#also... a fat guy isn't gonna use his chub in a sexy way if he's insecure about it.

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#tag talk #seeing hornyposting on tumblr makes me realize just how insecure my last bf was about his weight #and how much internalized phobia he had about so many things (but thinking about the fatphobia specifically here) #which like. tragic because I deadass forget that people irl do have and perpetuate fatphobia #like. he was so good and chunky and I loved that but he was so wildly insecure and wanted to be skinny again and I was like noooooo #the amount of times he would make fun of fat dudes and then turn around and shame himself for putting on weight. #not very healthy and also it's like that thing how it's hard to compliment someone if they always deflect it and insist you're wrong #hard to let someone know you actually do think they're hot as fuck when they're always like ew I'm ugly I wish I were different #also... a fat guy isn't gonna use his chub in a sexy way if he's insecure about it. #like. yes pin me down with your weight and make me breathe it in. but if that just makes you insecure about your body then you're not gonna #kinda like how if you like dick but the trans woman you're with is dysphoric about it then you're not both gonna have a good time #anyway. fat people rule and chub is good and one of my many goals is to assure the people I sleep with that I think their bellies are hot #I showered with my gf a few nights back and like. honestly damn. she asked about what I thought and I was like girl you're serving classical #like. very heart shaped in the way the belly lines lead toward the thighs. idk it's very beautiful and I like it a lot. #I get that a lot of people prefer my hyper-slim body type and sure that's fair. but don't erase us who prefer heavier people. #like. I keep thinking about her. #I don't remember which art period it is that's got her specific body type I said Renaissance but I looked and they're thinner there #anyway. still figuring out how my sexuality relates to my own body because gender dysphoria forever. but I know how I feel about others