#but also I don't have the eeeeeeenergy

[monster-noises]

ah fuck

it's my dad's birthday tomorrow but I'm mad at him so I'm not sure what to do :T8

#monster noises #got complicated feelings about him in general #but right now I'm actively mad but I don't want to get into it with him by saying anything or.. not saying anything #y'know? #granted idk if he would even Notice if I neglected to text him e-e #And it's not that he's a bad man to argue with #honestly he's pretty reasonable and whenever I've told him off for something he's sat and listened and discussed it #(not that the conclusion reached is always great but more so that he's not the kind of dad to go off the handle #and act ridiculous when faced with frustration from one of his kids) #but also I don't have the eeeeeeenergy #to enter that discussion with him right now #but to wish him a happy birthday would feel slightly hollow #not disingenuous #I Would want him to have a good birthday #but my heart wouldn't Truly be in it and that feels wrong to me #and also I just don't want to Fucking talk to him