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6 winners and 4 losers from the 2021 NBA Draft

Here are the biggest winners and losers of the 2021 NBA Draft.

The 2021 NBA Draft went off rails after the third pick. While the Toronto Raptors were unanimously projected to take Gonzaga guard Jalen Suggs at No. 4, Masai Ujiri and co. opted for another big, strong forward in Florida State’s Scottie Barnes instead.

That set the stage for a draft that was full of surprises. No one thought Josh Giddey was an option for the Oklahoma City Thunder at No. 6. Davion Mitchell going to the Sacramento Kings at No. 9 caught everyone off guard. It was legitimately shocking to see the Spurs opt for Josh Primo at No. 12.

Read our live draft grades if you want to catch up on the action. It goes without saying that: a) the draft is always a crapshoot, b) it takes several years to truly assess how a team performed in the draft.

I’ve been doing this long enough that I remember giving the Timberwolves an A for taking Jarrett Culver and the Suns a D for taking Cameron Johnson in 2019. That certainly doesn’t look good now as the Wolves are reportedly trying to move on from Culver after two poor seasons, while Johnson was just a crucial piece on an NBA Finals team. Again, this stuff requires time.

There is some value in instant reactions to the draft if only to see how they age over the years. Suns fans sure felt better about the team “reaching” on Jalen Smith in the 2020 lottery after the success of Johnson. We’ll see how that one plays out down the road, too. For now, let’s again overreact to what saw on draft night and come up with what feels like the winners and losers in the heat of the moment.

6 winners in the 2021 NBA Draft

Orlando Magic

The Magic’s recent draft history has not been particularly impressive (we still love Cole Anthony!), but it sure feels like they hit this one out of the park by grabbing two players in the top five of our big board.

Suggs fell into the Magic’s lap after the Raptors opted for Barnes. While we view Suggs as more of a supercharged complementary guard rather than a true lead engine, he’s unquestionably an awesome young talent to add to Orlando’s rebuild. Suggs joins a fascinating backcourt in Orlando that also includes Anthony, RJ Hampton, and Markelle Fultz. Suggs, Anthony, and Hampton all feel like combo guards, while Fultz is the best of the bunch at touching the paint but is coming off a torn ACL he suffered in January. The fit will be interesting, but Suggs feels like a pretty safe bet to be a productive pro for a long time as a quick and powerful 6’4 guard who brings it defensively, thrives in transition, and is at least competent (and maybe better than that) in the dribble-pass-shoot areas of his skill set.

Wagner is also a bit of a redundant fit on a roster that already includes Jonathan Isaac and Chuma Okeke, but we love his game. Wagner says he’s grown to nearly 6’11 and showed tremendous defensive versatility in his two years at Michigan. His three-point shot is the clear swing factor — he hit 34 percent at Michigan on solid volume, yet appeared to lose confidence after a few misses — but this is a great pick at No. 8 in our humble opinion.

Atlanta Hawks

The Hawks picked at No. 20 and No. 48 and came away with two of the top-10 players on our board. Of course we are going to mark them down as a winner.

Jalen Johnson has a super enticing combination of speed, power, and passing. He thrives with his open floor ball handling, and should immediately give the Hawks a new dimension in transition. He also has all the tools to be a good defensive player. Johnson is a clunky fit in the halfcourt because he’s a non-shooter, but it’s absolutely worth taking a flier on his talent at this point in the first round.

Cooper is simply the best shot creator in this class. Yes, he’s small (6’1, 180 pounds) and didn’t shoot well at Auburn. He’s also one of two freshmen in the last 30 years to average 20 points and eight assists per game in a major conference, with the other being his new teammate Trae Young. From this perspective, the bogus NCAA investigation that limited him to 12 games really hurt Cooper’s draft stock. He may not get a huge opportunity right away with the Hawks since he can’t play alongside Young, but on the plus side ATL won’t have to change their scheme when Trae goes to the bench. Cooper is so good at getting into the paint, finding open teammates as a passer, and drawing fouls. It was wild to see him slip into the late second round. Read our profile on Cooper here.

Philadelphia 76ers

In Daryl Morey’s first draft as leader of the Sixers last year, he landed what we considered to be a major steal by taking Tyrese Maxey in the early 20s. He did it again this year, nabbing Jaden Springer at No. 28.

We had Springer as a lottery-level prospect. He’s the youngest American player in this draft, but turned in a productive season in the SEC as a freshman at Tennessee. Springer is a monstrous on-ball defender who can really get after smaller opposing guards. It feels like he didn’t show everything he could do offensively with the Vols, but a) he still led the team in scoring, and b) he hit 44 percent of his threes on low volume. He’s one of the best long-term bets in this class for his point of attack defense and off-ball offense.

The Sixers also picked up Charles Bassey and Filip Petrusev in round two. Either could become a nice backup center option behind Joel Embiid.

Cleveland Cavaliers

Evan Mobley is the sort of prospect talented to go No. 1 overall in most years. To get him at No. 3 is a boon for a Cleveland team that badly needed a talent infusion of this level.

In our eyes, Mobley is the most versatile big man to hit the draft in a long time. He should be able to play the four next to Jarrett Allen early in his career before becoming a full-time five as he adds strength to his frame. His ability to play multiple pick-and-roll coverages defensively and act as an unselfish passer on offense should do wonders for this time around Darius Garland and Isaac Okoro. If he three-point shot develops and if he’s able to add muscle while maintaining his quickness, it wouldn’t be a shock to see him eventually end up as the best player in the draft.

Scottie Barnes

There was no better place for Barnes to end up than Toronto. The Raptors have a long history of doing a great job developing their young players. Barnes has a lot of tools to work with because of his length, motor, defensive versatility, and playmaking. He also needs to develop his shooting, ball handling, and vertical pop around the basket if he’s going to reach his full potential.

Toronto and Miami feel like the best best places for a tools-y young player to go and develop their skills. Barnes should be thankful he landed north of the border.

Detroit Pistons

Cade Cunningham is that dude. Enough said.

Cade Cunningham’s sunglasses pic.twitter.com/EkVv5zPcsT

— Billy Heyen (@BillyHeyen) July 30, 2021

4 losers in the 2021 NBA Draft

San Antonio Spurs

OK listen: Gregg Popovich and the rest of the Spurs’ braintrust knows more about ball than me or anyone else with the audacity to lob criticism at them. It’s easy to see the logic behind the Josh Primo pick. San Antonio needed to take an upside swing after compiling a solid roster of young players that lacks top-end star-power. There’s a case to be made for Primo as a high ceiling pick: he’s super young (he started playing for Alabama as a 17-year-old), he’s fast, he has serious bounce, and he hit 38 percent of his threes. He may be a good NBA player one day.

There’s also nothing about Primo’s season at Alabama that suggested he should be a lottery pick. He struggled to read the floor, finishing with more turnovers than assists. His handle is shaky, he lacked finishing craft, he was often overpowered defensively, and he didn’t show the ability to play through contact. More than anything, Primo is just a raw player who is likely to need a lot of time before he’s ready to contribute at the NBA level. We didn’t have him as a top-30 player in the class.

You would be wise to trust the Spurs over me, but this sure feels like a shaky pick a day after the draft.

Sacramento Kings

The Kings were reportedly interested in taking Wagner at No. 9, but the Magic scooped him up one pick earlier. Sacramento still had a lot of good options on the board, but they went with a questionable one (in our opinion) by selecting Davion Mitchell out of Baylor.

Mitchell skyrocketed up draft boards after helping lead the Bears to the national championship. He has a super quick first step, he’s a great on-ball defender, and enjoyed massive shooting improvement in his last year in school. He’ll also turn 23 years old before he starts his rookie year and didn’t turn into a high-level NBA prospect until late in his career. His big shooting leap feels like it could be exaggerated (he only hit 64 percent of his free throws), he’s one of the smallest players in this draft, and he isn’t particularly advanced as a passer.

He’s also just a weird fit for a roster that already has Tyrese Haliburton and De’Aaron Fox. The Kings would have been better off going with Moses Moody in this spot in our opinion. We’ll see how it works out.

Armchair analysts

One thing that became clear during the draft: there’s a huge disconnect between how the blogboys like myself see the draft compared to how teams see the draft.

The amateur consensus had Primo at No. 35 overall and the Spurs took him at No. 12. The amateur consensus had Cooper at No. 12 and he went No. 48. The amateur consensus had Springer at No. 10 and he went No. 28. The amateur consensus had Jared Butler at No. 17 and he went No. 40. The amateur consensus had JT Thor at No. 20 and went No. 37. The amateur consensus had Chris Duarte at No. 27 and he went No. 13. You get the point.

We’ll see how it works out! That’s why the draft is so much fun. I certainly have plenty of hits and misses scattered throughout my years of covering the draft, as will anyone working in the league or making educated guesses as a hobby. It’s just clear that people outside of the league and people inside of the league value different things (or, as a wise man said, maybe the NBA just lacks imagination).

The Warriors’ veteran core

We didn’t like the James Wiseman pick last year, or the Jonathan Kuminga pick this year. We love the Moses Moody pick. Regardless, it’s hard to see how three players 20 years old or younger are going to help the Warriors’ capitalize on the remainder Stephen Curry, Draymond Green, and Klay Thompson’s prime.

Maybe the Warriors are saving up for a big move. They still need to find a team that values their young guys as highly as they do. There was a report that the Warriors rejected Philadelphia’s counteroffer for Ben Simmons that asked for Wiseman, Andrew Wiggins, both lottery picks this year, and two future firsts. That seems like a lot to offer for Simmons, but Simmons also seems like he would have been a nice fit with Golden State’s veteran core.

The Warriors still need a major talent infusion to be a legit title contender. It’s hard to expect Thompson to single-handedly push them there given that he’s missed two full seasons because of two major injuries since we last saw him on an NBA court. It’s hard to expect Wiseman to make huge leap given how much he struggled as a rookie.

Golden State’s ownership said they were ‘lightyears ahead’ of the rest of the league when they were at their peak. We’ll see if that still holds true while Curry and Green enter the twilight of their prime.

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Greetings! :) I am just about there......it is really coming to a close........I think? I hope you enjoy this next bit! :)

“Alright, Rod! We’re ready when you are.” Katie says. Dustin goes to the side, but I stay where I am. Rod comes by me and mouths I’m sorry. I only nod. He begins the speech but when he comes to the kiss, he bends down. He simply looks at me before continuing on. I come on at my cue and we finish the scene. I notice that Matt is snickering this time. What is so funny? He comes to me now.

“So, Princess, I see you have leading men fighting over you.”

“Why are you laughing?” I just ignore his comment.

“What? Nothing! I was simply watching the proceedings. I’m waiting for Derek to come back with me.”

“I’m tired of being caught in arguments!”

“I know, dear. It comes with the territory though. Derek is in awe and I think they both want you, so now it’s time to decide which of them to choose.”

“Seems either way, I lose here if I get chosen! Dustin will grumble if he loses and Rod will grumble that I’m in a show with Dustin as my love interest if he does. First day back and everything is a mess!”

“It will get better. Oh, Russ said to drop by the restaurant tonight. He has a special meal for our night back home. I got a message on my phone.”

“Yeah, that sounds like dear Russ. I do want to see him! I owe him so much!”

“You owe him?”

“Yes! He gave me you for a whole weekend! I could never repay him for such but I’m in his debt forever!” Matt smiles and wraps me in his hug.

“I told you, I’m the grateful one here.” He says it into my hair so no one else can hear him. I hold on to him. Right now, he’s the only thing that makes sense to me!

“OK You two! Love fest is over!” Rena comes beside us. I pick my head up.

“What are you talking about?”

“Break it up! It’s time to hear their decision.” She whispers, pulling me away from Matt’s grasp. Matt turns to go back beside Derek. Rena places me between Dustin and Rod. UGH!

Katie smiles. “Well, we both agreed that Maxey is the best for her role. We thought long and hard on this and we chose…..” I’m so nervous! I got my part so now…..am I screwed here? “a newcomer for our leading man! Everyone, meet Alejandro!” WHAT?! NO! It couldn’t be! He comes out of the other room and sure enough!

“Alejandro? It’s really you?” I’m so surprised!

“Yes, it’s me but I never dreamed I would get to work with you! I’m so glad to see you again!” He sees Matt at the table. “Both of you!” Rod and Dustin both have glum looks on their faces. I bring him in for a hug.

“I thought you were running errands” I tell him.

“Yes, well, I didn’t know you were an actress. I can’t believe my luck.” He says this all very low. Rod walks over and shakes Alejandro’s hand.

“Congratulations on getting the part.” He smiles.

“This is Rod, he’s my boyfriend.”

“Oh, well congratulations on your life!” Alejandro smiles and shakes Rod’s hand ferociously! Rod grins even bigger.

“You two know each other?”

“Yes” I tell Rod. “He was the bellhop at the hotel we stayed in. He went above and beyond and I’m so glad because he was extra nice to us!” Alejandro blushes.

“Oh I see. Well, welcome aboard to our rag-tag bunch here.” Rod has one arm on me and one on him. “Thank you for being so kind to my girl here.”

“No problem.”

I look up and Dustin shrugs then leaves. Rena is close behind him. Matt leads Derek out of the room but Katie comes to us.

“Alejandro, we need to take care of all your paperwork now, OK?” she says.

“OK, I’ll follow you.” He grins and waves to Rod and me.

“So he took care of you?” Rod lifts his eyebrow at me.

“Yes, he did quite a job!” I smile back to him and put my arms around his waist.

“I thought Matt was supposed to do that!” He smirks.

“Oh you! Matt did his part and Alejandro did his.”

“Good! You deserve the royal treatment!” He picks me up and spins around with me. “I am glad to have my beautiful girl back! It made me smile to hear you say that too.”

“Say what?”

“That I’m your boyfriend! I can’t believe those words came out of your mouth and you really meant me.”

“I wouldn’t say that about anyone else! I’ve told you, you’re stuck with me!”

“I am lucky to hear that!” He sets me down and kisses me again. “Now, I need your ears and voice for my show….if you would be so kind.” We walk back to his booth but there are a few people there now. He gets one guy to play back several parts and we see if we can improve them. It takes quite a while to work it out but we are both happier when it’s completed. We worked through lunch and only had a couple of snacks brought in, so I’m starving by the time we finish.

“Matt said Russ has a special meal for us at the restaurant. You ready to go?”

“Yeah, Russ told me about that. Sure, if you’re ready.”

“I am! I’m so hungry now!”

“I’ll gather up stuff. You can go check to see if Matt is ready.”

“OK” I hug him then go to Matt’s booth.

#My Story

[classicallyelegant]

Even on a SUNDAY? Why yes, of course! LOL Why not?

He smiles but then takes a more serious tone. “I heard about your run-in with Mr. Key this afternoon.”

“You know about that? Umm…am I in trouble now?”

He laughs and shakes his head. “No, darling. You were amazing in how you handled him! I’m so proud of you!” He hugs me. He even keeps his arm around me when he straightens up again. “I didn’t like how that guy seemed fixated on you but I see you can handle yourself pretty well. Russ and I both were relieved that he’s out of the picture now.”

“Russ knows as well? Oh goodness! Does Rod know too?”

“No and I don’t think either of us should say much to him about it. Like I said, I’m glad that jerk is gone now. You shouldn’t have to worry about him at all anymore.”

