#- it's just you guys have no idea how much I've MISSED y'all! how I've YEARNED to be able to geek out with you'uns over the blorbos and

[dreamersscape]

Does it feel like life is permanently set to extreme hard mode and I still feel super crappy greater than 90% of the time? Yup. But! Emboldened by our relative success with last year's tomatoes, we have given it another go and have added a little pepper plant friend for them. :)

(It may look like the peppers aren't doing as well as the tomatoes, but it cannot be overstated just how bananas this plant's growth chart has been; it's determined to escape the confines of its basket-cage; it has to be constantly rotated so it doesn't completely lose the battle with gravity; I only took this picture the other day and it already looks SO outdated. Can't stop, WON'T STOP.)

#anyways the plan for today is to make some good headway on my 'correspondence' so I guess we'll see how that goes *sheepish laughter* #don't worry I'm not guilting myself over my ridiculously sporadic ability to socially engage - #(not much anyhow I swear!) #- it's just you guys have no idea how much I've MISSED y'all! how I've YEARNED to be able to geek out with you'uns over the blorbos and #their fictional worlds. Like. Please picture me gazing longingly into the middle distance while sorrowfully belting: #🎶 I wanna beeee where the (tumblr) people are. I wanna see... wanna see 'em meta-iiiing! 🎶 #🎶 frolicking around in their - what're they called again? - oh right! plot bunnies! 🎶 #🎶 incrementally crawling your way through your backlog of content to consume and unexpectedly stumbling your way #into a few new hyper-fixations while the already-there ones continue to rage on you don't get too far... 🎶 #🎶 posts (and reblogs and messages and actually finishing a few of your fan creation projects and...) are required for jumping (into #fandoms); dancing (with your friends in gleeful delight over your shared headcanons)! 🎶 #🎶 [...] up where they talk (to each other at normal intervals)! up where they (don't) run (out of energy so fast)! 🎶 #🎶 up where they stay all day IN THE SUNNNNNNNNN 🎶 #🎶 wandering free. wish I could be. PART OF THAT WOOOORLD 🎶 #I could go on but I think you get the gist of it 😆 #and I definitely know I'm not along in this feeling; at the very least I'm sure that is a familiar tune #in many contexts for anyone else struggling with chronic fatigue/illness among other things #I just wish I could find a better way to intermingle extending kindness and patience to myself and rolling around in fictional character #feelings /together/ with my friends without having to insert such long gaps in between you know? #okay woebegone rambling aside thanks guys for not forgetting about me while I've been gone <3 #and let me assure you I haven't forgotten you all either 'cause boy do I need to SHARE SOME STUFF with you! #random musings of a personal nature #I JUST WANNA BE THRIVING HALF AS GOOD AS THOSE TOMATOES YA FEEL ME?