#balding hasn't put me off; i don't think his weird room will either

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Why do I never trust myself. I've lived in this body for 27 years, I literally know when it's getting sick, but I was like nooo, it's just because I'm sleep deprived and on my period and autumn sometimes does weird things to my body. Stupid. Stuuuuuupid

#i'm sitting here right now in web dev class... well we're on a break atm actually #it makes no difference though because i'm comprehending absolutely nothing whatsoever #i keep having to turn my camera off because i don't want people to see me continuously coughing and blowing my nose #i feel so lousyyyyy how did this happen. it happened so fast. this morning i just had a scratchy sore throat #i sat down in a class In Which I Need To Have My Camera On and my nose was immediately like 'quick let's do an impression of niagara falls' #i'm not comprehending any part of class. i don't know if it's the lack of sleep or my sickness getting to me #but it honest to god feels like we're zooming. we JUST learned what a function is and my mans is like 'write one and invoke it' #i'm sorry WHAT. invoke the function? like summoning a demon??? sir. #and when i tell you i copied his code EXACTLY but my shit still wouldn't show up in the console log... i'm sick of this #it doesn't help that i have this absolutely hopeless crush on one of my classmates so i was desperately writing down everything i find #annoying about him to try to give myself the ick. i fear it's too late though. i mean if his weird squeaky voice and the fact that he's #balding hasn't put me off; i don't think his weird room will either #it's not even weird. it just is suspiciously clean and devoid of personality. and his bedframe is weird. anyway #(there's nothing wrong with balding it just super doesn't look good on him. plus i like a good head of hair. i like something to hang onto) #MOVING ON. i've just sent a message cancelling physio tomorrow because i can't go and infect this woman who is the only reason i'm mobile #i've NEVER texted her before though because i booked the first appointment online and the rest in person and i usually just. show up #this is gonna be the first appointment i've missed since we began in june. please clap #i just hope to fucking god i have the right number lmao like i got it from her email but. help #i think i'm liable for a 50% cancellation fee because it's less than 24 hours... fucking kill me now #i'm so mad at myself for not cancelling this morning. i KNEW i was sick i was just in denial #this is because i ate a piece of sausage roll that had been in my niece's weird little hand isn't it. #she's a toddler with permanent postnasal drip and i have a terrible immune system because i don't leave the house. such is life #look it was eat the roll or allow her to leave it on the ground in a really nice shop I WASN'T DOING THAT #personal