#I've been feeling really cruddy this week in particular about feeling like I haven't really Healed and Grown '''enough'''

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#actually. damn. that's really just kinda hitting me now #technically we Broke UpTM right at the start of 2022 but we lived together for another year because of. reasons 🙄 #march 2023 I moved out and was officially independent for the first time in my life so in about a month that'll be one whole year #I've been feeling really cruddy this week in particular about feeling like I haven't really Healed and Grown '''enough''' #whatever I think that even means lmao #but this is kinda putting into perspective... I've basically had people isolating me and preventing me from forming outside connections #for almost two decades. 2/3 of my life :| the fact that I've held it together at ALL for a whole year on my own has to count for something. #anyway WOW nobody asked lmao #like I said I'm really normal about music it's NOT weird that a random album has me reflecting on 20 years of past trauma