#also it was so very hot but that's an aside SJGDK

[johnslittlespoon]

i'm soooo like. ?? about the fight scene i'm sorry i'm so stuck on it i have so many thoughts about the episode in general but obv we were all waiting for that scene specifically lol

i genuinely was so convinced the fight was gonna be a diversion and the reason they showed it in last episode's teaser was to get people to be like gasp! the boys are fighting! and then in this episode be like psych it was all part of their plan

but it wasn't?? john was just literally losing it a little bit?? it felt like a call back to the john and curt "i want you to hit me scene", we know john gets self-destructive when he's hurting or upset, he'll do anything to feel something, even sabotaging himself or his relationships/friendships.

so it makes sense but mannn i didn't expect it to be legit. breaks my heart that he seeks comfort or like sanity through violence like that and especially hurts that gale is pushed to swing at him when he's so far from an aggressive person

but they also both didn't seem very affected by it (not that mota ever gives us a ton by way of processing emotions) and i doubt it's something that would affect their friendship deeply; it's obvious that they're both hurting in different ways and i can't see either of them holding it against the other outside of like making jabs at the other for it in the future lol

i'll have more coherent thoughts eventually, i was just so taken aback and it's rly interesting with their dynamic and is gonna produce so much brainrot from me lmfaoo

#also it was so very hot but that's an aside SJGDK #that goes without saying lbr #it was not the wrestling in the mud that i expected #but i ate that shit up regardless #time to deep dive into my google docs for the night #and also get back to some drabble asks hopefully #buck x bucky #buckbucky #johnslittlespoon brainrot