#but like. i'm not buying mall patches LMFAOOO like. idk it almost feels insulting

[moe-broey]

Going to the mall as I am now (kinda punky/extremely autistic) is kinda funny like. That's a nice shirt. However, it's not one of my thousand beloved black graphic t shirts and it is such a texture and kind of a weird shape to it and honestly I don't really wanna buy any sort of fast fashion type shit or brand shit. Don't care. Oh they have patches. Kinda cute but straight up I can just make those. In fact, I would prefer to. Don't care. Also I'm not buying that.

#i've kind of become a very hard person to please but it's deceptive. in both directions #what i really want is materials. and incredibly specific things. #also just. something about the patches that were designs/artwork like. i feel like i'm being sold an aesthetic #when like. yeah. yeah you are quite literally LMFAOOOOOO #i wanna start a for real battle jacket.... a sturdy but lightweight enough vest for daily wear... #i have a vest but it's flimsy as fuck and not the right shape for me. so i think i'll scrap it for patches #i still gotta figure out how to make nice patch designs though. that is something i struggle w for some reason #but like. i'm not buying mall patches LMFAOOO like. idk it almost feels insulting #idk idk maybe i'm taking it too seriously LMFAO but it does feel like brazen commodification #of something that's like. you're supposed to do it yourself. kinda goes against the whole point #ideologically too. but again maybe i'm just too serious about it. #but like above all i don't want Things i want stuff to make things. #OH MY GOD I GOT IT. those fucking patches were the live laugh love of people who want the aesthetic and edge of punk #but none of the roughness. none of the shittiness. and none of the actual philosophy behind it. #gooooddddddddd i probably sound insufferable though LMFAOOO #i also just feel like a poser myself at times like. i could go deeper i think. #anyways. most important thing and whole point of the trip was manga. got some manga 👍🫡