#anyway fingers crossed for hrt which ive wanted for the past two and a half (three?) years 😔 but i can't rely on that

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mutuals send me the strength to get through tomorrow

#the situation is #i pass as a guy about 95% of the time #60% once i speak #i needa start correcting people at school before they get the idea in their heads that i'm a girl #but its FUCKING SCARY #ive genuinely never corrected anyone ever #bc before starting at this school monday i've only ever been out iwith family (too scared) #and at work with other employees or customers (too scared + one-time interaction or low stakes interaction) #whereas school. thats not 6 hours a week thats a lot mroe #fuucck #scary shit #i ahve a stomach ache just at the thought #i was meant to bring up hrt at the doctors a few months ago as a secondary thing at an appointment but i didnt #but now. for next week i have an appoinment where its the primary focus #still unlikely considering the whole process yadayada and most of all parental consent from BOTH. 😒 #and my dad is. a 'bit' of a prick #but if he hasn't made any progress by next month. well. perhaps it's time to look elsewhere #anyway fingers crossed for hrt which ive wanted for the past two and a half (three?) years 😔 but i can't rely on that #so i just need to correct peoplenow. quickly. while im still new #ueguh