#I was curious so I'm reading more on the appeal of boxing / wrestling .

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#I was curious so I'm reading more on the appeal of boxing / wrestling . #I understand the thrill of victory and overpowering another person - to see that happen is an inherently great experience in- #controlled environments. #However. #I understand that I'm biased. #But isn't ... isn't it also inherently. just. just a tad uh. #What's the word. not homoerotic. but. #I don't know. Something about battle in every form is ... #It's similar to a dance with a lover - even if one of you ends up dead. This is specific to close one on one combat I think. #Though I have a personality disorder that makes it so that I can't feel the fear that most people have. #Oh shit. Oh fuck... that's right... #You know what? With that in mind. Yeah. Yeah I can see the appeal that exists outside of. homosexuality as a whole #I completely forgot that fear of dying and pain exists for most other people and that makes uh. #Fighting. as a whole. less. less appealing than it is for me specifically #Alright. alright mystery solved . #Honestly. now that I'm feeling good . this has turned into a uh. #Rambling About Things That I Can't Write In My Worship Journal But Still Want To Work Through It Via Writing blog. #Anyhow. I'm off to play ESO ........... I need to get my wife her dwemer sentry pet before tomorrow. or I'll die #Not by her hands. just. I'll die because I need her to have the best things at all times always