#also in 2 weeks-ish I'm gonna be home alone for about a week which doesn't help this feeling

[daz4i]

in my "i am going to die soon i can feel it" era again

#as you may guess from the phrasing i have turned out to be wrong the last times it happened #i usually get it around my bday and i think. i had enough distractions during it so now I'm getting this dread in delay #also in 2 weeks-ish I'm gonna be home alone for about a week which doesn't help this feeling #it's kind of like despair is filling my lungs choking me and i feel like i have no other choice than to die. you know how it is #also been having constant thoughts abt drowning myself recently. again you know how it is 👍 #it just happens sometimes. that's just what life is. constantly awaiting death or being distracted enough not to notice the wait 🤷‍♂️ #negative // #suicide // #ask to tag