#but he'll backpedal on it. 'no wait I shouldn't phrase it like that!!'

[birdmenmanga]

the beloved mutuals will love to know that after a good sleep I’m normal again

#just thinking thoughts... #I'm soooo silly. it's so silly. we both want to be friends so bad. #it's soooo obvious. #two guys who want to be friends so bad and lurk so hard on each others' social medias #I'm curiously watching his personal discord and he's curiously watching my twitch stream #we never breathe a word about the lurking though. until we casually bring it up in person. and it's like oh you were watching? #on god? #lol. #hold hands and sing kumbaya already. lol. #he mentioned briefly that he felt (what I believe the chinese meant) social anxiety sometimes and like. this behavior tracks lol. #is it a coincidence that the only instagram post of mine he liked was the one captioned with #'what do you mean rotating you inside my mind like a rotisserie chicken doesn't count as a real friendship' #anyways. I'm going to give messaging him my all. it helps a lot that he lives on discord and not just line #lol this other guy lives on line though and I'm messaging him in english because he wanted a challenge. I'm having fun with him #he has a kind heart. his world is just a little small. #so he'll say things like 'no I'm normal!' when confronted with the mere possibility of being gay etc. #but he'll backpedal on it. 'no wait I shouldn't phrase it like that!!' #and such. and he thoughtlessly stereotypes people and things like that. but he's very willing to admit he's done things wrong #I like these two guys. I think I'll bring them to an art gallery or something sometime. I think it strikes a good balance. #I think me and the motorcycle guy are mentally in a similar headspace in terms of values and ideals #me and the other guy have the same energy and vibe #and they also don't have to spend the entire time accommodating for my linguistic limitations because they can also talk to each other #it works out in my head. I hope it's not too awkward.