#Sander breaking down.. his broken cries in Robbe's arms and I couldn't hold my tears anymore

[ijzermansdriesen]

Two years later and on the other side of major depressive disorder, I don't remember ever crying for maandag 11:03 like I did today.

#like don't get ne wrong I've cried a lot like A LOT watching Sobbe.. an insane unhealthy amount even #over the littlest of things but #not over maandag 11:03 as far as I can remember #Sander breaking down.. his broken cries in Robbe's arms and I couldn't hold my tears anymore #somehow I relate to Sander much more much much more than I went on the hiatus and it's funny because I already related to Sander more #than Robbe before as well #I just felt what he must feel on a very deep and personal level... to think he can never be loved or be treated normally again to always #feel like a victim of his illness a shadow that's lurking always and can anytime overshadow what little happiness or normalcy he tries to #reach and then have someone to tell you it's okay I'm here you're safe you're good we can and we will get through this together ... #to feel anchored and not like you'd fly off any time to have the stability of a loving caring person even through the worst of times when #you hate yourself #oooffff #a crying mess it made me #the way Sander trying to be strong otherwise but breaks down as soon as he realises Robbe really loves him he's really staying ... #not the cruelty it's the tenderness that makes you break down #just how horrible Britt must have been to him nobody deserves that shit #wtfock #don't know if I want to tag this but I'm keeping travk of my posts this way so anyway tag is bereft of people of sorts