#but like the state imm in is like. just as bad bc I'm overworking myself burnt out and dying on the floor while typing this

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i wonder what would happen if i got a B but then again i may not come back

#when your parents expect nothing less than an A- #or just A in general #um. i may have set too good of a stanard when i was little and now i am. suffering #because oh my god i am literally THIS CLOSE to just. making my grade drop to a B by not doing this project #but then again....... laughs nervously #i have experienced a B once and my excuse was. i wasn't paying attention it was distance learning for my young deprived mind #eye flutters #but now its like. im back in school. and. uh. i have no excuse #i will. die #also like B grades. scare me a bit bc im not used to seeing that. nor having it so. I'm scared of what will ever happen #like what if my phone gets taken away that's so sad and worrying #so. if i get b grades in the future. just know I'm living with like excruciating dread and guilt and displeasure bc yeah i dont think i #could live. like that. it hurts me emotionally and mentally soooo bad #but like the state imm in is like. just as bad bc I'm overworking myself burnt out and dying on the floor while typing this #im stressing myself out bc i have the mindset of YOU HAVE TO DO THIS NOW OR ESE YOU WILL DO SOO BAD ON IT YOU SUCK #so. grades are funny can we light them on fire and let them burn