#Mira's tennis rambling

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Australian Open 2024: Jannik vs Andrey

Me:

#mira's tennis rambling #andrey rublev #jannik sinner #australian open 2024 #tennis

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29th of October, 2023

Hey av,

I’ll just start calling you like that since you „signed“ your last text here like that. I wondered already for a longer time if you actually want me to call you with a nick name, but somehow im uneasy with applying nicknames when i hear them from friends (like ale from zoi) bc then I always feel like im stealing something, life if it were somehow awkward to use it as well. Now I got an invitation to use it which makes it feel right.

When you sended me this blog the other day I was feeling quite overwhelmed. I couldn’t really tell what I think about it and what it means. So I decided to sit with it until I feel like I’ve made my mind up. Day by day that passed I felt like saying sorry for not being able to respond yet, and day by day I told myself, that this reaction would play into the tennis match that you want to avoid. So I’m not saying sorry. But thank you for that super cool medium!!! I actually love the idea of having somehow an online diary that we share with each other. Where can just narrate on our own, remember on our own, associate on our own, but also can of course respond to each other. I think it’s fun, it’s a new experience, it’s playful and a vivid archiv to look back on you and me and the world. On the other hand, I’m also afraid of what this shared medium that I don’t have with anybody else could create as meaning for our bonding. 

These days feel somehow pale. Uni started again and as always I’m a bit too absorbed by my feelings of not belonging. Not belonging to that sphere of academia but also to that group of people. I’m dreaming again about people from uni letting me now that im stupid and pathetic (the other day it was the german guy stefan, if you remember him lel). Some days like today, I feel the fear very intensely in my body. I’m longing to run away from social interactions, my body and my mind freezes. Yet, generally on most days I feel like I’m better than usual to convince myself of the fact that it’s just a matter of time, until I’ll feel like I’ve arrived here again after the summer pause and that we all know and share feelings like that. 

And then there is the war. As u can imagine the intensity of the discourse about it is also represented in uni. People with palestinian and arabic background position themselves quite openly and clear. Words like genozid are being dropped in combination of german responsibility. It has not been taking much time quantity wise, but If it comes up it’s quite intense. Of course. I feel like we are laking a space where we can together discuss about it as the main topic and not relating to it and then dropping very emotionalized comments. But of course it’s emotionalized how could it not. I’m rambling and I feel lost with my emotions of being overwhelmed and immensely sad, not sad enough and not helping, not knowing if I want to go to a demonstration for the palestinians, how much that would hurt my israelian friends, how much information my opinion is lacking, to what extend we all need to get rid of the dimensions good and bad, right and wrong, how my mind should be able to explain happenings by history but not justifying at the same time (I feel like thats a rethorical figure that is almost impossible: how can you try to understand in what circumstances people think and feel and desire without inherently being a justicifation?). What does it mean for my active behavior to not stand finally with one or the other side, but stand for peace and not answering violence with violence? I feel lost and i feel I’m lacking ability rn to talk about it in a way that gives me comfort. But on the other hand, we all need to sit in discomfort with it. 

The last week I was hosting Mira which was very nice. I started a pole dance class. I love the idea of jumping and flying around the pole, even though I look like a clumsy monkey still. It will eventually get better - looking forward to the day when my body learned the new movements and it actually feels like dancing. The other day Lotti folded her hand into my hand when I left her and I felt very moved by that, I really wonder how that relationship will develop. I need to leave now for uni. And then the weekend is calling and I’ll be occupied by a party here a party there and uni in between. I’m already looking forward to be a bit tipsy and having fun while smoking :p

Kisses, Aline

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me during the AO2024 final:

#BUT i have to say Jannik winning his first slam would be very very very beautiful (sorry Daniil) #i'm not watching - unfortunately #real life is a b*tch :(( #mira's tennis rambling

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i know this year's Laver Cup will be in Berlin but WHY THE FUCK IS ZVEREV THERE?!

i'm so tired of the fact that they still promote him like he doesn't have charges of domestic violence (and serious anger issues)! pls just get him off the tour and into jail

#mira's tennis rambling #laver cup 2024

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I'm a big fan of Andrey's outfit and the hairband - the colour matches his eyes beautifully

#andrey rublev #mira's tennis rambling #australian open 2024 #tennis

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Mira please i need you to tell me more about Rublev, i'm spiraling in a Andrey's loop here

-mery aka carlosheinz

ohhh, I love this! 🥹😍 let’s start with the official part: he is a Russian Tennis player, 26 years old and currently nr. 5 of the world.

