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#and also I'm most likely gonna get my period during this coming wk. which is Fantastic /s
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Laying in bed feeling depressed
#maybe I'm wrong but i think ive been more depressed since i started as floral specialist at work than i had been before. idk.
#like my memory doesnt function right so idk for sure- anything older than x but newer than y is like *poof*
#but uh i feel like ive been more stressed
#well ok actually its been since i started trying to go for supervisor. that was the move that started the increased stress and that led to
#floral specialist and now I'm here
#struggling with depression. i dont want to go to the botanical garden w ma later but i also dont Not want to
#bc the idea of going doesnt fill me w excitement/joy. like theres nothing but depression going 'but youve been there 100 times. nothing new
#but the idea of not going does make me Unhappy. bc itll be 5pm and I'll be sitting around doing nothing and regretting not going
#and making that bad mood everyone else's problem
#but like i want to do all these other things today
#i also wish i hadnt broken my bike and then insisted it was not worth fixing bc i would Love to go for a bikeride and I don't have a
#working bike to use
#I'm stressed abt this wk at work bc mday biggest floral holiday and im anxious its going to be a mess
#and also I'm most likely gonna get my period during this coming wk. which is Fantastic /s
#my parents have been talking abt maybe as early as next year or a couple years my dad retiring and them moving somewhere warmer
#but i meant to be in a better position mentally and like. I'm terms of being able to take care of myself and do things on my own or at all!
#I'm not ready and I'll be 30 next feb and I dont feel it. i feel like i did 5 years ago it doesnt feel like 5 yrs have passed at all
#well 4 yrs rn
#I'm anxious and depressed and i need to learn to drive and make doctors appointments and pay my bills
#my dad still gives me my humira shot half the time and i dont entirely trust myself w it on my own without him or someone else around
#at least. i can do it but i don't want to have to
#i think they dont see how much support i actually need. like everyone thinks I'm low-support-needs autist and thats very clearly not true!
#but since i live w my parents no one notices
#i need some support. not a ton. but i need someone i can rely on to remember important things. someone i can rely on to help me w my humira
#someone who will make meals when i cant. and remind me of when stuff is due. and someone to support me when I'm sick.
#and someone to talk to. someone else to feed my pet half of their meals. so i can have a pet at all.
#i need someone to interact with who lives w me or is around frequently at least
#and its not going to happen
#and im just. i either have to follow them wherever they go - which is not a good idea
#i refuse to go to certain states bc of fascistic leadership and queerphobic and misogynistic laws
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