#I'm WELL AWARE AND AFRAID THAT IVE SCREWED MYSELF

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Dental work especially root canal treatment are common causes of tmj dysfunction, which is also a very common thing. Symptoms match 100% with what I'm dealing with, its called acute tmjd. Exercises meant for treatment of TMJD have been working well at relieving pain and starting to heal the strain which is what occurs when u have tmjd.

Dad: but it Could be the infection from ur tooth spread and that's what this is

Me: no, because xyz

Ma, who sent me the exercises for tmj pain, and has so far agreed w me: it Could be that it's from the infection, too

*ragequit*

#why the FUCK DO YOU GUYS THINK THIS IS IN ANY WAY HELPFUL????? #i already TOLD YOU i was anxious that it could jave spread but also this very much fits the bill for tmj lain and Not infection related ffs #but again i told u im anxious that my difficulty taking the antibiotic at the correct dose has made problems #i KNOW!!!!!!! i know the fucking risk of not taking enough antibiotic i fucking KNOW #I'm WELL AWARE AND AFRAID THAT IVE SCREWED MYSELF #but ive finally figured out a way to Not be in as much agonizing pain all fhe time! ive finally managed to try stretching and managed to do #some heat and ice on my jaw today #i didnt cry or even whine much at all #i may not need to take an advil tonight! #because the stretches HELP! why would they help if it was just an infection??? #tmj responds well to this bc its a joint and muscle combo in ur body and it became inflamed/strained/locked #needs to be relaxed and massaged and stretched until it 'cracks' and the dysfunction is resolved #and beyond any of that. telling me u think its an infection thats spread all along my jaw? #that is NOT HELPFUL and is in fact TERRIFYING!!!!!! #like its not like theres anything i can DO about it if thats the fucking case! #i took one pill earlier and I'll take another tonight and i didnt have to take fhe one at 4 but i wanted to at least do 2 today after i #forgot this morning's and yesterday morning's #but excuse me for having difficulty swallowing pills and anxiety abt it #and also anxiety abt the antibiotic messing up my stomach bc they do that to me #and again i cant rlly do anything if the infection got that bad that fast (it didnt hurt until after the endodontist on Thursday - it #started hurting friday specifically) so thats 3?4? days ago? that would b an incredibly bad infection to spread fhat much in 3 or 4 days #in which cause amoxicillan is not strong enough against it anyway my guy #eveb at full dose #besides which i wont KNOW until friday wjen tbey do xray or whatever before starting work #or until after theyre done maybe #like. #all you've done by mentioning that idea is make me anxious and angry #and feel like my understanding of what's going on is invakid and u know better thn i do #like i feel invalidated and dismissed #its dismissive.