#byan 'i hate looking masc but if i already feel like shit who fucking cares' byun

[byanyan]

byan on an average day: glitter. very cute but too many hairclips. makeup done and usually quite vibrant. fitted clothes (oftentimes showing a little extra skin) involving a lot of bright pink. colourful platform boots. more glitter.

byan on a bad day: makeup smudged or non-existent. hair a mess, either falling out of a ponytail or not even pulled back. oversized hoodies and baggy pants. more black than usual. simple combat boots. no glitter.

and they're really out here with the gall to say that they're good at hiding it when they're having a rough time... smh my head

#byan 'i hate looking masc but if i already feel like shit who fucking cares' byun #tbf the 'bad days' in question are like. REALLY bad ones. #like mental illness is fully acting up they're Not in a good state of mind they're having an episode kind of bad day #average bad days or like... more minor mental health stuff they're actually pretty good at hiding bc that's kind of just been their life #...i'm losing my train of thought. hopefully my point has come across??? #hi i've been trying to write but i keep writing a sentence and then rethinking everything about it for the next fifteen minutes #making me lose everything else i had in mind for the paragraph and ultimately feeling like nothing i'm getting down is good enough anyway #so uh. it's fun. i'm having fun. definitely not frustrated at all. #hoping dinner will help clear my head a little but we'll see #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.