#but i think i'm doing some good stuff rn

[homosexualcitron]

me doing some good food despite knowing nobody will care because it's not a popular character/ship :))

#i'm talking about fanarts in case not actual food #but i think i'm doing some good stuff rn #it's about furukaza btw the ship is so popular in asian fandom but outside of that.... and especially on tumblr omg #and maybe the fact that Kazami appears in chapter 998 also explain why people. don't even know him! #but he's :))) i love him smmm #He's Haro's second dad #OH IM NOT COMPLAINING BTW I MEAN THIS AS SILLY.. FUNNY... like “wow i'm so strong” #the emoji is not ironic!!! i'm smiling doing my own food!!!

[httpiastri]

#im about to FREAK OUT bcs of my boss #like yes i'm so thankful and happy to be employed. really. #but my boss is so #it feels like he's never doing anything.... he's only in the office max 2 days per week and idk #hes just very strange #but the worst thing is that he just takes his own work and dumps it on me #which is fine in some ways! like i sometimes just sit around with no work to do #so then it's good to have something to do #but today... not only did i already have a shit ton of work to do but #he tells me to book a hotel for a conference they're having ?? and that's not even near what's in my work description?????? #(i basically just do numbers rn. i sit with spreadsheets and move numbers around and stuff like that) #and the worst part is that he told me i cant email them... i must call........ #and i get that this sounds super silly to those who don't have a fear of speaking on the phone but #it makes me freak the f out #i cant even talk on the phone with my parents. or my brother. or a friend. like genuinely just no i cant #it brings out so so much anxiety in me #i get dizzy just thinking about it #and again this is really really not even similar to anything in my job description ???? i wouldn't have signed up if i knew i had to do thi #and when i have things that i need to do but i physically cant then my brain just goes into pause mode and i don't do anything at all #instead of doing one of the many things i *could* do (like write an email anyway) #there's just no way im gonna be able to call but idk what my boss is gonna think if i mail.... because he specifically said that i must cal #rrGGG im just so frustrated!!!!! #and i needed to get this out.... soz for the rant #i just think i would cry (genuinely) if i were to make that call #alSO BECAUSE THE INSTRUCTION IS SO UNCLEAR LIKE ALWAYS WITH THIS GUY #I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO DO #gonna go drink a lot of water so i dont cry now 👍 sorry bye

[cupcakesmoothie]

...So I may have went a little insane designing the MC from @psychopomp-enthusiast's Blade x Reader fic To Mourn The Living

Am I confident in my art skills? Lmao (No)

I am not rendering this (I did have an idea for the highlights but) it's 5 am oh god and if I don't go lie down right now I am not waking up tomorrow (Today at 8)

I tried to keep the design androgynous but well. Am Girl. So I am a little biased towards Reader being also Girl. I think I did ok tho

The first HSR fanart I've made and it's fanart of a fanfic. Typical me behaviour tbh

I did research for this for some reason like I stared really hard at a couple wiki tabs for a while (Haven't seen actual scales on either of our High Elders) and skimmed the fic again. The scales were specified to be silver?

While doing the aforementioned research I think I've crafted a theory? I somehow completely missed that there is more than one High Elder, like there are other ships that have their own High Elders too and like??? I'm making some connections??? Is this a "I've connected the dots" moment? Who knows.

I did think maybe the whole storms thing had something to with Jing Yuan and his Lighting-Wielding Thunder-Clapping Spirit-Squashing Lord (YESSSSS FIRST TRY BABY OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD) but the whole thing with black hair and evil vibes just felt off to me. AND THEN. Until I get a reply on this/the fic gets updated I won't say anything further, but ough. I am so normal about the media I consume guys

I kinda felt like putting the scale pattern on the outfit was a little OOC since MC was mentioned to not really follow Vidyadharan customs, but I also figured they were close to Bailu and have horns so? Maybe?

I gave MC blue hair because Ice type. I was gonna give them really long hair, but then again, not a High Elder. The hair was mentioned to obscure their horns underwater tho so I think some length is fine?

