#anyways other than that BYU wasn't really that bad for me

[strawberrysodatown]

u know, probably the most f*cked up thing that happened to me at BYU was in like my second ish year when I was in my human development class and my professor said some super transphobic stuff to our class of like 300+ people in a huge auditorium and me- even while being honestly transphobic myself- was appalled at what he was saying and I made a comment in front of everyone about how he was wrong and I tried to talk about my trans friends experiences that I didn’t even understand fully at the time- and he used the f*cking slippery slope fallacy on me and I just gave up because I did not have the energy to argue with a grown man in front of 300+ people. But I would have now. Every time I pass by that man’s office at work when I’m cleaning I’m silently just >:(  

#he was like: oh what's next people will start identifying as animals like where does the line end?? #and in my head i was like: I know what slippery slope fallacy is sir I learned about it in middleschool shut the f*ck up #but I just kinda shrugged and sat down because OOF the pressure was intense and again- was kind of transphobic myself #in the way that I had no idea if it was real or not but I was also NOT OKAY with people being harassed about it wtf #i only hope that since then he's had some character development #because there were absolutely trans people in there- statistically with that high of a class number there had to have been #and to hear that???? #yall i'm sorry I couldn't fight better then I'm so sorry #anyways other than that BYU wasn't really that bad for me #let's just say I'm glad I took all my religion classes before I figured out that I am a lesbian hahaaaa #it probably would have been a lot harder I honestly think God was protecting me by not letting me know for so long LMAO #honestly when I think about it that way my whole life makes a lot more sense #I don't think I could have handled the mental pressure if I had been aware of myself while being at school- i was already havin a rough time #there are a lot of moments as i was growing up like: why am i so different from everyone else and why does nothing romantic happen to me #and now I'm like: my dude you would have figured things out a lot quicker otherwise and your life would have been hell #I don't care if you don't believe in God- I do and I think they were watching out for me haha :') #and now that I'm tougher i have to go through mental health crisises NOOOOOW aahhhhhhh #i'll be okay