#but it fucking sucks when i'm fighting for disability and am possibly gonna be shoved back into a task

[lesenbyan]

The great news for me is all the ableists that have been in charge of my department are No Longer and the one I thought was returning went to a different department.

Unfortunately, there is still every chance I'll be shoved back on freight only in a few weeks when another coworker returns from a leave for surgery

#personal; #work blogging; #the problem is i'm the youngest in the bakery by decades #so it's easy to look at us all and just “yeah [they] seem the most able” #but like. i have (5) intermittent absences and use them all every month #whereas everyone else (other than the cake decorator who isn't supposed to freight) doesn't and manages to work their days #so either 1) they're more abled than me or 2) they're working themselves into the ground #and it could be either! it could be. i do not presume to know medical conditions unless told by them they have none #but it fucking sucks when i'm fighting for disability and am possibly gonna be shoved back into a task #that the SS office will see as “capable of gainful employment” #and it's just so fucking frustrating #bc no i'm not gonna tell a 70+yo that he Has To Do Freight #but i was also transferred to this dept to not do freight #and i can't go back to the deli bc the remodel changed shit and now being behind that counter triggers my claustrophobia #need be i'll talk to HR to see what can be done but i have no medical limitations on file bc if i did i wouldn't be allowed in this dpt #and this dept makes $1 more per hour than the rest of the store at baseline #and i'm already fucking suffering financially #and this all just fucking sucks #but for now i have a reprieve and i'mma take that and run with it for now