#I'm not sure 'they make out' is a spoiler in a danmei but better safe than sorry

[thepurplewombat]

#Tgcf #tgcf hualian #Xie Lian is adorable #I love him so much #The mods gave me my own channel on the Snape discord to yell about books #I think it was mostly to get me to stop cluttering up General but I love it #It's like livetweeting books #And my friends come and check it out occasionally and they're like #Idk what's going on here but there is tea being spilled and I'm here for it #Anyway currently it's wombat's danmei hours in there #I'm livechatting undead as I read it #Fun story #hua cheng #Xie Lian #Books #Tgcf spoilers #I guess #I'm not sure 'they make out' is a spoiler in a danmei but better safe than sorry

[xuer]

when I wake up, let's pretend it was just a dream

the title of this fic is actually a translated lyric from a very famous drama (danmei adaptation) ost. I'm sure many people are familiar with it, but it has nothing to do with the plot, and I don’t like comparing danmei to each other, so I won't mention it by name. I just felt that my personal interpretation of the song's melancholic and nostalgic air that yearns for the past/something no longer attainable fits this fic very well, and I was listening to the song on repeat while writing.

the song is unrestrained from the cql ost.

I didn’t want to mention it by name in my end notes because I was a bit afraid someone would see and start drawing comparisons to mdzs. and I hate comparing danmei to each other, but I’ve always wanted to write out my thought process and I figured it would be safe here. cql spoilers ahead

a big part of mdzs (or at least a part of it that resonated really deeply with me) is how utterly and completely different wwx’s life is in the present compared to the past. for one, a lot more people were alive. when I was watching cql and cross-referenced, say, episode 3 (where wwx’s biggest worry was sneaking alcohol into the cloud recesses and disliking jzx) with episode 32 (jyl’s death), episode 33 (wwx’s death/suicide), and episode 38 (xxc’s demise), it’s blatant how much has changed for the worse. I only mentioned a few excerpts from the show, but you get my point. maybe it was something only I felt as a viewer, but there were so many times during my watch that I sighed and went “I wish things could go back to how they used to be.” there’s that sense of yearning for the past. in lovely allergen canon, things get worse before they get better, and during those series of chapters where yzs’s and sy’s relationship degraded for a while, I got that same feeling, at least on the behalf of yzs. although wiwu is written in third person, the first half of the fic is from yzs’s perspective in the same way lovely allergen is. the first half of lovely allergen takes place during yzs’s high school years, which was the happiest time period for him pre-chapter 56.

unrestrained, the song, has a similar nostalgic feel to it, and it’s about a similar theme, so I drew some vague hand-wavey parallels from cql and lovely allergen to come up with the fic title.

I also read the mdzs novel a while ago and have been slowly making my way through the cql drama for the better part of 4 months (when I wrote wiwu I wasn’t done watching it but I am now), so it’s been slow going, but the entire time I was watching the ultra-long flashback section I kept getting the feeling that I was watching a train wreck happening in slow motion. I knew horrible things were going to happen, and I couldn’t look away. I also wanted to emulate that same feeling with my fic.

I’m writing this tumblr post on my phone in bed at 3 in the morning, so I’m not quite sure if any of this made sense.

you can listen to unrestrained here.

#wiwu #lovely allergen