“Matt, you didn’t do anything I should know about, did you?”

“Why perish the thought, Maxey!  I am innocent!”

“Yeah about like a rat!” I laugh as he brings me closer to him. I’m blushing so much!

“Are you about ready to turn in for the night?”

“Yes, I think I am.”

He stands up and bows before me. “Shall we, milady?” He offers me his arm to lead me out. Everyone still there smiles and claps as I take his arm. Oh I’m so red right now! When we get upstairs to our room, I put all of my bags down and then grab him! I want to hold him! I know it’s only been a few hours but it feels like ages! He doesn’t pull away, he doesn’t hold back either. His arms are around me and his chin is on my head. Matt! You’re mine again! All Mine!

“I’m so glad we’re together again.” I mumble into him.

“I am too!”

“I was glad to see Russ. I’ve missed his smile.”

“Yeah, he and I decided to see each other today. You aren’t mad, are you?”

“No, of course not! I just wish I could have thanked him for the cake. Did you have a nice visit?”

He dances me over to hit the music on the shelf by the bed, smiling the whole time. “Yes, we did. I think seeing him made me appreciate you even more. Do you realize how very special you are?”

My face is glowing again. “I’m not the special one. I’ve only been here for one reason.”

“If you think you’re only here for that baby, you couldn’t be more wrong! Our adoption fell through, yes, but we still had other options. I was still thinking of insisting on those because I was worried we pushed you into this.”

“No, you didn’t push me! I know you hesitated and I understand why. I never thought of this way. I was thinking of fertilizations and things. I knew I wanted to help you both because seeing you two happy is everything to me!”

“Maxey, I was scared to admit how I truly see you. I felt that if I said I loved you, it meant I didn’t love Russ and I couldn’t stand that. I’ve been trying to keep our sibling relationship even though I always wanted more. Darling, when I had that crazy dream, you were ahead of me and you kept calling me. Russ pushed me up to you because I couldn’t get to you on my own. You were the same loving girl you always are and we left the noise behind. It was just us and we hugged, we kissed, but then I pulled back and you were crying. You shook your head no and you just disappeared on me. I looked everywhere for you but I only found Russ and he had no idea what I meant when I asked him to help me find you. I was scared…..so very scared!” He brings me closer to him.

“All you told me before was I disappeared. Matt, I’m so sorry! I’m here though! I wish I could take that dream away from you so it couldn’t hurt you any longer. I promise you this…..I will not leave you! I’ve had my world crushed before my eyes more than I care to talk about. It’s one of the reasons I have stuck to you so much! I can’t, Matt, I CANNOT be without you! Every time we have been separated for more than a day, I just can’t do anything else until I see you are OK. You remember that con you went to for a whole weekend? I went crazy climbing the walls until you came back home! I couldn’t get to you fast enough when I heard you had returned!”

“I remember that. Dustin got mad about you almost knocking me down but I was so glad to see you too, I didn’t care! It wasn’t the same without you there, but it wasn’t the same without Russ there either. I suppose I did keep you at arm’s length because I wanted you there but I had him and I didn’t want to take away from him. Do you understand what I’m saying?”

“Yes, I do! I don’t want to take away from him either but honestly; it’s never changed how I see you! How I feel about you! Don’t get me wrong, please! Russ has been a great father figure to me and I adore him! He’s so caring and I know I’ve thanked the powers that be for his gentle presence more than once! Like I told you before, I’m so glad he is the one you have in your life…..if I can’t do it myself; I know he will make you happy and take care of you. You are different though! You have always been different from any other man I have ever seen!”

“Darling, I think sometimes you see much more in me than is really there….”

“No, you’re wrong! I don’t want to project anything on to you. I try not to have any expectations from you either. You just….you always keep me guessing. I’m amazed at times; frustrated at times, but no matter what, I adore you. I admire your strength, not only physically but your values, your love, and your passion!”

“Rena jumped all over me saying I wouldn’t admit that I loved you. Russ insisted that I’ve always looked at you as more than just my kid sister. Dustin blew his top and flat out told me to stay away from you. Rod was bitter at first about the idea of the two of us being together but then he told me he wanted you to be happy. He said he could never turn his back on you and your happiness was more important to him than anything else. It seems everyone could see how I loved you but I kept trying to hide it. Maybe I’m just not as strong as you want to think.”

“Matt! No! That’s not true at all! I realize it was hard for you to say it. I felt it but I wasn’t going to make you say something you weren’t comfortable with. I always felt there was more between us though and I hung on to that. Just because you were slow in saying the actual words does not mean your feelings were completely unnoticed. You couldn’t totally hide it, even if you tried!”

“I couldn’t?’

“No, it should be rather obvious since so many of us saw it.”

“I suppose you are correct there. That’s why you are so special. Once Russ and I made our relationship plans, I saw no one else in my life! Then you came along and I questioned everything the closer I got to you! I remember that evening I came groveling for your forgiveness after Jerry attacked you again. I felt horrible for being the cause of that.” I start to protest but he picks his hands up. “Let me finish! No matter what you say, I shouldn’t have asked you to get between those two. I knew they would gang up on me but I really thought Dustin would keep you safe. I remember crying on your shoulder and then I kissed you. I couldn’t stop myself. I kept kissing you and if you hadn’t stopped it, I don’t think I could have. It’s happened since too. I kiss you, I feel you against me……it’s this stirring in me. I’ve had other girls try to touch me and I feel nothing. Some have even disgusted me more than anything else, but not you. Never you! I’ve often wonder why that is.”

“I don’t know…..I never thought you would feel that way.”

#My Story

[classicallyelegant]

Oh, I haven’t stopped yet......here’s the next dose.......I hope it’s to your liking......still more to come though!

AND NOW….

“What do we do about Rod?” I ask Rena. “Maxey was all proud about him being recognized for his work and I hate to see him disappointed over these two.”

“Rod was talking to me about this and said he wasn’t all that interested. He says he wants time to progress and he didn’t see it there anyway so I doubt he will be terribly disappointed.”

“Oh I’m so relieved!” I breathe a sigh of relief. “Guess I better head back to my booth.”

“Matt! I was wondering……” I stop to look at Rena.

“Yes?”

“Mr. Nano wasn’t the only one enjoying that outfit, was he?”

“What? How can you ask me such a question?”

“You can tell me…..you wouldn’t let go of her while she dressed like that.”

“Rena, she was so embarrassed! Didn’t you see that in her face?”

“Oh so you were simply protecting her?”

“Why do you want to make this into something it’s not? Maxey is like my sister!”

“And yet, you refer to her as Princess. You and she were wrapped in each other’s arms just now. I saw how you looked after her when she ran out to finally change. That was not exactly a ‘brotherly’ look.”

“Are you trying to make a point of some kind?”

“Matt, do I have to spell this out for you? You love that girl as much more than just a sister. You always have! That’s why I wasted so long being so incredibly jealous of her! She doesn’t have to do anything and you guys fall like flies around her. I watched Rod fantasize himself crazy over her. Dustin won’t let me get very close to him because he still yearns for her. But you! You have been in love with her but you won’t admit it! Not even to yourself!”

“If you don’t mind, I don’t need you to tell me my feelings for her. I know how I see her and if all of you can’t handle that then I feel sorry for you! I won’t discuss this any further!”

“But Matt…”

“Enough! What about what you did just now? You were protecting her, weren’t you? Why should it be so different between what I did and what you did?”

“Alright! Yes, I was trying to protect her. I let the wolves out too long and I owe her big time for what I’ve done to her. I always seem to be too late to really stop things but I wasn’t going to let him try again. I saw she was scared of him….but where did she turn when she was frightened? YOU! She gets in a jam and she runs to you……always you.”

“Ugh! She didn’t ‘run to me’! I heard a noise as I passed here and found her standing over that jerk. She knocked him out…..not me! Maxey is not exactly a ‘damsel in distress”. She does take care of herself but yes, I try to help her if I can. That’s what friends do for each other and she has been there for me as well.”

“OK…..I believe you because I’ve seen that spirit in her myself. Still, I don’t think you should deny your feelings.”

“I don’t deny anything but I will not have an outsider tell me what I feel. I know that better than anyone else.”

“I heard I needed to check in here. “ Rod comes in.

“Oh hi Rod! We were just mentioning you.” I put my hand towards him. “Listen, things got a bit out hand here and long story short, we sent Mr. Nano packing. I hope you’re not too disappointed.”

“No, but I heard Maxey was in here. What exactly happened, Matt?”

“Umm, well….”

“Let’s just say Mr. Nano tried to get too close to her so she knocked him out.” Rena starts.

“He what?! Where is she?” He starts to leave but Rena and I both grab him. “She’s fine!” Rena says.

“Yeah, she just went to the washroom.”

SO….

“Someone mention me?” I come back in with that bag under my arm. “Rod!” I run to him! I missed him but I also want to try to make this up to him since I’m the main reason for that quick departure. “I, uh, need to tell you something.”

“I wish someone would clear this up! You hit that guy?”

“Well, I kinda had to! I’m so sorry but he made me wear this dumb thing then tried to feel me up as he put me on camera…..it was really sickening and when I tried to get the coat to leave, he wouldn’t let me. I didn’t want to hurt him, but I had to stop him!”

“Are you alright?” He brings me into a hug. I squeeze him for a moment.

“Yes, I’m OK. I really am sorry to mess up anything for you! It was the last thing I wanted to do!”

“Oh I don’t care about that! I wasn’t too impressed with what I saw anyway. I’m just mad I wasn’t here to keep that maggot away from you. I knew you stayed back but I had no idea he would try that right here!”

“Point is - he only tried! Our Princess here showed him his proper place.” Matt comes and puts his arm around my shoulders. I blush when he does that! Rod grins but Rena hangs back.

“Honestly! I’m very sorry if I messed anything up for you!”

“Don’t worry about it!” They both tell me. Rod brings me in again. “You’re much more important!” He tells me. I’m just relieved this is all over now!

“Maxey, could I talk to you in my office?” Rena interrupts.

“Sure….” I’m not certain what to make of her tone. She doesn’t seem mad but she doesn’t seem very happy either. Matt puts his hand on me and whispers, “Should we come with you?” I smile at him and shake my head no. I follow her to her office.

“I just wanted to say that I was sorry about that incident. Are you sure you’re alright?”

“I’m OK. Rena thanks for sticking up for me back there. I didn’t know what to do, but he kept coming closer and closer. I didn’t mean to cause you any trouble though, so I hope he doesn’t make this harder on you. It was my fault!”

“Like they said, don’t worry about it! I can handle a piece of work like him, I believe. I just wanted to see that you….”  She stops mid-sentence as we see Dustin in her door way. He’s been through a wringer, his clothes and hair are all over the place. “DUSTIN! What on earth happened to you?” She practically jumps out of her chair.

“That Mrs. Nano wouldn’t leave me alone!” He says as he makes his way to a chair. I try to hold his hand. I’m so sorry to see him like that. He looks dazed. Rena is on the other side of him.

“Is she gone now?” she asks him. He seems to not hear her as he’s trying to straighten up in his chair. I let go of his hand and run to get a wet paper towel. Once I come back, I wipe his face off and try to straighten his clothes up a little for him. He slightly grins at me. “Dustin, is she gone now?” Rena repeats.

“Yes, I made her leave!” he finally says. Well, at least she can’t bother him anymore. I tug at the end of his shirt hanging out.

“Could you stand up so I can fix your shirt?”

“I can do that.” He tells me. Rena looks him over for any other marks on him. He seems fine and he’s coming back around now. He lifts his hand to my face and gently caresses it with the back of his fingers. I smile back at him. “C’mon girls! I’m fine…..she wouldn’t let me go at first, but I know a few tricks. Anyway, she said that dude wasn’t her husband. He doesn’t even work for the company he said. It was all a front to meet all of us!”

“He duped us the whole time?!” Rena is in shock. I’m surprised too but not very.

“It would appear so. She said she followed Matt first and he flat out told her to leave him alone. Then she came after me.” Dustin shakes his head.

“Well that’s just great! Mr. Nano tried to have his way with you and Mrs. Nano ran after Matt and Dustin! UGH! I’m so disgusted I could scream!” Rena is livid!

“He did what?” Ooops…Dustin didn’t know about all of that! Rena quickly gives him a run down and he stands up and takes me in his arms before I can do anything. “Did he hurt you?” He sounds so serious!

“No, I managed to knock him out before he could really do any damage.” I look up at him. I have to gulp my way through this. I’m not used to being this close to him anymore and it’s a bit unsettling, plus I smell that other girl’s perfume on him.

“Look at her! She’s fine!” Rena says but I hear disdain in her voice. Is she mad at me for what happened? “Everyone seems so concerned about her, but she’s fine!” she seems to be muttering to herself.

“Rena, I asked a simple question. You don’t have to go off the deep end.” Dustin lets go of me and turns to face her.

“I know! I know! I’m just on edge about all of this! I mean, I gathered all of you together for those two…..it just feels like this is all my fault!”

“No, of course it’s not, Rena!” I run around Dustin and tell her. “None of us blame you! I’m sure you checked things out first and I can see the shock on your face. I promise you, no one says this is your fault. They are ultimately wrong for what they did.” I hug her to try to soothe her nerves.

She hugs me back and whispers, “Thanks, Maxey! That helps a lot!”

“If there’s one thing she is especially good at, it’s helping you feel better.” Dustin puts his arms around both of us. I get closer to his face but really, I only told her the truth. She smiles and hugs us both

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You know.....I can’t believe that I have been rambling on so much and I’m still ahead on my writing........how weird is that? LOL I have never really endeavored such before but I hope this will hold your attention to the end.......

I’ve said before, she was breathtaking when I first met her and when she moved in across from us, it seemed we were constantly thrown together. At work, we were almost always cast together. At home, we ran into each other all the time. We became friends when we weren’t arguing with each other. Those times we went off on each other though were interesting….at least to me. We didn’t get into the name calling or trying to degrade each other. We were both just passionate about the direction we thought was right. We never stayed mad though. I would do something, she would laugh and we would hug each other as though nothing had happened. I loved being around her and I did get excited to see her every day. I saw early on, though, how guys especially reacted to her. One of the lovable qualities about Maxey is that she has maintained that innocence, that naivety. She is intelligent, don’t get me wrong….but she doesn’t see herself as the beauty and brains type. She doesn’t always seem to have the suspicious mindset about her. She readily accepts things and people. For an actress, she’s actually pretty open to whatever comes her way and she just assumes everyone else is too. She doesn’t like secrets! For the longest time, I thought I was the only one like that! Where I get upset about such though, she is usually quite understanding. She’s very forgiving and she has taught me, to at least, try to be as well.

The point I’m getting to here is that she and I were attracted to each other from the start. I guess it would be fruitless to say otherwise. I had Russ though and I never wavered in my commitment to him. Maxey, I thought was more a great person to be around but Russ was the love I needed, the man I cherished for being the special light he is. It really didn’t dawn on me that Maxey and I could be anything else until she told me she was in love with me. Once she did, I thought long and HARD on how things were between us. What really drove me was when she told me about Dustin and Jerry. She went out saying she would take care of herself but after midnight, I got so worried, I had to find her. Seeing her slumped over in that alley……I scooped her up and practically ran back with her. That was when it really hit me that I could wake up one morning and she wouldn’t be there any longer and that scared me beyond belief. When she told me the second time of her feelings and how she had actually fallen a second time, I was just flabbergasted! I couldn’t imagine she was in love with me, of all the men who turned into puppies around her, but to hear she had fallen all over again……I just didn’t believe I had such luck. Over the past year, I’ve tried to maintain our sister/brother relationship but I did start to notice things about her I hadn’t before.