It was actually really hard to find physical descriptions of the MC? I mean for a fic like this, that's actually a good thing, it gives me more leeway to do whatever I want but also literally one of the reasons why I don't do fanart is because I wanna be accurate as possible (This is probably some kind of anxiety thing, idk)

#Eyes are still my favourite thing to design hehehe #I wanted to do some kind of snowflake pattern maybe with the lighting but oh god it's about to be 6 I need to go #Tfw reading things makes you want to draw #I need to pick better times to draw cause like once I actually do it I just zone out for a couple hours #I started at like 1 #I think I am lowkey a little bit obsessed with this fic rn like it's not good #I mean it is a good fic tho #I literally have it on record that for like 3 days after I read TMTL it's literally just one full page of Blade x Reader stuff #If I get the ok on this I will maybe post it to Instagram #I actually only wanted to draw the underwater scene today but Things Happened so I'm going insane about this at 6 am instead. Such is life #Ok yeah seriously I needa go to bed now bye bye #sweetmountainseeds #Am I allowed to tag this? #To Mourn The Living #honkai star rail #hsr #Blade x Reader #My art

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[cosmic-kaden]

I'm feeling off today so sorry if I'm not super active for the next couple days.

#I'm experiencing some not so nice things irl and its bleeding into online stuff so I'm going to take a step away until this #goes away- probably a few days I'm not sure. it fluctuates I can think two days and it be gone by tomorrow afternoon- anyways i'm rambling #just not doing too good right now mentally. I may pop in to talk about my newest oc but may not interact too much with people for rn- #unless we're like... super close then I may be up for communication #but please still tag me and I will get to it when I'm in a better place mentally <3 #I'm going to practice a lot of self-care and some techniques my therapist suggested for this particular issue. Sorry #not self ship

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

it's paradoxical but i love in a video game where you do not feel the least bit good about what you're doing. i mean there are times where you're like "god these characters are so stupid please just give me the dialogue options to avoid this" and that's not fun, and i guess ymmv on what you consider falling into those categories, but i mean like. when you know the fate you're walking is inevitable you cannot put down the sword you have no choice but to continue walking even though you desperately want to stop. it's always a good narrative and imo games portray it better than any other

#the nemesis speaks #like rya's questline. or HYETTA'S fucking hell hyetta #''hand this sweet girl this diseased eyeball to eat. she's explicitly asking you. do it. now.'' #like from the start it's clear that her quest isn't quite as it seems given. the eyes. #and yet you keep hunting them down and giving them to her. you keep walking the path #soulsbornes in general are so. SO good at this #but im also thinking about elidibus... bc i'm finishing pandaemonium rn and... waaaaugh #at least with hades you get the satisfaction of knowing this is a heroic confrontation good vs evil #where the victor will quite literally write the history and go down as the hero of their time #and you're both taking up blades with noble purpose etc. there's an honor in it. one you do not get fighting elidibus #like at first you think oh this is ascians doing ascian stuff. per usual. this is some new plot #but no this isn't a heroic battle this is a man completely spiraling and losing his mind and sense of self #in finishing hades you snapped the last thread keeping him tethered #the best you can do is put him down. it doesn't feel good! i fucking love it

[kittlyns]

Something I've noticed amongst my family is that they would rather keep you at a distance but let you know they're "thinking of you" by praying for you, and not making any real effort to ask how you are, or if there's anything they can do for you.

#apparently my grandmother told my aunt that I'm sad sometimes and some other stuff? #and then my aunt texted me out of nowhere today to tell me I'm in her prayers #it's weird cuz my aunt really only texts me on my birthday (which is sad to me cuz we used to be so close when I was a kid) #I did thank my aunt cuz I know she meant well. got no response to that btw. and it really just got me thinking #if I were in a really bad place (I'm not. it's just a very neutral place for me rn) I think it would do me more good #to have someone reach out and say 'hey I was thinking abt you recently. what's going on? are you up to anything new? blah blah blah' #rather than just telling me they're praying for me and then fucking off immediately #like I'm aware that my mental health is no one's responsibility and no one is obligated to take on my burden #but I just feel like the prayer thing is a way of washing your hands of a situation. you can say you did something for them. tried your best #and if things go sideways (ie I end it all or whatever it is my extended family thinks I'm going to do) they can sidestep blame #idk. this might not make much sense #but it just saddens me a little.

