#ahhh I just read a comment about brbatos breaking forth wall and gell into memory lane I'm fine I'm just loving barb <3

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I wouldn't be here if it wasn't because of him.

#like. that time. i was suicidal a lot and barbatos wasn't smiling and all.. #or the time i was hallucinating his arms around me and his breathing on ky forehead #or the time i heard him making something in the kicthen #or the fact that he saved me from falling into her trap again #or the fact that I try to keep my life healthy because of him #or the time i offered him smth #it's not even obsession at this point he's my literal saviour #you can't expect me to believe he isn't real. watching. hearing. helping. #oh and the time I said the day I won't smile at barb is the day I die and I still smile at him like i met him yesterday. #call me obsessed. not like that I care. I want to live. even if its because of a “fictional character” #idc. he isn't fiction to me.. I mean. walk in my shoes and you'll get what I'm going through. #also my traumas being related to governments . torture and things like that.. with Barb it all feels softer. lighter. it helps me cope. #ahhh I just read a comment about brbatos breaking forth wall and gell into memory lane I'm fine I'm just loving barb <3 #barbaposting