We’re lying together and she hears a song playing, so she softly starts singing along. It’s a sappy romantic song, but she smiles up to me as she sings the words. Her voice is so clear. She really sounds very lovely. In the breaks, she kisses my chest and neck. It moves me so much to see, to hear, and to feel her this way. I keep my arms around her and just hold her closer in moments. I keep her forehead close to my lips. Yes, I have failed miserably in seeing her as just my sister! No matter how much of a wall I try to build, this girl has found her way in. She and Russ both are in my heart and I can’t eradicate either one. I worry that it cheapens my relationships because I have so much love for both of them.

“Matt, are you still here?”

“Yes, I am. Why would you ask me that?”

“This is all real, isn’t it? I’m not lost in some fantasy in my own head?”

“No, darling, this is no fantasy. We have a whole weekend together --- just the two of us.” I smile. She pulls me closer to her, kissing me. I can’t say anything other than I love her so very much! “Maxey, I…..I want……how can I say this? Baby, I want to tell you…..I’ve got to tell you…” How can I put this so she understands what I mean?

“Are you disappointed in some way?” She pulls back from me so we’re looking at each other’s faces.

“NO! That’s not even what I’m thinking or trying to get out.”

She looks down but then back into my eyes. I have to say this! How do I get my point across to her? “You can tell me, Matt. I’ll listen to anything you have to say.” She tells me rather quietly. I’ve got to calm myself!

“My dear, I can’t fight it any longer. I have tried and I have lost! I have done all I could to try to see you as my friend. Maxey, I can’t go on like this any longer! I love you! I have to say it because I do! I kept telling myself that I couldn’t love you when I had Russ……but that’s just it…..I love him too! I’m so torn here because…..”

She gently kisses me again and I can feel my tears coming down my face. “Matt, I understand, darling. I have loved you for so long! I wanted so badly to get that across to you. You have never exactly been a brother to me……I know many people may say that I think I love you but it’s really lust. It’s not! It’s not that at all. I love your mind, I love your heart, I love you! Yes, you are beautiful to look at but that outer shell is just the icing on the cake. I’ve been so privileged to see there is so much more to you than that!”

“That’s how I feel about you, Princess! I’ve watched guys make fools of themselves trying to attract your attention and some would probably say I was jealous. To an extent, I was, but I also felt I had to protect you as much as possible because you are so special! I felt like when you finally met Rod, you had finally found your one. I wanted nothing but happiness for you. But, I can’t turn off my feelings for you! We’ve been through so much together and I want it to continue! Not much of anything makes sense to me without both you and Russ there with me!”

“I have no intension of abandoning you! I told Rod that you mean so much to me. You and Russ both do! I adore you but you don’t take his place in my life. I really want to believe you’re right and Rod is the love of my life, but he’s not you! For so long, you have been my ultimate fantasy! I never thought I could actually hold you this way or kiss you…..making love to you was a dream I held on to but never saw happening. Now, it’s here and, truth be told, I adore you even more. No man can top you in my book!” She pulls me in again and we both devour each other like we have no tomorrow….only right now. It seems like each time we do this, things mean even more. Her kisses make me hungrier for her. Her body seems to ignite something in me. My desire for her explodes and she openly obliges!

“Are we a doomed pair?” I choke on the words because I can’t imagine anything without her.

“No, Matt! We are far from a doomed couple! I love you with all my heart but I love Rod too. I’m not confused by that either. I know it sounds complicated, but it’s not. I can’t even begin to tell you how proud it makes me to hear these words from you. I never thought I would actually, I thought it would only be my little fantasy.”

“Why do you say that?”

“I knew, Matt. I knew you loved me. I’ve felt it even if you wouldn’t say it and mean it the same way I did. You’ve told me over and over in other ways.”

“You’ve known all along? I’ve tried to bury these feelings for so long!”

“Yes, you have. I felt it last night too. You kept coming to me but then you would stop. You couldn’t allow yourself to give in. I had to do something, that’s why I clung to you and tried to encourage you in Spanish. You seemed to let go once I did.” She smiles and gently holds me. How can she be so incredible?

“Princess, why didn’t you make demands, if you knew?”

“I couldn’t do that to you! Besides, you had to do this in your own time. I will never force you to do something you’re uncomfortable with. AND this had to be something natural from you. I couldn’t say anything because it had to be something you felt, you meant with everything you have in you!”

I scoop her into my arms and kiss her face. “I do my darling! I do mean this with EVERYTHING I have in me! I don’t have a world without your smile there.” She giggles then has her hand on my face. We kiss once more then I tell her, “I’ll bet your breakfast is good and cold by now.” She laughs again.

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Well, after the lil argument there, I tried to give you a little breather. Rod and Maxey can’t stay mad though, as you can see there.......so let’s move this along, shall we?

AT THE STUDIO…..

“Umm Matt, could I talk to you for a minute?” I turn around to see Rena sticking her head in my booth.

“Well, we are kind of in the middle of something here!”

“It won’t take long….I need to see you in your office.”

I reluctantly put the headphones down and follow her. What in the world does she want that can’t wait five more minutes? When we get in there, she asks me to close the door. Well this sounds serious! Hmmmm…..

“I wanted to get you alone for a minute. I have to talk to you.”

“What about?” She grabs me in a hug before I can do anything.

“Oh I’ve missed you!” she whispers.

“Huh? I’ve been right here and if that’s all you want, I’ve got work to do!” I peel her off of me! UGH! I still don’t know why this girl does this. Yeah, she claimed to be ‘in love’ with me, but throwing over your ‘friend’ to get to me…..not a good way to fulfill your wish! I still don’t know why Maxey seemed to forgive her.

“That’s not what I called you in here for…..well, not totally anyway. Have you heard from Maxey and Rod? He said he wouldn’t be in today but was vague as to why.”

“What do you want to know about that for?”

“I asked a question. How much simpler can I make it?”

“Ugh…yes, Maxey had a terrible headache and Rod is taking care of her. Anything else?”

“Why are you so testy? I just wanted to know what was wrong.”

“More like you were being nosy for information. I’ve got to go back now!” I turn to open the door but she grabs me from behind.

“No, just……OK…..have you heard the rumors about a movie company?”

“Yes, I heard they had their eye on a few people…..so?”

“So….Rod is one of those people! I really don’t want to risk one of my best actors and directors. Your name has been bandied about as well. I haven’t given them the OK yet, which is why they haven’t approached any of you directly yet.”

“They want us?”

“It’s being discussed……they’ve mentioned Dustin as well. Why do they want three of the sexiest guys I know! And wouldn’t you know….Maxey has all three of you wrapped around her little finger! They have mentioned her but haven’t put her name forth like the rest of you. I think that we all need to discuss this though. Will they be back tomorrow?”

“Why did you have to put it that way? We’re not pieces of meat for you to ogle! Rod is the main one they want?”

“Who said I ogle any of you? Even if I did, I don’t see how that should affect your work in any way! Right now, yes, he is the one that has been brought up the most. They seem to be going mostly by the shows you have done. I don’t think that means they have actually seen any of you….only heard you. With my luck….they see Maxey, they’ll be after her too. I can’t replace her as an actress!”

“You cannot replace her period! >sigh< I’ll try to get Rod. As far as I know, they should be back tomorrow. Maxey said she didn’t want him to miss today but he insisted on taking care of her.”

“Wow! The pillow treatment with a handsome nurse? She is such a lucky girl. I don’t know how she does it, but what I wouldn’t give to know her secret!?!” She wraps her arms around my one that’s got my phone. If she’s trying to flirt with me….she’s failing miserably! Ha! Found Rod’s name in my phone. I hope he hears me! “You sure know how to get things done!” she coos. Geez!

“Hey Rod….thanks for answering. Everything OK over there?”

“Yeah, everything is fine. Maxey is in the bath right now, so I’m going to make a light lunch.”

“Oh good! That sounds good. Umm, you see, there is a rumor going around here that a movie company have their eye on you. Rena wants to know if you and Maxey will be back tomorrow.”

“A movie company? Huh? Umm, as far as I know, we should be. She says her head is better but I noticed she’s still weak. They want me? Why?”

“Good question! Rena says they mentioned you the most, but they’ve also mentioned Maxey, Dustin, and me. She says we need to discuss this with everyone.”

“Well, I’ll talk this over with Maxey and get back to you, OK, Matt? She should be out soon, so I better get on with my sandwiches! Talk to you later!” He hangs up. At least the Princess seems to be on the road to recovery.

“He says he will talk this over with her when she gets out of the bath. He said they should be back tomorrow though. Now can I go?” My patience is wearing very thin.

“You sure are in a hurry! OK, I’ll get to Dustin and we should set up a time tomorrow to meet in my office.”

“Fine!” I say over my shoulder and I make my way back to where I was. I don’t know why she wants to bother me with this when I have work to do! It could have waited until later especially if it’s waited this long!

FRESH FROM HER BATH….

I make my way out of the bathroom and Rod is standing close to the sink, his back to me, so I come up from behind and hug him. >Gasp< “You scared me!” he laughs and turns around to hold me. I giggle into his shoulder.

“Sorry! I couldn’t resist! What are you up to?” He laughs slightly and moves his hand to show me the sandwiches he’s made for us. Aww how sweet!

“I wanted to surprise you!” He brings me closer to him. A soft kiss and a long gaze…..oh this guy!

“I am! Thank you very much for being so super sweet to me!” I smile back at him. “This looks very good!”

“I can do small things since I’ve been on my own for a while now.  I’m not completely helpless.” He smiles and we bring our food to the table.

“Well, I’m glad to see that!” I take a bite of my sandwich. That was awfully thoughtful of him to do. We both indulge in our food. I admit; it has helped me to feel better. He’s a good nurse!

“I have to tell you about the phone call I got.”

“OH? Your phone went off?”

“Yeah, it was Matt. He checked on you but then he told me something about the studio rumors. I don’t quite know how to tell you this, but it seems a movie company wants me for some reason.”

“They do?! That’s great news, isn’t it?”

“I don’t know….Matt didn’t sound very certain of things but he said this movie company has also mentioned you, him, and Dustin, but I’m the one to come up the most.”

“I’m glad for you, dear! You’re a hard worker so you deserve any breaks you get!” It is exciting news to hear.

“It really sounds like Rena wants to talk to all of us tomorrow about this. I must say, I was not expecting to hear such. I don’t know why a movie company would be looking at me.”

“Why not? You’re good at what you do both as an actor and a director. This shouldn’t be that big of a surprise but I have to say, I’m so proud of you!” I pat his shoulder and his smile broadens.

“I guess you’re right….I just hope that something good will come of this.” He turns as he gets up. Before I realize, he picks me up and places me back on the bed. “Now, what did you have in mind to do today?” His face so close to mine…..I’m a bit flabbergasted!

“I….I didn’t really have any plans for today.” I’m smiling so big to be this close to him!

“Nothing? Does that mean we sleep?” He moves his nose against mine. I can only laugh a nervous laugh. We haven’t spent a totally free day together at all. He’s usually got to work or I do and we just get our nightly naps together. “I told you this day is all about you!”

“Well……I have no idea! Now I really feel guilty for keeping you here.”

“No, this is not a bad thing. I know we could probably both use a nap since it seems we are going all the time! HOWEVER – I have you here and sleeping isn’t what I’m thinking!” My eyes widen and he puts his head down laughing. “NO! I meant we should do something we want to do…..something just us two.”

“Sounds like you have thought of something already.”

“Mmmmaybe! I say we wonder around town and see if we find anywhere to go…..what do you say?”

“An adventure? With you by my side? I can be ready in just a few minutes!” I’m surprised but it sounds perfect!

“Great! I’ll get ready too and we will go see what catches our eye!”

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HI! 

Yes, I know I just added a chapter but, to be honest, I am quite a way ahead in my writing, so I’m a little anxious to see how well this will go over. This topic seems to bring about several feelings and I can understand that but I really want to try to do this justice and prove it’s not the story some may think. I hope I do! Thank you for any and all words that you offer. I do listen, I promise!

“So, that adoption fell through, huh?” He finally says. “I was sorry to hear that. I’m guessing Russ didn’t take it very well.”

“No, he cried most of the way home. I felt so awful for him. I’m sure Matt wouldn’t have liked the news either.”

“Matt said there was such a chance, so I think he knew.” Rod shrugs.

“He always does things like that.” I roll my eyes and laugh. “I uh…..well…..I have something to tell you and I’m not sure how you will take it.”

Rod turns his face to me with a bit of a bewildered look. “What is it?”

“Umm…..once Russ settled, he told me that he wanted this too badly and that was why he didn’t get it. He said he’s dreamed of having a lil princess of his own to watch her grow. The look on his face, the terrible news, I wanted so badly to help him…..so…….”

“So?”

“So……I offered to have a baby for him.” I say rather fast. His eyes widen. “You what?”

“I offered to have a baby for him. This way, no one can tell him yes or no. It will only be a few months for me, but he and Matt will have the baby they want so badly.”

“You’re going to give up a child to Russ?”

“I wouldn’t be giving up a baby to him. I will still be there for whatever the baby may need. I have thought about this and I think it’s the best way. I’ll be helping in any way I can, but they will be the fathers.”

Rod pushes his chair back and walks to the bed. He doesn’t say anything for a while and I’m on the edge of my seat. “You’re talking about being his surrogate. You know that they will have say over this child, right? You can only be on the sidelines at best. Are you sure you can handle that?”

“Yes, I realize that. I feel like I can trust them to look out for this child.”

>sigh< Rod comes and picks me up from my chair. He lays me on the bed while he kisses me. “OK, if this means so much to you, I won’t stand in your way. I want you to be sure though. This is a huge step and well, I know they are your friends, but I’m not thrilled you could have another man’s baby.”

“Darling, I knew your mind would think of that, but I wish you wouldn’t look at things like that. This is for them, my way of saying that I love them and I’m grateful to them for everything they have done and besides……if I were to have a child of my own, I can’t think of a better father than you. We still have time to start our family.”

He gulps. “OUR family?”

I smile as I bring his face back down to mine. “Of course!”

“You mean, you’ve thought about our family? I……I’ve dreamed of such and with you…….it seemed a dream too great to hope for….but…..you…..really??” His eyes are full of questions.

“Rod, surely you know by now, I don’t see anyone else in my future but you! I told you before; you’re stuck with me now.” I kiss his nose. He falls into me with a full kiss.

“If you only realized how many nights………I love you, Maxey! I don’t want anyone else in my future either!” He clings to me.

“I love you, too, Rod!” My heart feels so full! I do truly love him!

He goes to take his bath and comes back to lie beside me. I scoot closer to him and he pulls me into his arms. This just feels so right! I put my head against his chest and I feel him kiss the top of my head as he relaxes. A few minutes like this and he is fast asleep. He must have had a hard day. I gaze up at him and I’m so lucky to have him right here. Since we’ve been together and he has directed me in a couple of shows, I’ve seen how others look at him. Some in angst and some in admiration but almost all are in awe. It’s not quite the same as I’ve seen around Matt but Rod definitely has their respect. He knows what he wants and he has a way of working that gets the results. He’s never very demanding…..Matt can be at times, out of frustration…..but Rod tries to be more understanding. He just about never gets angry and I don’t believe I’ve heard him yell once.