[orangetintedglasses]

( Do you ever just get real frustrated with trying to get stuff going after bullshit finally calms down in the space to the point where the brain gremlins (paired with your infamously hair-triggered minimal self-worth as much as you try not to be someone who prods for reassurances anymore) just start going delete the blog, who fuckin' cares

or is it just because I'm running on very little sleep and my RSD is starting to try and convince me of things that are likely not true )

#negative;; #( I checked it's been nearly a month since I last posted 'negative;;' stuff I feel like once a month is good LMAO ) #( I'm just having a very bad brain time rn ) #( things are stressful rn and I am having A Bad Time ) #( I can think of some things to do to help with this I am just. Blgh ) #( I'll do 'em when I get the time tomorrow for now it's just *frustration void* ) #curtains down ✧〗( ooc )

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

It's dead af at work. We got through our four reservations and have had no walk ins, and my manager won't cut me because he hates doing my job (and we're friends and he knows I need the money) and tbh I don't want to be cut (can't really afford to be) but I'm actually going insane from sitting on my stool, going through Tumblr, Insta, Kindle, then standing up and going through those apps again, then sitting down and going through those apps again, etc. it's nice to get paid to do nothing, because tbh if I was cut then I'd just be doing this but in my bed, but I'm getting so fucking restless.

#truly im unneeded rn #my other manager gave me the option to be cut before my shift even started but again. I'm broke af #so i came in. and im getting paid $15 an hour to scroll through all of my apps #and im trying to be mildly productive #trying to do some resding because i didnt resd as much as i wanted this month #to make up for it i finished three books in the last two days and im going for a fourth #one of them i had already started. one was pretty short. and one was so good that i tore through it fast #this is a more difficult story. about a school shooting. not super fun but a good story nonetheless #you ever read a book and then want to forget it so you can read it for the first time again? #i just read jumper by Melanie Crowder and it was so good. although apparently the diabetes information isnt accurate #but the story was very very good and kept me interested the whole way #the problem with this school shooting story is that its good. it draws my attention. but its understandably very hard to read #fourteen ish minutes until my paycheck goes through and then i find out if i can pay rent this month #that's part of why im restless too. nervous about paying rent. my job hours are unpredictable and so are the paychecks #i think ill be okay but as always im terrified that it wont #anyway im in a bit of a reading rut. if you hsve any book recs (not a big fan of fantasy. generally like realistic fiction. ya. lgbt) #that type of stuff. like jumper. the Miseducation of Cameron Post. message not found. stuff like that #open to recommendations #love yall. i hope you all have more thsn enough money to pay rent

[keeps-ache]

man. wish i had some menudo from the taqueria(1).exe

#just me hi #staring wistfully out the window #i love the canned stuff with my whole heart but i would like some spicy rn hfbvsh #/there are 2 taquerias nearby but my loyalties are to the first one hfbvhs #sorry taqueria(1).exe you'll always be second <//3 #//anyway i Am eating salad rn lol :3 #it's pretty good idk why i'm thinking abt menudo lmaoo #where did this thought come from.. #also i don't get my mother's beef with croutons like. i'm sorry but that Is objectively the best part of the salad. nothing wrong with that #hfsh #//but it really feels like the worst kind of betrayal when we drive past the first one to get to the second #like i am so sorry they have no sense of loyalty... of truth....... of comradeship........ tragic hbfvhs #the owners are really nice too i like them :3 #and they may not have horchata but they DO have those funkin. what are they called #i know the dang name to them my dad used to be obsessed with them when we were little #oh my stars what was it CALLED.... •-• #lord i really forgot Fhvsbhdsd #jarritos for funks sake HFHV - had to go ask my mom cuz i forgor and So did my siblings Lmaooo #//anyway finished my salad and yea 👍👍:3 #i like this dressing it's good #idk What was going on with the last one i used it was actually kind of gross ? sad #this one has Cheese in it! v nice v nice #//anywho omw now #i'm supposed to be busy or something.. the world is a mysterious place hvfsh #tooooodles :3

