#and now (here is the tmi) every time I masturbate it's. blood. instead of the usual. like the black bits you get with a heavy period too

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#big ol tmi right here stop reading if you're not afan of scary medical stuff #well. potential scary medical stuff. im scared but idk what's happening #basically. the only thing that's changed in my life is that im on the depo injection right #and now (here is the tmi) every time I masturbate it's. blood. instead of the usual. like the black bits you get with a heavy period too #which i think i remember knowing is like womb skin bits. the black bits in period blood #anyway that's gross #and im scared #i looked it up and like one website said ehh you're fine that's a normal side effect and one said Go See A Doctor Immediately #so uh. yeah. #im hoping it's fine. but im gonna go to the injection appt to talk about this instead of having the injection. #i haven't spoke to anyone about it yet im hoping typing it here will kinda make it easier to say on the 19th #like ill think it's over wait a couple days ahh y'know and then after or sometimes ill notice like an hour later #ill bleed overnight and sometimes the next day again #by 'ill think its over' i mean the light-for-me periods i get on the depo #unless im supposed to have stopped entirely and the whole thing is due to the same issue idk #i don't know the signs of cancers other than breat cancer - it doesn't run in the family apparently but we are all at high risk #they were gonna do like top surgery on me as a kid just in case but they ended up not #i wish they had tbh itd save a great deal of bother #sorry anyway im big stressed and im in period-level pain and all my joints are bad again and everything #so im rambling now cs im scared #i can do injections but im very very scared of like. exams and stuff. especially this kind