike into the open! I’d honestly appreciate it and adore feedback.

Ah-- that ain’t why I’m writing this up though. I’m self-conscious enough as it is. Nah-- writing this up because I just thought I’d give my two-fifths of a nickle on things and stuff. Now it might get a bit TMI as we get further down, but I promise I ain’t gonna be saying what color my underwear is, if any is being worn, or how I almost kicked the bucket. This is all just a winded summary of why I write which most of ya’ probably don’t care much to hear about.

First off, for those that don’t actually know or never bothered to know-- or just don’t really care but would like some insight on the writer themselves: I’m diagnosed with major depression. Eh, so what yeah? Me and half the world, yeah? Yeah, at some times it does feel like so what. Problems are a mile away and things feel like a god damn floppy rainbow I’m riding off into the sunset, or at least a very cushioned wall. We all know how depression can be, yeah? Listlessness, gloomy, broody, isolation from others, reticent qualities, and often times emotional or numb qualities or some such. I ain’t a psychologist! Could be wrong, but that’s how I feel most days.

Alright, now it gets to the TMI part. Feel free to skip this if ya want. Oh-- and warnings on suicide and rape if you’re adverse to reading about that stuff. Look for the bold!

So...yeah! Life is shit and blah blah so forth. I’m young, probably younger than most of the people I know online think of me as. Which is good! I’m honestly flattered when people think of me as older than I truly am. As such, with the youth come times of vulnerability and ignorance and whatnot. Been through some shit man, been through a whole lotta shit that I’d be damn well happy to do without. We all have, yeah? Of course! No one has been through their life without a moment of suffering by their own perspective. Of course, what you may see as a time of suffering is often seen by others as a “Quit being a lil’ bitch you scrub.” moment. Unfortunately I’ve been through those moments. I’ve been deeper than many go and watched Death french kiss me three times over. Weren’t it for cowardice and hesitation, sloppy work or all around listlessness to even off myself? I’d be pretty dead already. If I did manage to get rid of myself, well-- I never wanted to deep-throat decomposers of the animal kingdom. Yeah, I’ve been.. numb a lot in the recent past. So numb that I hadn’t even cared about the shit that lady did to me in Junior year of high school. Or-- was it Senior year? Fuck, I really don’t remember, but it did happen, and it was my first time with anyone really. Last time I go to another chick’s house on the premise of them being my friend, yeah? I won’t touch on that too much though, no one wants to hear about that sorta thing-- not even me. Past few years up until now? Yeah it’s been pretty fucking shitty. Went like... a whole two months without shaving or bathing or washing my hair-- really nasty. No one noticed though. Or maybe no one really cared to look at the kid in college that sits in the front corners of the room to stay close to the teacher and away from the noise. A very... muted scream for help, in my experience. Yeah... it was nasty! I don’t think I’ll ever go into that realm of the pits again-- at least I hope not.

Now, I know we all didn’t come here to read about all this sad depressive shit, least I think so. I hope so! You don’t get off on my misery do you? If ya’ do well that’s.... that’s kinda hot.

I don’t wanna go on and on about my issues, so I’ll try and keep the rest short as I can, yeah? All that shit that happened to me? Tore me from the inside out. Now I ain’t saying I had it worst-- that I am the most miserable person. Nah, none of that. People out there with miles more problems than myself, but everyone reacts differently and is effected by their past whether we wanna be or not. I just... had no idea what to do at the time. So... I took to writing and RP on a playful whim. Someone said they wanted to RP with me on some other-- no through text message! And I was all like “Ah, sure, whatever, how do?”. I got given a crash course and by fuck I loved it. I loved being anything but me-- loved trying to think like someone else entirely. I loved the way it exploded in my imagination that every time I closed my eyes I saw these vibrant images of a multitude of things: sex, death, gore, hand movements, facial expression, tone of voice-- all of it was so... alive. I wanted more, so I sought more. On various different platforms until I got dick deep into the RP community on SWTOR (Star Wars: The Old Republic) back when it still dominantly existed. At the time it was just... a lot of erotic roleplay, because that’s really all there was on that game, yeah? Either you did some erotic shit, or you went and got gored by some Sith or lil’ open skirmish. I did the erotic stuff-- did a hell of a lot of it. Did I get off to it? Nah, it was just amusing and all-around pleasant to just...write in general. Even if a Chiss had to take a Rancor in the face. Fuck-- TMI again, apologies. What I’m trying to say is that RP brought me a whole realm of enjoyment and excitement to my otherwise entirely numb and shitty life that... I made it my escape.

Over the short years it only evolved and grew more complex. What was a severe detachment from my characters became an emotional connection that made me realize how alike I am to the people I write-- especially Shanaris. Maybe that’s why I enjoy writing Shanaris the most: she is more like me than I really realize. It all reached a point where I started to find friends, and eventually went back to World of Warcraft from reasons other than shitposting and ‘roleplaying’ on the Horde Moonguard server. Like-- I was roleplaying before I even really understood what it was and how it made me feel. No-- I went back to find a community that wasn’t dead and dying-- a group of friends that weren’t always down and depressive. A change of environment was needed, yeah? Well, I definitely found it and it’s been little over a year since I did.

All the Roleplay, all the writing, even writing this shitty post has been more helpful than people realize. It all started because one person decided to take a chance and RP with the quiet, idle person standing still in Cathedral square. Everyone and everything that had happened the past year was both extremely shitty and extremely helpful. We all Roleplay for different reasons and often time we need a certain drive to Roleplay. Well, not me. My drive to roleplay is the RP itself. My reasons to write is the writing itself. It helps me escape a reality I often times want nothing to do with. I would like to think this is the healthiest coping mechanism I got: writing-- typing, whatever!

Really, what I wanna say is thanks to all you lovable fuckers-- you know who you are, won’t need to tag you. Y’all been a tremendous help to me and are often times too pleasant to bear. So, do a writer a little favor the next time you’re online and ain’t got much to do? Find someone who is just sitting all by their lonesome and just... talk to them. Lotta times they may just be alone to be alone or soemthing. Other times they might be like me and have a problem initiating things, so they scream in wishful silence hoping someone notices them enough to interact. We never know until we try, yeah? It’s amazing how such simple gestures can help people along just a little bit further.

Again, thanks to you all for reading this, Roleplaying with me, or just being an all-round good person to chat with. Alright, I’ll give the blog back to Shanaris and the memes. Thanks for reading down this far guys! And thanks again for the fun times and future times to come.

#ooc #Just the writer #writing #reasons #thanks guys

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