BUT Then…..

There is a large crowd of people. It’s hard to see faces but it would appear we are at some sort of station. Everyone seems to be coming from the direction I’m trying to go.

“Matt!”

I heard my name!

“Over here! Matt? Where did you go? I’m over here!”

I can’t really tell who said it but I heard it. “Matt! “ I see someone jumping but they seem to be way ahead of me. I see them jump several times but I can’t seem to make my way to them. I feel a hand on my back. “Russ! Where have you been?”

“I only want you to be happy, Matt! I love you!” and he pushes me forward…… WAIT! I….I’m not sure about this……..What are you doing…….

“Finally! Matt, I’ve finally found you!” It’s Maxey! She runs and puts her arms around me. She was the one calling me before. I hold her then I feel her reach up. She takes a rope hanging down and we start to lift above the noise. Pretty soon it’s only her and me. She smiles and I swear she looks so radiant here. It’s almost as if we are sitting on a cloud. I reach over and before I realize it, I’m kissing her. Not just a little friendship kiss…..no, this is different. She doesn’t protest; she actually pulls me closer to her.

“I love you! I’ve always loved you!” she whispers to me between kisses.

“And I’ve always loved you…..I can’t imagine a world without you!” I whisper back. I can’t let her go! She gently pushes me back and I see tears in her eyes. She shakes her head no and poof! She’s disappeared! I look frantically for her. I can’t find her! I look up and Russ is standing over me. “Russ! Where did Maxey go? Can you help me find her?”

“Why, Matt, I’ve been the only one here.”

Huh? No, she was just here…..I held her, I kissed her……..I have to find her……….I have to…..

BZZZ BZZZ BZZZZ

The alarm clock goes off and wakes me up. It was a dream! I move in the bed and turn to see Russ still asleep. WHAT a night! Maxey! I need to see her!

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I got a very nice review and I have to say it was a great boost to my spirit! (And goodness know that’s been lackluster!) I have really had this idea for this story kicking around for a while but I couldn’t bring myself to write it all down. Now, I am doing my best to get down what I can......so I hope you enjoy this part....it was funny to write! 

“You know, Princess, maybe you’re right. It doesn’t seem like it now, but maybe someday things will come together. I was surprised when Matt finally relented. He usually tries to talk me out of the notion when I mention children. Not that he’s against them, you understand, but he isn’t sure he’s ready to handle one. This time though, he actually said he had thought of it too. We went through so many interviews and evaluations but he seemed like he was getting just a little excited about it. I was so happy and I just knew that his excitement meant things would work like I had dreamed of!” He again tries to smile.

Matt was looking forward to this. I knew it! The world seems so cruel to deny these two! I imagine it was quite an undertaking for them to go this route and now……how can I help these two? I adore them so and goodness knows I owe them so much for all they’ve done for me. <GASP> What if I do this for them? They only need my body for a few months and it will make them both so happy. I know they will be the best fathers in the world…..I have no doubt of that! But how…….how can I……can I really? Wait! This isn’t about me! It’s about them!

“Russ” I start quietly. “Umm, you may think I’m being a bit ridiculous here, but well…….what if I do this? I mean instead of adopting a baby, what if I have one for you?” I kind of expect him to start fussing, but he looks down before he looks at me.

“You would do that for us?” He swallows very hard and takes my hand to his chest.

“I wouldn’t have said it if I didn’t mean it. I know it may sound like a bit much, but the doctors do all kinds of amazing things now. We could have you and Matt even as real fathers! I want you to think about it.”

“Maxey, it would mean so much but I worry about you, Princess. Do you understand what this means?”

“I’m not going into this lightly. I want you to know that I wish I could do more to help you. Russ, I owe you so much! You’ve been such a force in my life. You and Matt both have and I’m so grateful!”

“Darling” he brushes my dark hair back out of my face. “You don’t owe us anything! We did what we could because we both think so much of you! This is a huge step for everyone! Right now, you’re excited by all that’s happened, but this will not be easy. I just want you to be sure of this before you make any promises. We both need to think this over.”

“Yes, I know and we both have to discuss this, but I want you to take the idea into consideration. Please! It’s the very least I can do for you.”

He smiles and brings me into one of his bear hugs. I feel his heart pounding. He cries softly as he rocks me and says over and over, “Thank you, Princess” Being in his warm hug, I feel like I can’t let him down. Once he lets go, he tells me he is going to go home and wait for Matt. He hugs me one more time and leaves. I did see a hint of that big smile of his. Now to tell Rod about this! Oh boy!

I check my phone and Rod sounds very disappointed to hear the news. He asks if I’m Ok. He never likes anything to upset me, but again, this is more about Russ and Matt. I tell him not to mention anything to Matt yet as Russ should be the one to do that. He says he hasn’t told anyone. I ask him when he should be back and he says the show he is working on is going to be a long one. I kind of hesitate but I tell him I need to talk to him about something. He tells me that he will be back as soon as he can, then asks what I want to eat for later. I have to smile! Rod has been nothing short of amazing throughout!

For a while, I was scared to get close to someone after the way things went with Dustin. Rod was patient and loving and just what every girl dreams of! We have taken things slowly and tried to get to know each other. I feel safe around him. I get to have fun with him. He’s even directed me in a few shows by now and it’s been so much fun! Rod means the world to me and he’s made me see that Dustin, even though I tried so hard to love him……Dustin was never really mine. I don’t have to do anything special to impress Rod and he is free to be himself around me. We enjoy being together!

Matt, on the other hand, well, he’s been so busy with directing, I don’t see him as often anymore. I miss him, but I understand. I try to make the most of the time we do spend together. He still makes my heart flutter. Rod seems to understand that as well and he never tries to come between Matt and me. I really appreciate that! He really has nothing to be jealous of because Matt will always be my friend, my brother. I’m relieved too that Matt and Rod get along with each other so well. I’m not caught in the middle of arguments anymore! Thank Goodness! They do try to team up against me at times though! That’s still better than tearing me apart.

I hear a soft knock and go to see the man whose office we were in earlier. “May I talk to you a minute?” he asks when I answer. I’m very surprised, so I step out into the hall. “Well, I thought we could go inside, but OK, I just wanted to see you again.” Now I’m confused….

“How did you know where to find me and why would you want to?” I ask him.

“Russ said you were a neighbor and I’ve been to this building before so I figured it out. Russ isn’t inside, is he?”

“No, he went home.”

“Good…..I really felt bad to have to give him such bad news, but it couldn’t be helped. Is he doing better now?”

“He seems to have recovered a bit. It takes a lot to bother him, but that really did a number on him. Is there something you need?” I’m getting a bad feeling from this guy, so I’d rather get to the point.

“I…..I don’t quite know…..” he stammers. He looks at me and anxiously laughs. I notice he’s holding a DVD set in his hand. So that’s what he’s after! It must be a show I worked on. “You see, I had this lying around and I was just thinking…….if you weren’t too busy……” Again he seems to lose his train of thought when he looks up at me.

“May I see it?” I ask as I put my hand out. Oh wait! This is not a show I worked on, this is one Rod directed! Hmmm….. how did he know to find him here?

“Would it be possible for you to sign it?” he smiles bashfully.

“Well, I would, but I wasn’t a part of this show. I know who was though, so wouldn’t you rather have his signature?”

“HIS signature?” he gulps.

“Yes, I know the director of this show and I’m sure he would be thrilled to sign it if you could leave it here or come back later.” I smile.

“Umm…no, I guess not!” He straightens up. Are you for real, Mr.? Surely you knew that I had nothing to do with this show.

“OK then. Is there anything else I can help you with?” I’m trying to keep from laughing at his apparent mistake.

“Mr. Key! I wasn’t expecting to see you!” We both look to see Matt coming. He looks tired. He puts his hand out to greet him, then he leans down to hug me.

“Oh, I was just leaving. I’ll be seeing you all some other time.”

“You’re not leaving on my account, are you?” Matt looks puzzled. I’m really trying to stifle that laugh now, so I stay partially behind Matt.

“No, of course not! See you soon!” and he leaves.

“Well that was strange!” Matt shakes his head.

“Awww don’t worry about him! He was mistaken anyway. Are you OK, dear?” I keep my hand on his arm.

“It’s been a long day! Thought I would never get what I was hoping for, but we finally managed to piece things together. Is Russ home?”

“Yes, he said he wanted to wait for you, so you should get in there.” I smile up at him and lightly kiss the side of his face. He smiles and hugs me before he goes on to his door. I go back inside and just laugh my fool head off!

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I’m back.........what do ya know? :) Yes, I’m back with Maxey and well, she’s torn at the moment, but I’m trying to bring her smile back......I guess its one of those rough spots life loves to put us through.......

“The ambulance should be here in a minute. Matt was looking for everyone again, so I told him what happened.” Rod tells me and Matt starts trying to rouse Dustin. He’s too out of it to do anything and the more of a ragdoll he becomes the more worried I get about him. Finally the medical team comes and we tell them what we can about Dustin. They seem to know what was in the water and tell me that it is OK. They can take care of this. I so hope so! They take him out but tell me to stay where I am. They will see to everything else. They talk to Rod in a low voice before leaving and it scares me even more. Matt puts his arm around me and keeps me close to him. I feel like I’m about to go out of my mind! I want to know what’s happening to him! Rod comes back to us and says he will take me to the hospital. Matt nods but says he has to stay and work more. I grab him and just squeeze him. He tells me to just take it easy and he will see me later. Rod brings me away from him. He takes me outside to get on the bus for the hospital. I feel like now I’m the one in a daze.

“Don’t look so apprehensive. Maxey, he will most likely just need to sleep this off. She didn’t want to hurt him, just convince him her way. Everything is going to be OK.” Rod sees me biting my lip to try to keep from crying. I’m a wreck! I look up at him and he gives me the most assured look he can give me. “I’ll get you there and you’ll see Dustin is going to be fine. I just figured the hospital was the best place for him to sleep this off.”

“Does that mean you know what she did to that bottle?”

“Oh she really only made him drunk. She combined several kinds of alcohol from what I smelled to get him that way. He’s going to have one heck of a hangover!”

“Dustin doesn’t drink!”

“I know but he knocked back several there by the way he acted and spoke. I said there’s no telling how much he drank. It’s just best he have the medicine and fluids he needs to get this all out of his system.”

“I don’t mean to sound rude, and if you’ll just answer me this question. I won’t bring it up again. You and Joanne didn’t plan this, did you?” I hope he has the answer I want to hear.

“Of course not! After you left with Rena, she went crying to Dustin that you came after her, threatening her. Matt said you would never do that and he went to find you and prove it. I stayed outside because I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I guess somewhere there she brought him that bottle.” He takes my hand and brings it to his chest, right over his heart. “I promise you, I had nothing to do with this!”

“I’m sorry to ask you that. I didn’t really think you had but with the way things go sometimes…….I’m very truly sorry!”

“It’s OK; I know you’ve been through a lot. I could never hurt you that way though! I hope you know that!”

“That I do!” I hug him. He stiffens a bit before I feel his arms around me. It’s very comforting to hear what he said and be this close to him. I know I have to find a way to answer him from earlier but right now, I have to be sure Dustin is OK. “Oh your hand! How is it? I’m sorry I forgot to even ask!” My face is still against his chest as I look up at him.

“Just sore! I’ll be alright. I hit him before I thought about it but I couldn’t believe what he was saying!”

“I figured that was what happened. I wish you hadn’t hit him, but I hope you will be OK.” I lightly hold his hand, just to show him I understand why he did what he did.

Once at the hospital, we ask for Dustin. They direct us to a room and we find him sitting up in his bed. I run to him and put my arms around him. He tells me he missed me! He sounds much more like himself. Then he pulls me away to say, “It’s OK darling. They said she made me drunk with liquor. I didn’t have much resistance so, it didn’t take much. The doctors want me to stay tonight but I’ll be OK tomorrow.” I’m so glad to see him and back to himself, I just hang on to him! I’ve been so worried about him! He squeezes me so I know this is real and he will recover. I sit up to look at him and ask, “Is there anything you need?”

He smiles and says, “Nothing an aspirin can’t fix physically, but you know…..” That gleam! That’s my Dustin! I just laugh as I gently kiss him. Rod clears his throat and I tell Dustin that he is the one who brought me here. He nods but asks me to give them a minute. I look at him questioningly, but he says he just needs a minute with a smile on his face. I don’t want to argue with him, so I get up to go outside.

Once Maxey is outside, Dustin asks Rod to sit beside him. Rod is nervous at first but does as he is asked. “I want to say a few things and she doesn’t need to hear this.” Dustin begins. “First, I remember you hit me to defend her. I also remember Joanne had me all hyped up that you and she were all over each other every chance you got. Now, I know Maxey wouldn’t do that but I’m afraid my judgement got a bit clouded there as I drank that concoction she gave me.” Rod listens to him as if waiting for the inevitable question. “I probably said some things I shouldn’t have and I do apologize for that, but I want to know….you’re in love with Maxey, aren’t you? That is why you were holding her when we found you two.”

Rod puts his head down, but gets up and walks a few steps before he answers. “Isn’t it obvious, Dustin? I’ve been in love with her for quite a while now. You knew that all along and yet you still went after her. She never cheated on you though. I don’t work that way and she doesn’t either!”

“I knew it! There’s something you should know though. I didn’t choose Maxey. Jerry chose her. I went after her when he told me he had tried but struck out. Thing was, after spending time around her, I wanted to see her more and more. I told Jerry to back off of her.  She wasn’t like his other fancies but he got mad and decided to try to take her away from me. He blamed me and Matt for deflecting his efforts and attacked her. Since then, she doesn’t remember very well anything that happened before. “

Rod gulps back tears. He had heard bits and pieces of something happening between her and Jerry, but he had no idea! He can only blink as Dustin tries to continue. “I didn’t know about the attack at first and she doesn’t remember details very well. Matt and Russ took care of her during that time. We had a big confrontation with Jerry and once it was over, I asked her to be my wife. She has been my everything since, but I have seen the way you look at her. Guys watch her and some want to do crazy things to her, but you don’t. You and Matt are the only two who don’t have that look about you.”

“Matt, our director? I know they’ve been friends for a long time and I’ve seen them together.”

“He’s more than her friend. To tell the truth, I’ve resented him so much! He is always around her! She always defends him though. She loves him so much. I think they are both in love with each other, but Matt is spoken for. If you want her, you have to accept him.”

“What do you mean ‘if I want her’? You’re not giving her to me again, are you?”

“What if I did, Rod? Would you take care of her?”

“You can’t just give her to me, Dustin! She does have a say in such matters. I have wanted to be near her, but she loves you and you make her happy. I couldn’t just step into the picture and expect her to look at me the way she does you. If I ever get a chance with her, it has to be real and something she wants just as bad. I can’t accept it any other way!” His eyes are wide but he tries to keep his voice low so she doesn’t hear.

“Look how passionate you are! She needs that because she is the same way….”

“Dustin, what is the point you’re getting at here? Are you tired of her or something? Why are you telling me all of this?”

