#It's wildly inconsistent even the degree to which I give a fuck how people view me or caring about gender one way or another like

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I love the name jack because it feels like such a good placeholder like they call you john doe if they can't figure out who you are and Jack is like a fun nickname for John. I'm not a John though and my dad was gonna name me Jack if I was a boy but anyway. It's good. Hey I'm Jack how's it going I love how short it is, doesn't take up any of your time, only thing weird about it is to most people I don't look like a Jack when people look at me they go GIRL which is fine but that's not what comes to mind when I look at me. Is just me.

#I've been thinking a lot about Dianne though. Two ns #Keep seeing it everywhere n I like it too. Don't know why I like such normal ass names but like #God like this does not make sense #Gender philosophy and such #But I think I'm gender fluid #Because the only thing constant about my gender is that it is not #It's wildly inconsistent even the degree to which I give a fuck how people view me or caring about gender one way or another like #I just wear clothes the clothes don't have a gender and tbh brobably neither do I #I'm just a creature I'm just here I didn't ask for any of this I didn't create the gender binary I just had this framework #Forced on me from birth and since I can turn the whole thing inside out and backwards in my mind #It means nothing to me anymore. Including what other people think when they look at me. #BUT I enjoy juxtaposition #Looking like a woman yet having what is pretty solidly a man's name is very satisfying to me #The thing I hate most abt being perceived feminine is having your emotions categorized as female emotions and being disrespected for that #Like I feel patricide in this chili's tonight just kidding who said that