#anyway the fic is an iwaoi fic HAHHAHA it's called 'especially for tender ones like us' it's SO good im not finished with it yet but

[frostbitesjc]

idk why but the exes to lovers trope is actually so heartbreaking. especially if you’ve known them for actual years, long enough to know every nook and cranny of the other’s psyche, and you think that the love the two of your share is enough to weather through every storm. but it’s not enough, maybe it’s a right person wrong time situation, maybe it’s something else, so the two of you split, but you’ll never be able to forget them because they’ve long imprinted themselves into your bones. 

wait a few years more, and you see them again: it feels like a punch to the gut because they’re real and they’re back and they’re right in front of you. you realise that you miss them, have missed them, for all the time you’ve spent apart—their touch and presence is like a ghost, a caress against your skin, fleeting and ephemeral. there is longing. and then you realise they’ve lived years of their life without you, and so you wonder how much they’ve changed, as subtle as it may seem, without you around to witness the change. and that cuts deeper than any knife could because you think back to the time when you thought the two of you meant forever. you’ve missed them in every sense of the word, and now you wish for something you think is long gone. 

#and then happy ending haha anyway #man whenever i read a well-written exes to lovers trope i'm just like: shaking screaming crying throwing UP #theyre so horrible. cant believe theyre breaking my heart like this #like yeah i know its a happy ending but still #it's that one scene when the character sees the other after years apart and it's just. they think the other is as beautiful as ever #and the rest of the story is just relearning the other's quirks and whatever that you've missed #it's like going home after so many years and the flowers in the garden is different. some of the furniture has been shifted. maybe- #the walls of the house have been now painted a different colour #but the foundations are the same anyway and you fall in love with it all over again despite having loved it from the very start #anyway this absolute word vomit is coming from someone whos currently reading an exes to lovers fic LMAO #and also because im listening to hard feelings by lorde at the same time #it's a wonderful and honestly heartbreaking combination. i love it #anyway the fic is an iwaoi fic HAHHAHA it's called 'especially for tender ones like us' it's SO good im not finished with it yet but #i just kNOW its going to be good all the way through okay please read it #frostbitesjc thinks out loud #bro i couldve spent this time studying econs okay nvm bye