#and then i wouldn't have even attempted to make friends with you both if smokey didnt text me first

[meatcatt]

YIPPEEE!! Thank you all for 1k followers! It's kinda crazy that this tumblr account I use to post silly goofy little guys has gotten as big as it is (at least big for me)! I hope to keep posting stuff you guys like for as long as I can! To celebrate I'm going to be taking doodle requests tonight and tomorrow- They'll be fully rendered doodles and you're free to request anything you'd like! I'll try to do as many as I can! My only rule is that it needs to be cult of the lamb related! If you have a request please send it to my ask box!!!

More thoughts under the cut:

Not to over share or anything- but I joined this fandom to distract myself from some shitty things that where happening in my personal life. I'm actually not big on fandom- I barely made fanart before cult of the lamb. It was actually completely on accident that I joined the fandom at all. I was sad and I spent all day scrolling through tumblr when I discovered the bishop blog of all things and became obsessed with it for a lack of a better word. I even had notifications on for it cuz it was one of the few things that made me smile while I was in a really shitty rough patch. It's kind of silly but every time it was posted to I would sneak off to the bathroom at work to read whatever the new post was. It was small but it really did make me happy. Eventually COTT was created and I took a huge gamble on joining that server in a bid to make new friends to feel better. Upon joining I met some people I really wanted to impress and started making fanart- and thus this blog was created. It's actually kinda funny because my intro to COTT still mentions that I never posted to tumblr lol. This fandom has been a wild ride for me- I met my best friend and my partner through these silly cultists and that's so cool. I'm really grateful for everything that's happened in the past 3 months and I thank you all so much for your time,,, means the world to me ;;!

#meat talks #my art #1k follower post #just adding that so i can look back on it #i didn't have anywhere to post it in the little paragraph but #my partner and my best friend are the ones who ran the bishop blog so thats so weird #guess i wanna do a special shout out to both of you (especially sky for making it) for giving me something to smile about #especially in a time i didnt have much too smile about #and then i wouldn't have even attempted to make friends with you both if smokey didnt text me first #what a strange set of concidences #anyways happy 1k to me #may this blog last for a long time :>

[waratah-moon]

24 with Joey where you used to date before he got famous?

24. My mum asked about you again. You and I are on the same wave length anon. This is my first Joe piece! and i broke my own heart writing it. 🎂 bday prompts list 🎂 masterlist / send me a message Warning: Big time angst, HEA as always (no broken hearts on this blog)

You didn't think you'd see him here. He hadn't shown up to the last few parties your friends had thrown, so you thought it would be a safe bet that he wouldn't be at this one either.

The two of you had ended on okay terms, mutually agreeing to breaking things off before he'd started the press tour. It had been hard enough being long distance while he was filming in the states, and you weren't prepared for him to be gone for even longer. He'd tried to compromise, asked you to come with him, but you couldn't leave your life behind for him.

It had been difficult seeing him everywhere since then; you couldn't go on the internet without seeing his face and the love you still had for him hadn't lessened in the months you'd been apart. Seeing him tonight for the first time since he'd collected his things from your apartment was absolutely heart wrenching.

"I can tell him to go," your friend followed your eyes across the room to where he was chatting with a small group.

"No, that's not fair. These are his friends too," you sighed, downing the rest of your drink in hopes that the alcohol would numb the stabbing feeling in your chest. You weren't suppose to feel this way. You'd been the one to suggest the split after all, so why did seeing him make you regret it?

He caught your eye, subtle pain passing over his features as he quickly looked back to the girl he was talking to. Okay, so he wanted to play it that way. If he could ignore you, you'd ignore him right back.

You didn't see him for the next hour, and resigned yourself to enjoy the company of your friends and the free alcohol. As the night was almost coming to an end, you stepped out into the empty courtyard for a breather.

"I wasn't sure if you'd be here tonight," he was hidden in an alcove outside, cigarette hanging off his lips.

"Unfortunately I am, sorry 'bout that."

"No, I was hoping you'd be here. Jordan said you usually come to Claire's parties so I thought there'd be a good chance you'd show up."

"Well you found me," you watched the smoke curl upwards from the lit end of his cigarette.

"How've you been? You look good."

"I've been alright. Not as good as you it seems."

"I've been absolutely miserable," he took a drag, his hand shaking slightly. "I hear congratulations are in order, for the promotion. I know how hard you were working for it."

You kicked the edge of a loose paving stone, "oh, thank you. How'd you know?"

His head fell back against the brick wall. "Mum asked about you again, so I asked Claire how you were doing and she told me about it. Mum says congratulations too, by the way."

"Tell her thank you."

You were both silent, the only sounds coming from the cars driving past and the soft thumping of the music playing inside the house. "I never should have let you go so easily. There's not a day that goes by that I don't regret fighting for you."

You sighed, "it wasn't working. You know that."

"We didn't try hard enough. I didn't try hard enough."

Tears stung in your eyes and you instinctively went to rub them, completely forgetting about the hour you had spent perfecting your smokey eye. "You did try, though. We both did. Do you know how much it hurt being away from you while you were filming? It was agony. I couldn't go through that again."

"It was torture for me too. But at least back then there was something to look forward to at the end of it. I eventually got to come home to you. Now it's just," he huffed, throwing his hand up in attempt to grasp the words. "It's like walking through one of those stupid mirror mazes with no way out. There's no light at the end of the tunnel."

"Been thinking about metaphors a lot, huh?" Your laugh was emotionless, as mascara tears stained your cheeks.

His frown was heartbreaking. "Baby."

The pet name went straight to your stomach. "Don't."

"Please," he pleaded. "Just tell me I'm not the only one suffering here. If you tell me you've over me then I'll go. I'll try to move on."

"I-" you started but the words wouldn't form. Your heart couldn't lie to him. "I still love you. I tried not to, I tried so hard, but I can't stop loving you."

"Can we just go back to how things were?"

"But it didn't work-"

"We can make it work. We can facetime every day, and I'll try to stay in London as much as I can and-"

"Slow down," you placed your hand on his forearm and he stilled under your touch. "If we're going to try this again, we need to talk about it. Can we get breakfast tomorrow morning?"

"Yeah. Alright." He dropped the cigarette, crushing the butt with his shoe. "Uh, can I ask you for a favour?"

"Depends, what is it?"

"Can I kiss you?"

You caved, answering his question by cupping the back of his neck and bringing his lips to your own.

#waratah-moon's birthday 2023 #joseph quinn #joe quinn #joseph quinn x you #joseph quinn x reader #joe quinn x you #joe quinn x reader