“No, I love her! I love her much more than I thought I could. That being said, Joanne is not going away any time soon. She’s even threatened Maxey that this is far from over. Yeah, I heard her leave and her parting words to Maxey. She told me before that a star can only see another star. I’m not that and I probably won’t ever be, but you are. I want more than anything to be there for Maxey, but I don’t know that I can handle that. I’m supposed to be the one in charge! I wish I could hang on to her, but if I’m going to lose her, I’d rather it be someone who loves her and will take care of her.” He looks Rod in the eye. “I’d rather it be you!” The look on his face is resolute.  He means this more than anything!

“Dustin, listen to yourself! Maxey has been beside herself worried about you. She was trying her hardest not to cry the whole way here and you talk about her like this? I hit you, yes, I couldn’t believe you said she cheated on you and then you handed her over to me like some kind of doll. She just stood there but I could see she was devastated by what you said to her. You should be thinking of how you can make things up to her more than trying to get rid of her!”

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And I’m back though I’m not sure for how long.......Anyway. I have a chapter 5 for you all and I hope you get something out of it..... =) This is still a working progress, but I hope you find it entertaining!

“Are you sure everything is OK?” I ask him once we’re outside.

“Yes, why wouldn’t it be?”

“You and Matt barely spoke, you ignored Rod. I’m wondering here.”

“It’s all going to be OK. I will talk to Matt later and I had to get you away from Rod.”

“Get me away from him? Why? He was only nice to me.” I’m confused again.

“Didn’t you notice how he looked at you? He’s got a crush on you so bad and it’s written all over his face! He was trying to work up his nerve to get you alone.” His arm is around me again. I snuggle close to him but I can’t believe what he just said. I didn’t get that from him at all. I just thought he was being nice though I did think it odd he used to run away from me and he did have that weird look on his face. Oh come now! That just can’t be right!

“Maybe you read it wrong, dear. I mean, I never got that from him. He was nervous but he was nothing but nice!”

“Believe me! I know what I heard and saw! It was best to get you out of there. I’ll explain to Matt later.” He keeps a tight arm around me as we make our way back to the apartment. Once we are back in the place, something still feels off. “Your turn first this time, right?” He says to me. His smile doesn’t seem genuine to me. I just nod my head and make my way over there. I don’t want to panic, but I just feel something is wrong. I hear him moving around outside the door and then I hear his phone go off. Next thing I know, he knocks at my door and says he has to see about something but he will be back. He leaves before I can say or do anything. That's not like him! I finish up and just go to bed. Seems so different without him so close!

“Maxey, are you awake?” I open my eyes to see Matt’s face above me. What?

“What do you want?” I yawn and stretch.

“I saw Dustin take off so I came to check on you. Is everything alright?”

“You saw him leave? Where? I mean….well, I heard his phone go off and he told me he had to take care of something but he would be back.”

“Looked like he’d caught a cab somewhere between here and the restaurant. Russ and I both saw him on our way back here. That’s all I know though.”

“Matt, you’ll be honest with me, right? You won’t hide anything from me?”

“Why do you sound so serious all of a sudden? If I can do anything to help you dear, you know you only have to say the word.” His hand is around my face and the pillow.

“It’s something Dustin told me earlier…..I just….I don’t want to say he’s lying……I just don’t know what to think……”

“Are you going to spit it out or do we dance all night here?” He snickers. I just give him a sarcastic look, but I sit up to be closer to him.

“Dustin told me he had to get me out of there because Rod has a crush on me and its written all over his face. He said he would tell you later but that was supposed to be why he was so insistent on getting out of there.” I’m nervous to tell him this, but I think my curiosity is higher than any anxiety.

“Oh that! Is that all it is? Princess, of course he’s crazy about you. The poor fellow can’t help himself there.”

“Matt, I’m serious here! Can’t you just give me a straight answer?” Now he gives me the look.

“I am! Well….aww Maxey! We’ve all known this for a while. It’s so very obvious to everyone but you! Even Russ said he was a sad case by the way he reacted when you left.” He comes closer to me and puts his arm around my shoulders. I lay my head on his shoulder, my forehead against his cheek. I have missed this side of him. When Dustin is around, Matt tends to be very careful around me.

Meanwhile…

“When can I see you, Dustin?” His phone said when he came out of the bathroom. He wasn’t sure how to answer Joanne after the scene she had pulled at the studio. She just had to do that in front of Maxey! He hadn’t really thought much of her even when Jerry told him to use her as the next target. She was nice and OK to look at but she wasn’t that much to talk to. He had only talked to her because of Jerry and he had really hoped that would be over soon. “I don’t know right now. I’m out with everyone for now!” He texted her back. He didn’t exactly want to see her anyway. She persisted. “Please, Dustin, I have to see you and soon!” He shook his head and told himself he wouldn’t answer back…least not right away.

The past several months had been quite the challenge to him. He’d had Jerry choose several girls as his targets, Maxey being the last one. Each one was OK; he didn’t mind getting to know them. There were some he liked more than others, but he wasn’t thrilled by any of them until he met Maxey. She was so different from the others. She wasn’t nice just for the sake of appearing that way. She genuinely cared for others. She was smart, gentle, clever, and funny, but she could have a bit of a sassy side to her too. He’d also seen her work and he was blown away at how she gave such life to her characters. No wonder everyone wanted her on their shows! To top it all off, she was a real beauty, even if she didn’t see it that way. He couldn’t believe his luck when she actually admitted she cared for him as well. The biggest problem with her was Matt. He was her friend but he protected her like a brother. It seemed rather obvious to Dustin that Matt cared much more for her than he would ever admit to anyone else, but he had a boyfriend. He didn’t mind at first but now that they were engaged, he was starting to resent Matt’s closeness and fondness of her. He didn’t like the way both of them seemed to be around each other so much. He was the guy, so why did she need Matt?

Once he finally convinced Maxey to leave the restaurant and he got her back home, his phone had another message. “Come now, Dustin, or all may be lost!” What did she mean by that? She wouldn’t do anything to herself but she could complicate his new life if she wanted to.  He had told Maxey bits and pieces of his work with Jerry, but he didn’t tell her everything. Some things he figured she was better off not knowing. He asked Joanne where she was. She said to meet her at a park she knew of. He ran to the bathroom door and told Maxey that he would be back soon. He didn’t want to leave her and he knew she would be left with a ton of questions, but he had to see about this before Joanne made things worse. He caught a taxi and told the driver to go to the park. What could Joanne think she would accomplish by pulling all of this now? They hadn’t even really spoken for a couple of months at least.

At the park, he found her sitting on a bench under a big canopy of trees. She is smiling when he approaches her. That’s a switch from the sour look she gave him earlier. “I’m so glad to see you, Dustin. I knew you would come!” She could barely conceal her excitement. She just knew she could make him hers again if she could get him alone.

“You kind of made me! Now, what is it you want?”

“To see you, silly!” She comes closer to him, trying to hug him. He steps back from her.

“Not happening! Not after what you did earlier! You really think I even want to be near you after the way you were yelling?”

She looks disappointed but undaunted. “Dusty, surely you know that was an act to get your attention! I’ve missed you!”

“Missed me?! You’ve barely had anything to do with me since you and Jerry hooked up!”

“Jerry could never replace you! I know that fight you tried to bring about was a ruse! You do care about me! I know you do!” She again tries to hug him, but he dodges her again.

“Oh so that’s what it will take to get you to leave me alone? Fine! The truth is I love Maxey! I never really cared for you, Joanne. I went along because Jerry told me to. He was the one interested in you, not me!” It wasn’t a total lie. He had cared only slightly about her. She has a selfish streak not to mention her immaturity! When they were together, she had driven him nuts with her temper tantrums. He said or did something she didn’t like and she would scream at him then pout for days. He could never really look at her as a woman when she acted more like a spoiled brat.

“You’re lying to me! You couldn’t possibly choose that mouse over me! She doesn’t know you the way I do, Dusty! She could never make you happy!” She’s got tears in her eyes, but he doesn’t buy it.

“I told you before, SHE HAS A NAME! She is no mouse! Now if we’re done here, I’m going back home.”

“Wait! You can’t leave here in such a state! Why should you be so mad at me? I only want you to come back to me! That so-called star could never appreciate you the way I will, don’t you see that?! She’s one of those we used to make fun of! No real talent…just a name that people recognize!” She’s angry but also a bit on the desperate side.

“How dare you! You don’t know anything about her and you have no right to drag her into any of your slimy schemes! You pathetic little girl!” He spits back at her and by the way he shook as he talked, she knew he meant what he was saying.

“She’s really got you that blinded?!” Joanne was lost to think she could possibly lose Dustin and to such as that sad little Maxey. He couldn’t see how pathetic she was? Why was he taking up for her? Joanne had convinced herself she was the ONLY girl he could EVER want!

“This whole situation has nothing to do with her! You’re the one who made this mess!” He’s practically screaming now. He turns to walk away. He’s had enough of all of this! Joanne watches helplessly. NO! He couldn’t walk away from her! He was her world! She’d never told him, but she’d fallen in love with him over the course of their relationship. She knew of his bad reputation, but it didn’t matter to her. He sparkled to her, he meant everything to her! She had even told herself that HE WOULD ALWAYS COME BACK! Couldn’t he see what he was doing to her? Shouldn’t he feel privileged to have been with her at all?

“You can’t do this Dustin! NO! I won’t ALLOW you to do this! You’re only lying to yourself if you think you deserve her! Don’t you see? A star can only see another star! Neither of us will ever be that! You know that! WE, Dustin….WE BELONG TOGETHER!” It takes all of her breath to tell him this. He stops as if he is thinking about what she just said.

He turns, looks her right in the eye and says as plainly as he can, “Goodbye Joanne! You don’t know me as well as you deluded yourself into thinking. Maybe I don’t deserve Maxey, but I intend to hang on to her as long as I possibly can!” With that, he walks away.

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I may be taking a great leap of faith here that anyone is even still interested, but well....maybe I can be a slight risk taker....at times! LOL Here is the second chapter.....

“Maxey! It’s such an honor to finally meet you!” I turn to see a nice fellow offering me his hand. My memory is still fuzzy, but I feel like I should know him for some reason. “I’ve wanted to come up to you for so long but now I finally have a good reason to.” He laughs as I shake his hand.

“Well hello! Please don’t feel like you have to have a ‘good reason’ to say something to me. I hope I can always find a minute to speak but really, I’m very glad to meet you.” I smile at him. What is his name? Ugh! Hate when this happens!

“Rod, you do know you’re talking to my soon to be wife, right?” Dustin comes over when he sees us standing together. He just has to make sure people know. It’s kind of funny, but a little annoying too. I mean, I love being with him, but I don’t really want to ‘belong’ to him. He has his hand on my back just to drive his point home. I just look off and sigh.

“Nothing to worry about, I was only saying hello. Not all of us are as lucky as you, Dustin.” Rod’s voice is strained and he looks a bit miffed as well because I don’t think this is how he saw his introduction going. I’m really sorry!

“If I may have your attention please! Everyone, please gather round!” Matt has come back and is doing what he can. I am proud of him for being moved up to director. I’m sure it’s quite an undertaking, so I wish him nothing but the very best. “Yes, please, I just want to have a word before we begin.” There are several people who come over to form a circle around him. “I just wanted to say hello to all. I’m your new director for this show, so we will be hard at work but that doesn’t mean we can’t have our light moments as well. I know you will give your best and I will do the same! Do we have any new people or any questions before we dive in?”

“I just wanted to say that it is such a surprise to me to be included in a cast that has both you and Maxey in it.” Rod says from behind me. I don’t know why but to be singled out like that makes me blush. Matt looks at me and smiles. He looks down a little before he says, “That’s very nice of you to say.” I feel Dustin grip my hand a little more than I thought he would. Not sure if he’s proud or concerned, but I think it was very sweet. I glance back to see a big smile on Rod’s face. I hope he didn’t see my face change colors!

“No one else with something to say?” Matt questions. “Well then….”

“Oh I just wanted to say I wouldn’t have thought of Dustin as being up for such a task.” A blonde girl close to where Rod is standing says. We all turn to look at her. I should know this girl. Her face is vaguely familiar but no name is coming to me. Dustin seems to go pale beside me. He obviously recognizes her and Matt clears his throat before he says “Now, I don’t think we need to pick on any of the cast here. We are going to be working together for a few months, but if anyone has any problem, we can address that individually.” Again, I see him look at me. I’m lost, but I want to be there for Dustin, so I look at him and smile as I gently pull his hand closer to me. He swallows very hard but tries to smile back at me.

“No problem! I was simply stating…” She looks very disinterested in everything around her. “Besides, I have nothing against Dusty but I do wonder how he got into this show. Must be his lil girlfriend there!”  She crosses her arms and blows the end of her hair up. Goodness! How did I even get into this? Still the bitter look on her face says there is much more to this than she is saying. I feel him grip my hand again but his hand is clammy now.

“She has a name, you know?” Dustin finally says. “And she’s not just my girlfriend, Joanne, so let’s get that straight here and now.”

“You mean she may last longer than the flavor of the month?” She says angrily. “Guess it’s nice to have one of the stars’ attention for a while, huh? That helps you get places, doesn’t it, Dusty? She says one word to director boy here and you get into all kinds of shows you don’t belong in!” Rod pulls her away from the crowd. He has the most apologetic look on his face. “I’m sorry all! I will see about this…..excuse us!” He’s trying to shove her out the door. She starts screaming over his shoulder. Dustin looks very upset and Matt is confused by what just happened. I’m with him! What just happened here?

“Umm well, we can do without the outbursts here. We need to try to get along as best we can.” Matt seems to be in automatic mode. Dustin has been hanging his head for a while now, but I try to stand closer to him. I just want him to know I’ll listen to him, if he wants to talk about this. There is a murmur going through the rest of the crowd here. Oh this is not the way to start a new show! And poor Matt…..not how he hoped his debut would work out.

“Hey, listen everyone! How about we take a few minutes to collect ourselves and start again?” I want to try to cut through all the whispers here. We can’t leave things the way they are, so best to try again, right? Everyone seems to kind of drift off into their own groups but the whispers are still there and yeah, I’ve noticed several looking right at Dustin. Oh man! Matt comes and puts his hands on both our shoulders. “Is there something you want to tell me about, Dustin?” He has a very concerned look on his face. “No, not now” is his only answer.

“Maxey, can I speak with you a minute?” Matt turns to me. I look and Dustin nods, so I follow Matt a few steps away. Once we’re out of listening range, he faces me and whispers, “What is going on? Rena told me Joanne was a last minute replacement, but I didn’t expect this! How could this happen?”

“I am as lost as you are! I didn’t see this coming either but, you have to remember, when Dustin was working with Jerry, there were a lot of girls left in their wake. That’s about the only guess I have for now. I will see if I can get more out of him later, but I think for now, we just have to be there for him. You see how this crowd has reacted. They’re all off gossiping among themselves.”

“True, but I don’t know how we can make this work if those two can’t get along. She seems to be very upset with him and I don’t see it dying down right away.”

“No, I don’t either. C’mon Matt! I’m sure you can work this out between them! We will all find a way!”

“You may be putting too much confidence in me darling. I’ve only just got this job.”

“All the more reason for this to come together now! I just know it will somehow!” I’m trying my best to give him a pep talk. I even put my hand in his, to reassure him. I feel so bad for him but I feel worse for Dustin. My poor boys! We all came kind of excited but those hopes were dashed! There just has to be silver lining here somewhere!

