#I just can't believe that for her someone being rude when hurt/harmed/scared/belittled/etc is-

[katyspersonal]

I really feel like such a helpless adult baby sometimes. Some things just take too long while to heal, and even when I think I've got no more pain left, something refuels it. Some wounds feel like putting a fireplace somewhere in innermost part of one's being; as long as it is there, there is a risk of someone throwing fuel in it and making it burn. And these fireplaces are so, SO darn hard to uninstall. Just.. how do I heal this?

#/vent #personal #yes it is about A again #I just can't believe that for her someone being rude when hurt/harmed/scared/belittled/etc is- #-much worse than stalking harassment bullying and lying #and that she wanted to take revenge at me for words I took back THAT SAME DAY to the- #-point of hurting two other mutuals she liked that never did anything to her at all #like.... I just can't cope with the fact that someone wanted to harm me to the point of willing to- #-pay a PRICE to do that #and over what? over me blowing up when she told me I was wrong about who the stalker was #also when they got caught after sending message off anon on accident A also pretended that- #-she never doubted who it was #like dude? you deadass told me I was wrong because you 'asked them and they said no' #for someone who lied SO many times A sure is strangely oblivious to the fact that guilty people can lie! #i just wish it stopped hurting already #like every time I think I got over it something 'fuels the fire' again #how I am 26 and still feel shocked that some people are JUST cruel and treacherous? for no reason?