#and personally. PERSONALLY. i can't do this no more <3 i CANNAE HANDLE that kind of anxiety sadness insecurity confusion!

[thebirdandhersong]

sometimes (very often) I just sit there like ?????????

#mother has asked once again in all seriousness if i'd consider mr knight if he were to ask me out a second time................ #mother the answer is you couldn't pay me enough money to do that. i'd literally rather be single for the rest of my life #between mr knight and the engineer boy ive learned quite a lot about what i'd like/DEFINITELY would not like in a potential boyfriend #and personally. PERSONALLY. i can't do this no more <3 i CANNAE HANDLE that kind of anxiety sadness insecurity confusion! #the anniversary of the day i wrote mr knight a ten page (occasion: valentine's day) love letter for the first time #and received a random Facebook meme and two weeks of radio silence in return is coming up and i must say #that kind of experience is enough for a girl to put her foot down and declare: that's enough. i can't do this no more :-) #anyway father too was like well all things considered mr knight's not the worst option. he's okay. he could turn out okay #to which i say. father. i may seem and feel desperate at times but i'm not THAT desperate. #no offense to mr knight he simply isnt the right person for me and im simply not the right person for him #i wouldnt be offended if he said you couldnt pay me enough money to date her again either (well. maybe a little. but still)