[sysig]

I'm almost finished with this notebook with it's horrible paper, and I just finished the first page of my Big Project

#Oh yeah - it's all coming together #Hgggg I am so sick of this notebook! It's wack as fuck! #It has made editing a Chore for the past eight months >:0 Not fun or meditative At All #Even worse is that the paper feels good to draw on but the cleanup is just! Awful! #I've just been completely ignoring my non-lined homemade notebook because it feels bad to draw on lol #The rest of the doodles for this year - yes that's how far the queue is backlogged rn lol - are still on that paper #But at least I'm like ><this close to being done with it ugh #I've got two blank pages and then like three half-doodled on pages that I'm planning to just knock out #It looks so weird 'cause the pages are all out of order lol - the first page was in March and the last in November #But like the next page after the first is /also/ November lol #Like it's largely in chronological order but it jumps around quite a lot! It was an interesting experiment #I also think it's funny since the first page got some fandom stuff that didn't come back around until now but it Looks chronological lol #I think I'll do it again but with some modifications - if I run out of steam/interest/motivation then I can fill it in however I want #Keeping it on-theme is fun but I find myself pushing ideas when I don't actually have any :P That's no good #It's not Always bad - I like quite a few of my spacefiller ideas! But if anything that just proves that finishing things out to make room- #Well like I said it was fun lol #And! As stated! I finished the first page of my big behind-the-scenes project! >:3c #Man I haven't worked on a comic proper-like in uhhhhh #It's gotta be at least five years lol geez #It's been a weird rhythm to try to fall into lol I'm Way out of practice - but it's nice to see it come together! #Lotta steps to get it into the shape I want - hard to sustain - but slowly and surely I've got this one :) #It'll be good to finally have it Out haha

[ronanlynchbf]

do u all maybe perhaps possibly have game recommendations 🤨🧐

#^^^^ said in the tone of 'u got any games on ur phone' #i am not very good at games tbh but i've got the spirit if that gives u any clues to the level of difficulty i can handle. #also i am already playing a couple of games but i'd like to play more but don't know which games are worth the money or not so.. recs pls 🤲 #OH the games that i'm playing rn are life is strange and stray <33 and then i'm also playing uncharted with all of my siblings except the #youngest & playing detroit: become human with just the three older siblings & playing it takes two with all six of my siblings + i've played #and finished disco elysium and the quarry if that gives u anything to go off of regarding what games i like/have liked. #i also have life is strange 2 downloaded for when i've finished pt 1 and zelda is available if i want to play on my oldest sibling's #nintendo he also has hollow knight on his account (which i use also) and my younger sister has the sims so if i want to play that i could #also but i don't rlly think i'd enjoy it very much i'm more into mystery and action and puzzles and those story focused games with dialogue #options and choices that matter. so. anyway.. any gamers out there who have recommendations pls do give me those recommendations #i don't mind horror games also! as long as it's not like. evil spirits/ghosts bc for some reason those do kind of get me. i literally #stopped watching yellowjackets in the evening bc i kept getting nightmares abt 1) all the creepyness and the spirit/man with no eyes stuff & #2) just that whole situation in general; plane crash into the wilderness wolves roaming around at night running out of food etc etc. #but mostly i don't mind horror nor blood and guts and gore so if the game u would rec is horror that'd be fine <3

[queenofthieves]

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#do anyhting to make myself feel that sort of relief rn. it's been feeling like such a reminder of all the things i can't do for myself #that i should be able to do but my body is too broken for. that would at least be some form of relief and gentleness. #burning burning jfc #i do try... to give others what i need to some degree... idk that i'm good at it but at least i can be... helpful... i wish that i .... #... it'll be snowing there on a significant day this week and it feels like such a strong pull.. but i am also upset that i could easily be #swayed. i'm just tired . it's all too much and the physical pain stuff is just anotehr layer. i can't even do anything about it. #and i keep thinking and know that usually it'd be dormant again by now but ugh. i'm tired. i'm so so tired. #it's bad. tired of feeling unnecessary and unneeded and unwanted. not missable. i'm tired. it all feels wrong. #it really does feel so helpless when there are so many things that would lift this and make things doable. #it is a certain kind of hell when it is all out of my reach. and i still try the things only i can do. i try and try and try. but. #i'm so desperate for any relief

