#conjuring my therapist's voice while i white-knuckle my phone ''there is strength in vulnerability it's the first step to

[dykedivorce]

dreamt about reuniting with my friend on the 5th anniversary of the last time we talked. hm. not a big dream interpreter but I feel like it might mean something

#wrote her a text it's in the send box. i feel sick. being vulnerable with someone with whom you dont know where you stand is agonizing tbh! #conjuring my therapist's voice while i white-knuckle my phone ''there is strength in vulnerability it's the first step to #a richer emotional landscape'' #okay ELISA but the emotional landscape is too rich it's overflowing with riches!! in fact. it could stand to be poorer #realistically worst case scenario she answers yeah i fucking hate your guts for the way being in love with me made you a terrible friends #best case scenario she goes omg nooo i thought YOU hated me all this time im so happy 2 hear from u i miss you exactly as much as u miss me #most probable scenario though is just. mild response. #oh hi it's been a while! idk why we stopped talking either. my life is very different now and we dont have much in common anymore. xoxo #i sent the text im gnna frow up . i hauve covid from being 2 open emotionally remind me to never do that again