Andrey is like the cutest cutie ever (like during his preparation for a match)! like, it’s hard not to love him – even other players on the ATP tour love him. he’s collecting a lot of boyfriends (Grigor Dimitrov, Karen Khachanov - other examples: Andrey and Arthur Fils during Laver Cup this year, ATP Finals last year (but pls also watch the video!)) and other (boy)friends (Daniil Medvedev (they kinda grow up together), Dominic Thiem).

although he has some "anger-issues" but ONLY on court (screaming, swearing, sometimes he even hurts himself with his tennis racket) and he has problems with self-doubt (x - he is serious about his answer), overthinking and being to hard on himself when it comes to tennis. Outside the tennis court he is a very friendly, a bit shy but very funny person and he does random things sometimes. he is a true sweetheart. And his interviews are the BEST. and he did a music video years ago

i'm sorry i'm so bad at this but he is truly one of the best and purest people ❤️ i really love him with all my heart bc he is such a special person ❤️

edit: i f*cked up the first Karen link and i get error messages when i try to change it (don't know if it worked) so here is what i originally wanted to post: Karen and Andrey

#please - if you have the time - watch some (a lot!) of his interviews on YouTube! <33 #his interviews are the best <33 #and i'm sorry i'm so bad at ''introducing'' people 🥺 #and i'm sure i forget a lot of important things #thank you for this! this made my day! #feel hugged #mimmo2acmeelan #mira's tennis rambling #ask me #andrey rublev

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you know why i get so extremly emotional over Carlitos' 2nd slam?

i follow him since he was number 132 of the world.

i met him when he was number 42 of the world.

and my god, he was the most polite, friendly and humble person ever. he took time for every single fan, took LOTS of photos and signed LOTS of different things and i even had the possibility to talk with him and i will never ever forget those 5 minutes in my entire life.

i can't put into words how much he means to me and how happy i'm that he won his 2nd slam (and many more will follow).

#my god i'm so happy and emotional and proud!!!! #SO SO PROUD!!! #carlos alcaraz #carlitos alcaraz #mira's tennis rambling #wimbledon 2023

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Not Karen saying he would choose his BEST FRIENDS Daniil and Andrey to babysit his children 🥹😭

#my god I love them so much #karen khachanov #andrey rublev #daniil medvedev #tennis #mira's tennis rambling

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this year's Laver Cup feels a bit like:

Team World: "We will not only defeat Team Europe, we will destroy them! 👿"

Team Europe: "Being there is everything! <33"

#...does Team Europe know that they actually need to win some matches? #laver cup 2023 #mira's tennis rambling

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Andrey wearing rings is one of the hottest things ever

#i said what i said #andrey rublev #tennis #mira's tennis rambling

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besties, pls tell me that it's not a waste of money if i go and watch another tennis match live today? i'm done with uni at 3 pm today and Karen might starts playing at the same time...

#Vienna has some ''tennis to go'' tickets that you can buy whenever you want and just go and watch matches for 2 hours... #let's see...if he starts playing before 3 pm than i won't go and watch but if he starts 3 pm (or later)...maybe?? #mira's tennis rambling

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Wow, that's what I call a fan club 🙈🥰

#mira's tennis rambling #jannik sinner #carlos alcaraz #antonio giovinazzi #maria sakkari #tennis

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No more Djokovic. Society has progressed past the need for Djokovic.

#society = Stef and I #tennis #mira's tennis rambling

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Stefanos killed eliminated the rat. nice.

#mira's tennis rambling #tsitsipas vs zverev #Paris Masters 2023

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Personally, I think "Daniil Medvedev, two time US Open winner" would sound amazing...so, Daniil, honey, let's win this (pls)! 👀

#I wanted Carlitos to win this sh*tshow...but Daniil would be more than fine #he would deserve it so much #us open 2023 #mira's tennis rambling

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i'm crying, my commentators are getting emotional and my dad's blinking away some little tears: Jannik just deserves this so so much <33

#mira's tennis rambling #jannik sinner #australian open 2024