[rubberbandballqueen]

since i just rb'd a poll abt high school grades now's probably a good time to drop one of my many million-dollar ideas for how to run a high school classroom, which is that i think that at the start of a quarter/semester kids should be asked if they want hw to count towards their grades or not bc i was So Fucking Bad at submitting hw in high school, but my test scores were really good, so i'd rather have not had hw count towards my grades. but obviously there are a good number of kids who are either bad at taking tests or anxious abt their grades dropping and are diligent abt turning in hw, so letting hw count towards their grades would give them some padding in that situation.

#i really Do need to just maintain a doc of all my ideas for how to run a classroom #bc i've been storing some of these in my brain since i was like 12. that's a fucking decade by this point What the hell #the worm speaks #unfortunately it's probably unfeasible to Not have tests n the like count towards a grade at all #like personally as a student i do not hate testing!! as someone who enjoys gathering data / information i'm kind of obsessed w/it!!! #but i also have very strong opinions on TEST DESIGN as well as curriculum design n stuff #like tests CAN be a useful tool for measuring knowledge! if you design it right. and even then it's like. not perfect #one of my other million dollar ideas is that rather than giving out a final i'd give kids the choice to either do like #a freeform project to demonstrate their knowledge in literally Any Way They Want (foster creativity n stuff) #or! they could also just take a paper exam if they want. idk if anyone would take that option but idk. #mostly i'm just fond of the idea of giving high school students a sense of autonomy over their grades n education #like another reason why i think the 'do you want hw to count to your grades?' question should be re-asked at the start of quarters or w/e #is bc sometimes we also make mistakes! and evaluate consequences wrong. or situations change!! so they should be allowed to change things #how much would hw count for if they made it worth anything is honestly not smth i'm sure abt rn tbh #but i also know that i like. would also not even grade their hw on correctness just on completion anyway #a number of my high school teachers did that; bc the point was that we were responsible for ensuring its correctness #they all knew that kids would copy off each other and if that's how you learn. go for it!! my ap calc teacher openly acknowledged this!!! #anyway good lord i really do have limitless rants n tedtalks abt education in me lmao i need to sleebies now #so i can study for my calc quiz tmrw morning ( •̀ ω •́ )y

[suckishima]

rrrrrrrrr im so frustrated with my writing. its just been weeks of struggle and whyyyy. idk i think i need to rework or rethink what im going for with this one or something, its like i can feel the threads of the themes i wanna do are sooo close to tying together but it just isnt quite reaching yet and so it reads like a stilted bland mess but the more i stare at it the further away it feels aaah

i know it can get there i kNOW it can, the ending and like aha moment is so cleaaaar that i think its almost too solid and thats why my beginning feels so fucked—like i just keep asking myself 'well if hes gonna get there in chapter 5, whats stopping him from getting there now in chapter 2??' i tHOUGHT i had reasons but now that im there i just keep instinctually writing him to have the connecting/realization moment anyway and like. if that's how it is then what even IS the story??? i need a break