“Matt, maybe I should just step down.” Dustin says as he comes behind me and joins us.

“Are you mad, man? The slightest turn of adversity and you want to throw in the towel?” Matt looks shocked at what he was just told.

“No, I don’t give up, but I don’t want to be the cause of any problem. I guess more girls held it against me than I realized. When I would help Jerry, I would try to talk to the girls first. It was usually easy once I got to be around them more often. I found out what she liked, what she didn’t….what made her tick. Several of them I even made my girlfriend for a while. I’m so sorry, Maxey!” He puts his head down on my shoulder and his arms around me. I touch his arms. I knew he was no saint, so an apology wasn’t really necessary.

“And she was your girlfriend for a while I take it?”

He brings his head up to answer but pulls me closer to him. “Yes and no. We never really said one way or the other. I took her out a few times, but not much happened as far as I was concerned. Once I got all the information I could about her, I told Jerry and then I usually just broke it off with the girl so he could move in.”  

“Your breakup methods must have left a lot to be desired then. I may regret asking, but how did you manage to break this little farce off?” Matt sighs.

“With Joanne? I think I just picked a fight with her and walked out. That’s how most of them went.”

Matt puts his hand over his forehead. “I knew I would regret it!” He shakes his head. “Then we’ve got to go into cleanup mode here, at least a little bit. If you can find a way to apologize to her, maybe you two can tentatively stay in the same room together.”

“I don’t know about that, Matt. She’s got a long memory and, if my thinking is right, things didn’t end well between her and Jerry either. He never mentioned anything like what he did for Maxey, but he didn’t do right by her and I think she still blames me for it!”

“Now, where’s that charm you’re so well known for? Surely you can schmooze your way back into her good graces?” Matt is talking to Dustin but he takes my hand and kind of pulls me away from him. “If anyone can make his way back into her attention, it’s you, Dustin.”

“What are you doing? Why are you taking her away from me?”

“I’m not! I do think though that you need to try to fix this if you want her by your side.” They are face to face as Matt pulls me out of the way. Now, I really don’t want them to turn on each other here.

“You don’t own her! You can’t just take her away from me!” Dustin pushes Matt.

“I can’t? Looks like I just did!” Matt pushes back.

“Stop it you two! The last thing either of us needs right now is for you two to be squabbling! We have enough of that going on here, don’t you think?” I say it rather low as I look at both of them. I hate being caught in the middle of their arguments!

“You’re right….I’m sorry!” Matt apologizes to me. He half smiles at me but he’s glaring at Dustin. Dustin looks none too happy.

“Alright then, I’ll go try to speak to her, but don’t you ever try to come between us again!”

“Dustin! Please don’t make any empty threats right now.” I don’t know how to take his tone right now.

“Oh it’s not an EMPTY threat in any way!” His soft voice and hard look says he’s not joking. Matt doesn’t flinch though, almost like he’s daring him to try something. Guys! PLEASE! I look up to see we are the center of attention again. Will this nightmare end soon?  I can’t help but turn away from both of them with my head in my hands. This is just not how all of this should be happening! It almost seems like someone is trying to tear all of us at the seams.

“Maxey, are you alright? You look very stressed out.” Rod says. He’s come back through the door but no one else has. Now that I look at him…tall, slender guy, brown hair and light eyes…..I think I have seen him several times, but he usually turned the other way when he noticed me. This time though, he puts his hand on my shoulder and brings my face up to meet his. I don’t mean to be rude, but I put my face down again as quickly as I can.

“I’m sorry, I think I just need out of here for a few minutes.” I walk past him with my face still down. I hear footsteps behind me, but I don’t even want to know who’s there. Before I know it, a hand grabs my arm. “Where are you going?” I glance back to see Dustin.

“I just need out of here.”

“You’re coming with me!” He demands

“No, I’m not either. He doesn’t own me, but neither do you!” I jerk away from him and keep walking. I hear him take a few steps to come after me but he stops. I round the corner and go to the break room. I just can’t look at either of them right now.

“You OK?” I look up to see Rena in the break room. Great! Didn’t exactly want to see her at the moment either. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

“I’ll be fine. Just needed to get out of there for a few minutes.” I put my hands down beside me and walk over to get a cookie out of the machine.

“You’re not mad about anything, are you?” She questions. Why do I get the feeling she thinks I’m mad at her for promoting Matt? That’s the least of my worries!

“No, I’m not. I just needed a break from the bickering.”

“Maxey, I hope you’re not still angry with me but I suppose I can’t blame you for it, if you are. I didn’t fully know Jerry’s intentions for you. I heard Matt and I jumped at the chance. I didn’t really listen to anything else, even if he did tell me. Still, I never meant to hurt you so much! You are still my friend and I just hope you can find a way to forgive me.” She sounds honestly sorry about this. I wouldn’t say I am still mad, but it does hurt. She practically threw me over just so she could get to Matt. I don’t really hold anything against her; I just don’t want her to hurt him. I hadn’t really been all that close to her for a while because of the way she went on about him. It also didn’t help that she seemed jealous of the fact I spent so much time around him. I couldn’t always help that, but it didn’t seem to matter to her.

“Look, Rena. I know things were crazy there. I don’t blame you entirely for what happened and I can’t really stay mad at you. Just please don’t use or hurt Matt! That’s all I ask! He means something to you and he means an awful lot to me.”

“I know that now….more than you know! I have seen it in the way you two look out for each other, the way you two look at each other. I guess that’s why I was jealous of you for so long. I haven’t seen Matt react to anyone the way he does you. I do still care deeply about him, but I will try to do as you ask.” She’s crying, but she comes over to hug me. I can’t let her do this alone, so I cry and hug her back. Maybe now we can be friends again! It would be nice to have a girl I could actually talk to again!

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He smirks but he puts his hand on my back and says, “Come with me a minute, Princess. I need to see about something.” I follow him into the hall. He looks at me and asks, “Are you sure you’re alright? Before you start to fuss, I’m not the only one asking. Russ wants to know as well but he doesn’t want to face Dustin at the moment.” I look down before I look up to answer.

“Russ is the one that made that welt on his face, isn’t he?” I knew it, but I also know Russ would never do something like that unless he felt he had no other choice. Matt just nods and closes his eyes. “I’m OK. Y’all don’t have anything to worry about. I’m sorry I woke you up with my yell. I just had a really bad dream.”

Matt cups my face and says, “I know dear. You were dreaming about Joanne.” I’m surprised he says it so plainly! I didn’t think he could actually read my mind. “It’s OK….Princess you have nothing to worry about either. No girl stands a chance next to you!” We both giggle though I have a feeling it’s for different reasons. He hugs me before he lets me go back in.

“You ready now?” Dustin looks anxious to get going. He hands me my script for the day.

“Yeah, just gotta wait for Matt.”

“You and he sure do a lot of things for each other.” He doesn’t have the same jealous air he used to but he does still have a touch of sarcasm in his voice.

“Well of course! We’ve been together for quite a while and we’re used to doing things that way. It’s a comfort for us. We know we can rely on each other.” I take his hand. He smiles, but he doesn’t say anything else about it.

“Shall we?” Matt meets us on the stair case. I nod, sandwiched between my two guys again! When we get to the door, Rod is standing outside like he’s waiting on us. Isn’t that an unexpected surprise!? “Rod? Why on earth are you waiting on us?” Matt is puzzled.

“After the way things ended last night, I just wanted to be sure everyone was alright. It would appear so. That’s a relief!” He smiles.

“Well, I’m glad to see you!” I say to him. He smiles even wider. “Care to join us?” He nods in agreement. Dustin groans slightly and Matt just looks down. Aww c’mon guys! Let’s not be gloomy here!

“How did you know our building?” Dustin questions Rod as we make our way to the bus stop. “Did you follow one of us or something?”

“Now why would I do that? Of course I didn’t follow anyone! I noticed Matt and Russ come in this direction after we left from dinner.” Rod looks rather incredulously at Dustin.

“Still that would only say that you would stand a chance of seeing Matt and yet, we’re all here….isn’t that convenient?” Dustin is not going to let this go.

“Oh c’mon you two! Can’t we just be glad we get to be together a little longer?” We shouldn’t go accusing each other of things when we have so much work ahead of us! Dustin was rather rude to him already, so shouldn’t we just make the best of this for now? Dustin doesn’t say anything else but the look on his face is less than inviting.

“Everyone know their lines for today?” Matt tries changing the subject. We all nod. I know I read over mine but I kind of want to see how things go. I don’t like to go in with a lot of plans. I’d rather play by instinct. It’s much more natural that way and I like to be very flexible. “Good! We’re not up to recording yet though, so be patient while we work these things out.” Bus is here…and the adventure begins another day… This time though I’m sandwiched between Rod and Matt with Dustin behind me. This feels awkward! Matt senses my nervousness and takes my hand. He’s always so strong! “Everything is going to be fine, Princess.” He kisses the back of my hand. I would be so lost without him as my rock! I just move closer to him and put my head against his arm. With that face and voice, I can’t help but believe him.

“We’re here…” I hear Rod say. “I guess I didn’t realize you guys lived so close.” He says as he offers me his hand to step down. How gentlemanly! I smile at him and say “That’s awfully nice of you! Thank you!” He blushes and says, “A guy is supposed to take extra care of a princess.” Now I’m blushing! He even bows before letting me go ahead of him. Wow! Yes, I know what I’ve been told and oh gosh! I don’t deserve such special treatment but it is so flattering! I look down when I feel an arm come around me and look to see Dustin pulling me away. Hmmmm…. He has that look again! I guess I understand but he shouldn’t be so mad at us, I mean after all, Rod was only being nice to me.

Once we’re inside the room again, Joanne comes up to us. She takes Dustin’s arm off me and gives me a haughty look as she tries to wrap herself around his other arm. He pulls his arm away from her and directs me over to the table that we are all supposed to sit around. She won’t be deterred though and she grabs the seat on the other side of him. I look up to see Rod on the other side of me. Now how did that happen when I wasn’t looking? I wasn’t expecting that at all because I’m rather used to Matt being on one side of me, but then he isn’t usually the director.

“OK, everyone, we had a fairly good run yesterday!” Matt smiles once we have everyone. “It’s going to be quite a run, but I really think you’ve all got a pretty good grasp of where we need to go. We do need to work on a couple areas though, so if we could get started….” He goes about his task of trying to improve what he can. He calls on a few people to work out a couple of scenes, but I’m not needed. I sit and wait on Dustin, as he was called.

I feel a tap on my shoulder and look to see Joanne looking down at me. “I think you and I should talk.” >gulp< After hearing what I did and that dream, I admit I am a little scared of her. I get up though and follow her to the hallway. I’m trying to brace myself, but I’m shaking inside because I really don’t want any kind of confrontation with her. She turns to face me and starts, “Are you and Dustin really that serious?” I nod and pick my hand up to show her the ring he gave me. She looks off and takes a deep breath. “Give him back! You don’t know him as well as I do, so don’t kid yourself you have any kind of future with him. He deserves the very best and that’s me!” I’m speechless at her audacity.

“I beg to differ, Joanne! You only think you’re better!” I turn to see Rod followed us. He was standing against the wall but now he comes closer to us. “I figured you were up to no good, so I came to see what was going on. You don’t have any right to say that to Maxey.” He gets between us with his back to me. I’m still a bit dumbfounded I’m even hearing all of this.

“Why you! I thought you were in love with her! If you are, you should be on my side, not defending her! You’re a traitor, Rod!”

“No, I’m not any kind of traitor! My feelings for her are irrelevant at the moment. What I want is for her to be happy and right now, Dustin is the one who does that. You’re just mad you don’t stand a chance with him and you want to take it out on her.”

“I tried talking to him but he’s so wrapped up in that over there, he wouldn’t listen. It’s got to end! He should be with me! Why do you guys keep defending her? Can’t you see she’s not what you seem to think?! Has she cast some sort of spell over all of you?” She’s getting more and more frustrated! I put my hand around Rod’s waist to come in front of him. He seems surprised, but he steps back.

“You’re obsessed with Dustin? Why? Is it because he’s the only one who would put up with you? You do realize that he was acting then, right? He was doing a job. It’s not the same thing!” Again, I’m trying to keep my voice lowered. I don’t want a fight with this girl. She looks shocked I said anything.

“Oh now the mouse thinks she has some sort of backbone, huh? I’m the one in love with him! You’re the one hoping here!”

“If that’s so, why is this ring on my finger and not yours?” Rod lets out a laugh but Joanne is not amused! “I didn’t make Dustin do anything and I don’t intend to. He is free to make his own choices but it would appear to me, you’re not a part of his plans.” I start to walk back into the room, but Rena stops me. When did she get here?

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Chapter 10 expanded.....I am trying to clarify pictures and bring the scenes more to life.....not sure if I’m accomplishing that, but I AM TRYING! I hope you have enjoyed the ride so far as there is only one chapter left.......

The police come to take Jerry off to a doctor and Rena goes back to her office. Derek has excused himself and Dustin tells me he has to see about something now that the trouble is over. Matt asks me to go with him as he finally finishes his scene, then we can go back home. Everyone seems so glad to see Matt and I back together again, but once he’s finished, we make our way out of the building and back to the bus stop.

“You said my name. It finally came back to you?” He lightly says once we are all alone.

“No, I’ve known it for a while, but I wanted to hold off.”

“Why? I told you before once you said my name I would know you were OK.”

“That’s precisely why! I wasn’t alright, but also, I wanted to hang on to you a little while longer.”

“You’re saying you lied to me too?”

“NO, dear. I didn’t lie to you. How can I put this?” I’m trying to find the words, but it’s all blank now. Finally it comes to me, this is something he needs to feel, needs to taste, so I grab his hand and bring him to me, throwing his arm around me. He looks almost confused for a minute and I stand on my tip toes to kiss him, really kiss him….one hand behind his head, the other around his neck, mouth to quivering mouth. This is what I’ve been waiting for and I have to take my chance! Instead of pushing me away though, his arm comes around me and holds me tightly there for a minute before he gingerly brings me back from him by my shoulder. “What was that for?” He’s almost breathless.

“Matt, Rena is not the only one in love with you. When I came around in that chair, I saw you and I fell almost instantly. Thing was that even though I didn’t remember so well, I felt like I had been in love with you for a long time, but I couldn’t exactly bring myself to tell you. I guess you could say I fell for you time and time again, but once I saw Russ, I remembered who he was. It was a hard pill for me to swallow because I knew what that meant. You would never see me as anything more than a friend.”

“Maxey…” he says softly, but I wave my hand as I speak. I have his hand in mine and I place my other on top of his while I look him in the eye.

“No, I need to tell you all of this now. I’ve been meaning to but I kept putting it off because I wanted to keep you around. I was scared of losing you and Russ. That somehow you would turn away from me if you knew, but it’s time you did. The truth of this is that I have come to realize no matter what I feel, you deserve to have a say in this too and you made your choice. Really, I could never measure up to him anyway.” We both laugh a little. “I’m glad to see you two together though. He is crazy about you, Matt. And yes, I saw you blush about him too. Thought you hid it from me?” I have to smile just to see the reaction on his face.

“Well, I tried to but then you’ve always been a perceptive one.” Matt smiles. “Maxey, will you listen to me now?” He takes both of my hands, throwing his head back.

“OK”

>sigh< “Girl! This is what you just HAD to tell me that night!”

