#but it's like we've known each other for almost 20 yrs and i feel like we can't really fuck things up but it's scary bc i don't wanna be

[callinthemorning]

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#im involved in some drama and i wanna scream kwjsks like it all started 5 yrs ago? #this is about my fwb thing #all my posts this week have been about it #yesterday we had a Serious Talk and we were just like ok but we don't wanna stop it and ain't that fucked up #bc we know we should and the question about what could happen if we did date kind of lingers yk? #but im scared of messing things up bc i don't actually know if i want us to date and i don't want to ruin the friendship #that's so cliché lmao #but it's like we've known each other for almost 20 yrs and i feel like we can't really fuck things up but it's scary bc i don't wanna be #like uhhh im just trying to understand if i do like this man or im just confused #you get me? it's fucked up to experiment like this w a friend that's so close #i think. although ive told him that it makes me feel weird and anxious bc i thought i only liked women???? and idk if i do like him like #_that_ or im just bored lmaooo #a mess! but neither of us is stopping it #sorry about the rant but this is the only place i actually talk about it bc there's some fucked up stuff going on and bc it kind of makes #me feel fake and ashamed and everything