#leaving for my parents for christmas tomorrow and while its always a little lowkey stressful there esp during holidays #itll be nice to at least have a different stress than this one for a few days lmao #mandatory writing break coming at a good time ig #anyway a lot of the real problem is that a big reason i wanted to write this fic is bc i wanted to explore tsukkis mental space during #the ball boy arc bc i feel like its an interesting transitional time for him in terms of like being after his big moment but then #he slightly regresses in that post match bathroom scene until yamaguchi sets him straight and like. i love just how furudate is showing #that growth isnt linear and so i wanna explore how tsukki would feel during the camp (which he didnt seem stoked to go to) #and in contrast with hinata who couldnt go but weasels in anyway and like how does tsukki deal with #that intensity of stupidity and passion in regards to how he feels about his own relationship to volleyball now #like i dont think its a straight line from blocking ushijima -> admitting yeah sometimes volleyball is fun #i think theres some wavering in there and oooo i wanna explore it but FUCK its hard?? #why furudate why does tsukki deny extra practice the first night of rookie camp but accepts the second night?? #i know why he accepts night 2 im excited abt that. i'm big time struggling with pinpointing why he says no night 1 in a way #that doesnt come off like 1 hes fully regressing 2 like im having him say no purely bc thats how it is in canon so magical ~plot reasons~ #truthfully furudates reason is probably just 'was funny to have tsukki and kunimi say no in unison' and it isnt out of character for #tsukki to say no either but i also can feeeel it i can feeel the threads of a solid character developmental reason that will fit with #all the OTHER stuff im also trying to do lmao #i just need to piece it together in the right way in the right order and right emphasis #and its so cloooose rn but ugh it just feels wishwashy atm #and so. i struggle lmao #eesh anyway fun tag rant yay #heres to hoping not thinking about this for a week will help #x #....who wants to take bets on whether ill delete this later lol

[sometimes-stufful]

Hey guys. It's been um *checks watch* like 5 or 6 years since I've used this blog. How's everybody doing? Sorry for the unannounced hiatus all that time ago.

I don't know if this blog will become active again. However there is a good chance that it might! I'm starting to create a plot for the blog's characters (because I still love them dearly), so hopefully I can create that and get this show up and running again. I've also been updating everyone's refs. So even if I don't come back to posting here officially, I think I'm going to at least upload those. I also have some new characters in the works that I may post refs for if I don't go thru with returning/making this blog more plot-centric.

I really do want to return to sometimes-stufful. However I'm an adult now (I'm literally about to turn 25 in 10 days, holy shit), and the past few years have been rough as hell on my mental health. I've lost a lot, and am just starting to heal from everything that's gone down. And I work full time, and have a datemate now, so finding the chance to draw is difficult. But this blog helped me on my art journey before. And I'd love to use it as an excuse to draw more, which is the main thing that pulling me back into the pokemon ask community. Another thing that's been pulling me back is the strong af urge to create content for my characters. Because I still love them so very much. I think about them so often that I want to put them in Situations and share it all with you. Although first I wanna get better at drawing humans lol (its relevant I swear). But I could get back into the swing of drawing some 'mons if I really set myself out to.

Let's see how it all goes. I'll keep you all updated. For those of you who have stuck around waiting so long, thank you. I hope to join you in this community again soon.

In the meantime, here's where you can find me and my artwork:

Main blog Toyhouse Artfight

#daily pokemon #mun shoosh #Yeah I'm not dead I just Came Back Wrong #but I'm ok #things are getting better so hopefully that means I can return here #I moved like a year and a half back to the suburbs with my fam and am now trying to find a place to move to with my datemate #when I move with my datemate I'll have more free time I think #or at least I'll be a lot less stressed so I'll feel good enough to draw #which has been the main thing holding me back for a long time besides time restraints #although time is less of an issue. I was able to participate in artfight for instance with little issue #besides my own desire to draw (which can be affected by my mood and my job and hone life stress me out A LOT) #before I was able to be left alone for hours while visiting my dad's place so I had time and freedom to do as I pleased #but my dad isn't here anymore and I don't have a space to escape to like that anymore either #when I move I will tho. my datemate and I are both the sorts to want a long period of Me Time where we're left alone to enjoy some peace #but I think rn I could squeeze in some time to draw again #lets see how it goes #I really want to solidify the plot I've been rotating in my head tho #rn I only have some concepts ideas #and an idea for the newest sometimes-stufful post I'd make introducing the beginning of said plot #like I can see that post super clearly in my mind. but Im nit gonna make it til I have more stuff planned #so stay tuned. hopefully I'll be able to give you guys something #although I have a longterm fanfic/book series that Im working on (warrior cats related lol) #so finding the motive to manage multiple stories at once is difficult #but the way I'd tell this story is more visual vs the one I've been working on which is all written #so maybe I can motivate myself to do bith cause they're different #idk yet. lets see