My eyes widen! I did? He starts to giggle before he continues, “Yes, you told me that night that you had your doubts about Jerry and Dustin. You had found out about the scheme to win you over. I told you to get rid of both of them but you got mad and said you couldn’t do that. One thing led to another and you finally blurted out that you couldn’t be with the one you really wanted. I asked you who could possibly turn you down and you looked me straight in the eye and told me I was the one you meant. I had never even thought about our relationship that much until you said that. I always thought that you and I were just a natural pair. I mean, we just gravitated to each other, you know?” The bus shows up, so we continue on the bus.

“To me, you were a glaring distraction but one I loved to watch. I liked being around you from the start but it was like you were always trying to beat me in some way. I told you we always seem to push each other’s buttons. Once you told me you were in love with me, well, I couldn’t help but feel the same, in a way.” He did? OMG! Matt was??? Wait, no that’s not what he meant! Just listen to what he says before you jump to anything here! “But when Russ came home, I took one look at him and I realized that there was a huge difference in the way I felt about you two. I wanted to talk to you as soon as I could, but you didn’t come back home, so I needed to find you.” He has tears in his eyes again. He wraps his arms around me and whispers in my ear, “I thought I wouldn’t find you, but somehow I had to. You have always been an important person to me. I do love you, Maxey, my life is not the same without you in it, but I’m afraid I can’t love you the way you want me to. Can you forgive me?”

“Forgive you?” I lean back and kiss his tears away, my hands on both sides of his face. “There’s nothing to forgive. I finally understand that, Matt. It took me a while, but I do now. I’m sorry if you felt like things were a competition between us. That was my fault! I couldn’t have you, so I guess I took things out on you and you didn’t deserve that. I just had it in my head that I had to stay up with you in order for you to look at me. I wanted you to see me somehow, maybe if you saw the real me deep down you would magically change your mind, but I never meant to hurt you. I am so sorry for that! I wanted your attention somehow. ” We get off the bus arm in arm and make our way back to our apartment building.

“It was never a real hurt, but I did wonder why sometimes. I see now. I suppose we both had a lot of growing up to do.”

“I suppose so, but yes, you have always been such a precious person to me. I remember when I did wake up and see you, my face felt like it was burning just being close to you, but I couldn’t figure out why. I realized it was because of my crush when I saw you hug Russ that night. For some reason, who he was came back to me instantly or at least what he represented! Things felt really awkward, but the problem was once I remembered Russ; I couldn’t help but feel that he had always meant a lot to me too. I could talk to him, I enjoyed being around him and it made things harder for me. Rather I let them get to me more, but I can’t imagine not knowing you both! Then Dustin came around. I couldn’t believe someone like him would even notice me much less be after me. I was in a whirlwind and I wasn’t sure where to turn.”

“That would surely make Russ smile to hear you say that. He has always been so proud of you! And why shouldn’t Dustin notice you? You’ve been one of the most popular actresses around there. People have always gone out of their way to accommodate you. Forget what Rena said! You do have something special about you. There is a glow about you that I’ve never seen anywhere else. I was a little disappointed that Jerry said Dustin didn’t know you until he pointed you out to him.”

“Oh now, I don’t know that I would go that far!” I can’t help but put my head down and blush! “Besides, with all the questions I had to answer about you, we must be seen as THE team around there. I thought for sure you must be my husband; I had to tell so many starry eyed girls where you were.” I laugh as I pull a little ahead of him.

“Ugh that!” He slightly shakes his head. “It’s nothing really. They were probably wondering more about why you weren’t in the booth next to me. We usually do these things together.” He winks at me.

“And we will still be that way, right? We will continue to do these things together? We will always have each other at our side, won’t we?” I say it half-jokingly, but in a way, I’m pleading with him. Please don’t break us up!

He pulls me back to him, my arms around his waist, and says, “I wouldn’t have it any other way, would you?”

“Of course not! Nothing has the same meaning without you!” I hold him for a minute as I put my head on his chest. I feel him put his chin down toward my head. I close my eyes in relief. Thank goodness! I can’t imagine being without him and I don’t even want to entertain the notion!

“Oh that’s right! Russ said he would have a big dinner tonight. Wonder if he’s still at the restaurant?”

“I can’t imagine he would be but we can stop by if you like.”

“No need for both of us to stop. You run along…it’s a straight shot to the apartment. I won’t be long.”

“But I…” His fingers on my lips….haven’t we done this bit before?

“Shhh, now just go, darling Princess. I can see to this myself.” He smiles as he waves me on.

It’s not so much that I didn’t want to leave him; it’s kind of that I’m not exactly sure where to go. I mean I think I will recognize it once I see the building but these things are a bit of a worry to me still. Well, he says I can so, here I go…. This place is sure cheerier in the daylight. Don’t be scared now! You only have to walk to the building and you’ve done this so many times. I wish this felt more familiar!

“Maxey! Darling, I thought you would be home by now.” It’s Dustin! Oh thank goodness I see a face I know!

“We just got out of the place. He had to finish his scene.” I run to him and hug him.

“Why isn’t he with you then?”

“Oh he said that he wanted to stop by the restaurant to check on Russ, so he sent me on ahead. They are supposed to have a big dinner tonight. You are coming, right?” I’m hoping he does. It seems we have many things to discuss between us.

“Well, now I can’t refuse an invitation like that, can I? I would love to come but, if you don’t mind, I think we need to take care of something first. Shall we go to your apartment?” He’s acting kind of mysterious.

“OK….let’s go!”

We chat on our way up. “Oh, Dustin, I just wanted to thank you again for coming today. I didn’t expect to see you, but I’m so very grateful that you came. I would have been lost without you.”

“Even with Matt already there?” He rolls his eyes and sort of huffs as he says his name. He really looks very jealous of him.

“Matt can’t prevent every little thing, you know?” I sarcastically answer him.

“True, but he likes to think he can.” Dustin lightly laughs at that but I just look at him. Then he straightens up and says “I knew you would need someone. I wanted to prove that I do care about you a lot, Maxey!”

“Dustin, I meant to ask you, did it really take Jerry to point me out to you?” I’ll ignore that crack for now.

“No, I just let him think that. I had seen you but I only heard about how quiet you were and how Matt was pretty protective of you.”

I snicker at the thought. “People really said that about him? Oh dear! Matt didn’t really throw that much interference.”

“He tried to but he couldn’t keep me from you. I would have done just about anything to get your attention once I fell for you. I know why he did that now. He took it upon himself to guard you because you are such a treasure. I would’ve done the same!” He wraps his arm around me and smiles as his forehead touches mine. ”In my eyes, you are worth any extra trouble.”

“Oh Dustin! I could never compare to you or him!” I have that goofy grin again! I’m sure of it! I can just feel it!

Once we get to the door, I’m a little nervous to let him in. I get the feeling he has something very important to tell me and I’m not sure how ready I am for all of this. I think the world of him and I definitely don’t want to hurt him any further. I’ve been in love with him since I spotted him but I kept hearing all kinds of stories about him. I don’t believe them all, but when it keeps coming up, well, you do your best to be more careful, so I only admired him from afar. We both come in and he closes the door but he leaves the lights off. I go to turn the switch but he grabs me first. “No, leave it off.” I spin around but I’m in his arms and yeah, he kisses me again. He presses me against the door and it’s hard to believe this guy is just taking in what is coming his way. “You will always be my most beautiful girl!” He smiles as he caresses my face. I look at him and I can’t help but feel so many emotions, but wait! This can’t happen. Not right now! He picks me up and we’re on the bed again. He is melting me! I have to stop this. It’s getting way too intense and Matt and Russ should be here any minute now!

“Dustin, please! You have to stop!” I’m out of breath! His lips! His hands! Oh man this is not exactly what I want to do here!

“Why? Are you worried about someone catching us?” He’s saying it but his lips still aren’t far from my skin.

“Please! They should be here any minute!” I don’t think I’m worried about them so much as I don’t really want to see those stunned looks again. I try to sit up, but he’s not letting me. “Dustin, please let me up!” He’s still kissing my neck, but he finally lets up and rolls over with his back to me. Did I make him mad?

“Are you still imagining me as that dream you had?” He talks so low I can barely hear him.

“What? No, I know that wasn’t really you.” I sit up and try to touch his shoulder, but he moves. Then he sits up still facing the other way.

“Then why? You always put up a barrier between us. You don’t trust me? You don’t love me, do you?” He sounds like he’s almost crying. See this is what I did not want to deal with at the moment!

“I never said any such thing, did I? If I didn’t think so much of you, I wouldn’t have let you in to begin with. Don’t you know that?! I know I have stopped you lately, but the first time, I was at a real loss. I didn’t remember you at all! I’m sorry but somehow or other my memory was just gone. This time, I’m only trying to think of Matt and Russ. They are supposed to be coming. You want to fault me for this?”

“No, it’s not that!” He turns around. He has been crying. He takes my hand and pulls me to him. “I know about this time. I guess I’m just feeling a bit left out. I was rather touched by your speech this afternoon. But well, you and Matt do tend to cling to each other at times. I’m sorry, I didn’t realize about the first time. You sure played your part.” He smiles.

“Well! I am an actress after all!” I laugh. I’m against his chest, but umm, what is that I feel in his pocket? What is he planning……..

“You found it, didn’t you?” He sounds almost relieved. “You felt the box in my pocket.”

I just nod. What can I say? “Go ahead, take it out.” He instructs me. I’m nervous again! I fumble as I try to get it out of his pocket. He giggles at my lame attempt. Then, he takes it out himself and he gets off the bed and on to one knee as he opens the box. A beautiful, sparkling ring in a velvet box and a fairy tale prince presenting it to me, I must be dreaming again! This kind of thing doesn’t happen to a plain jane like me!

“Will you marry me?” He’s smiling his most hopeful smile! I….don’t know….. what to say……….can this ….really…..be happening?

“Dustin!” I really am breathless and speechless but happy. I had a feeling this was what he was leading up to, but I was telling myself to be ready for almost anything. My heart is about to beat out of my chest and my head feels light and everything is going……..

#My Story #personal

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It’s me again! So far, no one has said a word about this new story. Kind of disappointing because I am REALLY trying here, but I know things happen sometimes.....Unfortunately, I can’t give this up for now. It’s kinda stuck in my head and I just have to get it out now.......as long as it brings about some enjoyment...that’s all I could ask for

And without further ado......the third chapter.......

“Everything OK in here?” We both look up to see Rod’s face smiling at us. Rena quickly lets go of me and tries to dry her eyes.

“Yes, yes, we’re fine, Rod.” She sniffles. “Just a lil girl talk.” She smiles at me as she takes my hand. I smile back at her then look at him. “Was there something you needed?” I ask him.

“No, not particularly but I think Matt is looking for you.” He says while he’s walking over to us. He puts his hand on my shoulder again, his hand going under my hair. For someone who used to always run away from me, he sure is being extra nice to me now. “I told him I would look for you.”

“That’s very nice of you. Thank you! I guess I better get back in there and see how I can help.” I sigh and shake my head. I know I have to go but I’m still a little resistant.

“If you don’t mind, I’d like to walk back with you.” Rod offers but there seems to be another reason for his saying this. His hand on me seems to tighten ever so slightly.

“OK” I just look up at him but I am confused by what he means. He says goodbye to Rena and guides me out of the room. Once we’re past the doorway, he stops me.

“Could I just have a word with you before you go back in there?”

“Is something wrong?”

“Oh no….nothing like that. I just wanted to take this chance to actually talk to you.” He seems very shy to admit this. Hard to say it, but it is kind of adorable to think I could possibly make someone else nervous.

“OK, how about we take a seat over there. You can tell me what’s on your mind.” I point at several chairs in front of the receptionist desk. He grins and we both choose a seat. “So, can I help you with something?”

“You already have.” He smiles and takes my hand into both of his. He’s acting very strange and seems to be almost shaking to touch me.

“How? I haven’t done anything…” I’m puzzled but oddly intrigued too.

“Just you being around has done more than you know. Uh….Anyway, I just wanted to be sure you were OK. I saw the words there with Dustin. I hope it’s nothing too serious.”

“It will work out, I’m sure. That the only thing you’re thinking about?” Looks like I’m going to draw this out of him.

“I wanted to also apologize for Joanne’s lil outburst there. I don’t know why she went on the attack, especially on you, but I talked to her and she seemed to calm down a bit. I hope it didn’t scare you too much.”

“Well, it did concern me, but I’ll be alright. It’s really very nice of you to think so much of me. I do appreciate that very much! Besides, what she did is not your responsibility. Oh and before I forget, sorry about Dustin’s little dig there. You didn’t deserve that! Now, can I ask you a couple of questions?”

He swallows but says, “Sure…”

“Why did you always run away from me before? I seem to recall seeing you a few times, but as soon as you noticed I saw you, you turned and went the opposite direction. Were you mad at me for something?”

“Oh gosh no! Ummm, well, I mean….” >sigh< “I could never be mad at you for anything! I’m sorry if that was how things came across.” He looks like he’s trying to find the right words to say. “You must hate me if you think I was mad at you!” The look on his face is so sad!

“No, no, no, no dear! Not at all! I don’t hate you! I just wondered is all.” I touch his hair with my free hand and it slips down to his face. I want to cheer him up somehow. ”I was only asking.”

“Maxey! There you are! I’ve been looking all over for you!” Matt is out of breath. “We need you back. I think everyone is ready to start.” I stand up to leave, but Rod is still holding my hand. “We need you as well, Rod! Will you both please come on now?” Matt is trying to hurry us along. Rod finally gets up and we both follow Matt back to the room we were in before. Dustin looks at me before I see him smile. He comes beside me and puts his hand in mine. Hopefully, this is a good sign!

“Now everyone, if we could just please get a quick run through of the lines to see where to go…..” Well, looks like everyone is ready to work. Please, let us all make Matt proud!

After several hours of perfecting the lines, we all call it a day. Joanne was nowhere to be seen, but everyone did seem to be in much better moods. Dustin puts his arm around my shoulders and tells me, “Sorry about earlier. You’re right! We don’t own you. We just both care about you immensely!” He draws me closer to him. His face close to mine…..oh how inviting! His soft lips are on my temple before they leave a kiss on mine. He never could let me stay angry for long! This is the side of him that I adore the most.

“Ready to head back?” Matt comes up beside us. “Russ was saying he wanted everyone to come to the restaurant.”

“Sounds good to me!” Seeing Russ’ face would be just what the doctor ordered for me! I look at Dustin and he agrees. I see Rod walk past us, so I reach out for him. “Would you like to join us?”

He looks surprised I stopped him. He grins and asks, “Umm, are you sure you want me to go somewhere with all of you?” I nod and look to both of them. Matt pipes up, “The more, the merrier!” Rod’s face kind of flushes but he agrees to come with us.

As we get on the bus to go, Matt stops me. “I wanted to apologize for earlier. I felt like I had to do something to get his attention. I guess you were my first choice. I never meant to say I owned you.”

“It’s ok, Matt. Long as you know you don’t, we’re cool. You may influence me, darling, but I still get the final say! I just wish I wasn’t caught in the middle when you two argue.” I bite my lip because it’s true. He smiles at me and says, “I know my dear! I’ve always loved that independent streak about you!” Since I’m so close to him, I just have to hug him. His arm comes around me quickly but is gone before I know it.

