#can you blame me tho?! he's my Netrunner's best friend! I can't leave my bff 😭

[kimarisgundam]

I am having the most miserable Chinese New Year 😭. On the evening day 2 my entire family got infected with the flu

(not covid. Just regular flu. Which is also just as bad??? It's covid without the fever, but with dry cough and sneezing 😭)

And to make things worse, today we had a Cyberpunk Red Zoom session planned... and I didn't want to skip it...

In my fever induced confusion, I made exceptionally bad choices 😭??

I chose my Netrunner's elder half brother over the crew again 😭. I KNOW. I said I cut ties with father and Arasaka... but big bro doesn't have anything to do with this 😭

I panicked when his psychosis got triggered 🥲. I can't let my only brother go. I didn't want MaxTac to hunt him down 🥲

My party was yelling at me/my Netrunner to run. Even our DM was hinting I'm making a bad choice...

But I chose to burn all my ram shutting down all the cameras in the building and blocking outside communication so no one can call MaxTac 🥲

Then I ran after my brother trying to stop him 🥲. My stats are horrible. I forgot that without my ram I'm defenceless against an Adam Smasher level NPC 🥲

I told my friends to just let me die. But my friends said that as their characters, no way any of them would leave me 😭

I feel so guilty now??? Omg 😭. This is the first time I heard Exec use the F word (friend) and it's cos I dragged everyone into my family drama 😭

Rockerboy is my Netrunner's bff. He ran after her and got mortally wounded after taking a hit for her 😭

I managed to save and stabilise him, but now my own character is about to become mortally wound cos I overloaded her by forcing her to quickhack without ram 😭

We cut the session short cos our DM has to attend a reunion dinner... but my Body stat isn't high 🥲. I don't think I'll survive the death saves next session 🥲. This is how I die I guess 🥲

#my friend is pissed at me cos her Rockerboy told my Netrunner to run... if I listened... at least only one of us will die #but now both of us may die if my brain burns out from the overload and if my big bro reaches us again and finishes her Rockerboy off 🥲 #can you blame me tho?! he's my Netrunner's best friend! I can't leave my bff 😭 #my friend is annoyed also cos she ships our characters together but it's kinda unrequited #cos I'm not letting my Netrunner date a character she backstabbed in the past... #but my friend said I'm just being cruel now cos if her Rockerboy lives and my Netrunner dies he's never recovering from this #I unintentionally made him lose another person he cares about if my character dies and he's already at he's breaking point 😭 #I'm sorry ok 😭??? #I didn't mean to! #I just couldn't leave her elder brother #I can't blame him for staying to serve her dad even though dad treats him like a dog... #he isn't a bad person #personal