#Using all the energy leaving nothing for all the other important calls I've been procrastinating on...

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#Guess who has to call the doctor's office tomorrow once more #Not for one of the big reasons that have been building up over the past months. #Not because I need to discuss the results of the hospital tests. No. #(because I still haven't managed to call the hospital to ask for them) #No because that fucking tick bite acts up 3 weeks after #And because my fucking finger refuses to heal at all... #So I've got to call again once more #Beating myself about it #Using all the energy leaving nothing for all the other important calls I've been procrastinating on... #Whyyyy irghh #I dont have the energy to do all of it #FINGERS CROSSED I can go there early in the morning and don't have to cancel work.. I know I know health is more important and all... #But I don't want to let the kids keep hanging #I've got some pretty unstable clients tomorrow... #tumblr is my diary and you can read along #I can already tell I wouldn't survive chronic pain that's not dull pain #It frightens me how much the two weeks of constant sharp pain is fucking with my head already