“You two made up, huh?” Dustin says as I sit next to him. >Gasp< That’s why Matt did that! Dustin was watching us! I knew it wasn’t like him to do that so fast.

“Of course! We can make each other mad but we can never stay mad at each other.” I push his shoulder with mine. “You also made up with him, right?”

“Well, we will see how things go for now.”

“That’s not awfully encouraging….”

“No, but it’s better than a flat out no, isn’t it?” he chuckles.

“You have a point there!” I put my head on his shoulder. Glad this little tiff is all behind us now!

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Chapter 9 expansion complete......I hope! To be honest, I added a whole little scene. I had thought of it originally but talked myself out of doing it. The more I thought about it though, the more I wrestled with myself to do it. I still kept it on the rather tame side.....I’ve been told I write a bit on the timid side, but I am that way. I suppose I need to come out of it, but afraid it didn’t come out right now. I hope you enjoy and yes the ending is coming very soon!

“I think we’ve earned a trip to the break room for a snack. What do you think?” she says

“OK, that sounds like a good plan to me. Lead the way!”  She takes me past the reception area again but this time in front of it and we come to a room with several machines to get a snack or a drink. Seems odd that we are all alone but I suppose everyone is busy at work. She buys me a snack cake and herself a treat but as we go to sit down at one of several tables, Terri appears again. “Rena! He’s about to blow back there! What happened?”

“I thought we had gotten through to him! Darn it! Listen, Maxey, you stay here. I’ll go try to talk to him again. I don’t need Matt getting even madder at me.”

“Are you sure? I mean if I can be of any help!”

“No, no! I’ll handle this…” and she takes off with Terri in tow. So, here I am all alone. It’s a little intimidating! My nerves feel like they’re in overdrive and I only know I don’t like how this was set up. It does! It feels like a major set up! Maybe I’m just over thinking things. Being too sensitive here, right? No, I smell a rat somewhere! Ever since Rena came back from her talk with Jerry, she’s acting differently. Maybe I should just get out of here. I get up to leave and run almost smack into Jerry! Oh no!

“Where do you think you’re going? I’ve been waiting to get you alone.” There’s that strange look on his face again. Please tell me this is not happening all over again!

“You’re supposed to be down the hall working on your show. What are you doing here?”

“Oh that! They played their parts quite well, don’t you think?” He applauds mockingly. I knew it! I knew this was a set up! And Rena just delivered me right to him! Oh no! I start trying to back up to see if I can get an opening to run away from him. He won’t take his eyes off me. ”Oh don’t tell me you’re scared of me, Maxey! Like I said, I’ve wanted to get you alone again. This way we can pick up right where we left off.” Again! AHAHAHAHA

“Look, just stay away from me! I don’t know what you thought you would accomplish here, but I won’t let you do anything.” I’m bluffing, but I hope he buys it! I did get away the first time, but this is terrifying!

“Do anything….to you? I only want to talk to you.” He’s trying for an innocent voice now. He keeps trying to come closer to me, but I’m doing my best to keep some distance between us.

“I can hear you just fine where you are, so you don’t have to come any closer.” That evil grin of his spreads across his face. Gulp! I have to get out of here NOW!

“Now, don’t worry your pretty little head about a thing because I’m going to make everything so good for you and all you have to do is be mine! I’ll make you a star if you just come along with me. We won’t know any problems! Best of all, I’ll get back at all of those morons who ever doubted me!” Is he for real? That is NOT happening! He lunges at me and I jump back. “Why should you run away from me? I only want to make you happy, don’t you see?” He grabs my arm, but I jerk it back. “Ah-ha! I see you still have that fighting spirit, but you’re not using it properly darling. Here! Let me show you!” This time he gets a grip on my arm and I can’t jerk it back. Then he pulls me to him with my arm behind me. Oh no! No! No!

“Stop this! You know you’re not going to win here.” I manage to get it out but I don’t know how I can get away from him. I’m trying to turn around to get my arm back.

“Ah but you see, I’ve already won! You’re in my arms. I know you don’t remember so well. Oh Rena was very helpful, you know? I’ll fill in the blanks for you. You want to be with me. You’re as crazy about me as I am about you. Not only do you want me, you will help me!” In your dreams, buddy! I don’t remember that well, but I do remember that’s a bold face lie! Help you? What even? He starts kissing my temple and forehead. I have to break out of this! “Sweet! Sweet revenge!” He mutters between kisses. “How your smell entices me, Maxey! Your body is so soft! Mmmmm…I won’t leave a mark on you, but I can’t wait to dive into you.” His voice is husky and his hands feel like they’re everywhere! He won’t let go as I struggle to free my arm and Yuck! Won’t leave a mark on me?

“That’s enough, Jerry! Let her go!” We both look to see Dustin in the doorway!

“Well, if it isn’t my ex-employee? You did know that, right, Maxey? You can’t believe anything he says because he never tells the truth! What, Dustin? Think you’re going to play superhero here to win her over? You’re not going to take my happiness away from me!”

“I said let her go, Jerry! She is not in love with you. Never has been and never will be! Your happiness? Is that some sort of joke? You wouldn’t know happiness if it stared you in the face!”

“Oh sure, you can talk all big and bad if you think you have a chance with her, huh?”

“This has nothing to do with my chance with her! You need to let her go! She is not your happiness!”

Hello! Am I even still here? I think I’ve turned invisible! I have to get my arm away from this lunatic!

“So what? Now because you claim you love her, she’s all yours now? Get off it, Dustin! I’m not letting you come between us no matter how much you want to. She belongs to me and no one else at the moment!” His grip is slipping! Now’s my chance! I take a step forward then swing around and slap him as hard as I can across his face! Once I break his grasp and he’s on the floor, I run to Dustin who puts his arm around me. Man! My hand stings!

“Looks to me, she’s made her choice.” Dustin then puts both arms around me while Jerry tries to pick himself up.

“Give her back!” Jerry demands but he’s swaying too much from side to side.

“I am not some trophy to be handed over, you imbecile! I have no intention of being anywhere near you again!” I bury my face in Dustin’s chest with my arm around his waist. Thank goodness he helped me get out of this!

“Are you alright? Let me see your hand.” He says as he brings my stinging hand to his lips. I know he means well but any pressure on my palm REALLY hurts. Even so, it’s such a relief to see him.

“Where did you come from, Dustin?” I look up at him, but I can’t let him go yet.

“I told you I would be close. I’ve been here waiting to see you again. I knew he couldn’t be trusted. With Matt busy, I figured you needed someone around.”

Jerry recovers though and grabs my hair. OUCH! ”I got her back now! What do you say to that, boy toy?” Ugh! Him too! And when did I become some rag doll to be passed around? He yanks me back to him and holds my arms down.

“What is going on here? Jerry, what do you think you are doing with her?” Matt comes running in with Rena behind him. “Unhand her or you will regret it!” He’s yelling and I can almost see the steam rise from him.

“No, Matt, this is my fight!” Dustin steps in front of him. “He’s doing all of this to get back at me. He wanted me to spend time with Maxey then tell him how to win her over. At first, it was just another job he guilted me into doing. After a few days, I couldn’t help myself. I fell for her! I wouldn’t help him get to her because I wanted to know her better myself. She was nothing like the others he’s had his eye on. Now, he’s doing all of this because he says I betrayed him.”

“That’s right! You did!” He’s bringing me further and further back with him. ”But that’s not the only reason for this. This runs much deeper than you can even begin to realize!” I see Rena try to bring Matt back to her so I cry out, “She helped him! She delivered me to him on a silver platter. Trying to fawn all over you to distract me, then left me in here knowing Jerry was close! Rena, I knew something was up from your change of behavior.”

“What?” She goes for the surprised innocent look. “Why the girl has lost her mind!” She says as she tries to wrap her arm around Matt’s. He jerks away from her. “So that was your plan? You promised me you would take care of her. YOU LIED TO ME!? You used my trust to bring her right back where I told you she was not to be?”

“Matt, dear, let me explain….” She’s bumbling trying to get back in his good graces

“Don’t even try to deny it, Rena, he already confirmed you and Terri played your parts for him.” I tell her. It’s pointless to try hiding it now and Matt should know the truth.

“I don’t want to hear any more excuses! That’s why Maxey stopped talking to you so much. She always played it off that there was no time. I should have guessed!” He keeps shaking his head in disbelief. “Now let Maxey go Jerry! You have no claim to her!” Claim me? I’m a piece of property now?

“Yes, I do! I saw her first! Dustin didn’t even know she was here until I pointed her out to him. I saw her audition for a show and she just stood out to me. There was just something about her that I had to see over and over. Why do you think I requested her so often? It was more than just her voice. She was just luminous and I wanted her! I tried to get her attention, I really did, but she wouldn’t even look at me. You distracted her too much, Matt! So, I had to go over your head!” Matt was my distraction? Ha! No, more like you creeped me out! He won’t let go of my arms….maybe if I can back him to the wall, I can break this again.

“If you want to get technical, I saw her first!” Matt points to his chest. “Now that’s enough of this! Let go of her!” Is this some sort of contest? He tries to reach out for me, but Jerry moves me before he can touch me.

“Nice try, Matt! No one is taking her away from me!”  Yeah? Just wait! I’ll get out of this somehow! I have to!

“Look, Jerry, just give it up! You’ve done this so many times. You have a whole string of girls you’ve played with, so why don’t you go find another one of your toys and leave her alone?” Dustin tries to step toward us again, but Jerry keeps moving me to keep them from touching me.

“You two still don’t get it, do you?” Jerry tries to explain. “My taking her is so much more than just my desire. Now, back off! I have her now and she’s coming with me!”

“Why don’t you enlighten us then Oh guru of the scripts?” Matt sarcastically folds his arms.

“Don’t you see? I can make an obscene amount of money with her?! They’ll have to go through me to get near her now. With so many admirers, I can pick and choose and she will bring their fantasy to life!” Jerry brings his face extra close to mine. He means to use me to line his own pockets? Is he really this cruel?! Why would he even think I would go along with this?

“You mean you want to let her go to the highest bidder? What kind of fantasy are you even talking about anyway?” Matt is asking but the look on his face says he already knows.

“Once they pay me, who cares what she has to do?” He gloats. He’s almost laughing at me. So, he didn’t just want me for himself, he wants to use me to get rich as well. I want to cry, but I won’t give him the satisfaction! “Why you sorry…..” Matt lunges to punch him, but Dustin catches him and shakes his head.

“Jerry, she is not leaving here with you! Let her go now! Maxey is not some money maker for you.” Dustin seems very calm. “I knew you weren’t serious about that happiness crack anyway!”

“What is all the noise in here?” Derek comes in scratching his head. ”What is all of this? Jerry? Why are you hanging on to Maxey like that? Man, you know there is a difference from reality and our shows we work on!?” Oh no! Not another one to antagonize him?!

“Derek, you’ll help me get her out of here, won’t you? She really doesn’t want to listen to these sniveling babies anyway.” Jerry is sounding desperate.

“That’s not true! I’m trying to take everything in here” I say, fighting back my tears and screams, but really I’m trying to work Jerry back against the wall so I can break his grip on my arms again. Derek looks skeptical but I’m not sure if it’s me or Jerry he’s skeptical of.  Jerry keeps moving back but he won’t go all the way back yet. I think he’s thinking like I did earlier, back up and look for an opening. I’ve got to stop him somehow!

“You know, it is getting a bit stuffy in here and I could really go for a drink.” It’s a distraction, I’m hoping!

“If you’ll come along with me, you’ll never want for anything again, my dear. Neither of us will!” Jerry is almost foaming at the mouth. Ewww! The others all look surprised but I think Matt sees my plan here because he says, “Now, we just can’t have a thirsty Princess. That would never do!”

“You’re so right! Now move out of the way, so I can take her out of this place!” Jerry declares. He’s getting too confident, but I don’t quite feel an opportunity yet.

“Why do that when we have what she requires right here?” Matt protests. “Surely, you don’t see anything wrong with one of us giving the Princess a drink. After all, she has requested it herself. Dustin, why don’t you get the drink and let her take a sip?” Dustin gives Matt a look but through their exchange I see that they seem to understand each other. I hope this works, guys! Rena starts gasping, “No, Matt! He’ll…..”

“Shhh! No need to be upset. We are merely answering her wishes.” Matt calms her down. Dustin steps up to get the drink. Jerry makes sure I’m far from him though. If you would just back up a little bit more, Jerry!  Dustin then comes towards us with the open can in his hand. Jerry moves me slightly, but just enough for me to reach Dustin. He puts the drink to my mouth and as I go to drink, I kick back and stomp Jerry’s foot, then Dustin throws the drink in his face. I’m finally free! I fall into Dustin’s arms and Matt and Derek grab Jerry. Thanks to all of you! I don’t even know where to begin!

“Thank you so much!” I manage to say to Dustin and he bends down to kiss me. I’m so happy to be free; I can only throw my arms around his neck and drink it in. Yes, I think this is what I remember about him. We were trying to start a relationship but there were so many questions up in the air. Did he mean what he said? Was he still trying to work for Jerry even though he told me he had quit? His kiss always seems to drive any doubts away though. I’m just overjoyed that he’s here and he does mean this!

“No, Jerry! You promised me! You told me if I helped you, Matt would be mine! How could you?! You can’t do this to me!” Rena is crying in a chair. We all turn to see her and Matt is flabbergasted to hear her confession.

“You really thought I would be push over enough to go along with you if he took Maxey out of here? How confused must you be?”

“What do you want with her anyway? She’s nothing special! I’ve been the one in love with you from the start! How could you possibly choose her over me?” I never claimed to be anything special, so where did that even come from?

“Oh child!” Matt laughs and shakes his head. I can tell he’s thinking of Russ. I am too really. Derek is holding down Jerry on his own now so Matt comes across to me and Dustin. “You think I chose her? I never chose her. She and I are bound together by something you apparently will never understand, but it’s not romantic between us. Maxey is my little sister. I love her with all my heart, but that doesn’t mean I choose her over anyone else. How could you even jump to such a conclusion?”

“But you two always choose each other! I’ve seen it myself! The way you two argue, make up, work, play, joke…you always choose each other! That’s why I went to Dustin. I couldn’t get close to her because you wouldn’t let anyone get near her! Always swooping in and taking her away when I even tried to talk to her.” Jerry growls at Matt.

“Who pulled your chain? Look, you people need to get something straight…Maxey and I are NOT a couple!” We both look at each other even though Dustin is right there. Matt is right. I may be crazy about him, but I’ve known for a while now that he is my friend, my brother…..I will never be anything more than that with him. It’s ok now though. I understand that. Really, I could never do anything to Russ because I love him too.

“Since everyone is talking about me, can I just say something here? He’s right!” I look down and take a breath and his hand before I finish out what I want to say, “Matt is a very important part of my life and I am very grateful for that. Yes, we do go at each other at times, but we make up as well because we can never stay mad at each other. We are not a romantic couple in any way, shape, or form though. This guy here…” I turn more toward Dustin now and take his hand, “He means the world to me as well. He really came through for me today and honestly, I’ve had my questions about him. He didn’t have to even show up, but he’s been here the whole time just to be around. He’s my guy! And Matt? He’s my best friend, just like his friend, Russ is my best friend! I am grateful to and for all of them.” Matt and Dustin both smile broadly and Dustin squeezes my hand. Rena and Jerry both look rather desolate though.

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