#(tbh it's not that bad atm. I started taking painkillers before the Actually Bad pain starts and i think that plays a role in

[tardis--dreams]

*Through gritted teeth* you wanted this pain you wanted this pain you wanted this pain you are grateful for this pain you are grateful

#good news everyone #I'm finally in actual pain so there will be no such pain on Thursday and Friday #(tbh it's not that bad atm. I started taking painkillers before the Actually Bad pain starts and i think that plays a role in #the fact i haven't spent hours on the floor im agony for a few months now #I still don't like the feeling #Not just the pain but also the entire feeling of my body #As if a energy has been sucked out #Which is admittedly always a m o o d #But this is a different kind of sensation #I'm not just tired and exhausted as usually #It really feels like all the energy is drawn to my lower abdomen #Everything feels limp #But that's okay #I still hate this body and i kind of don't really believe the new medication i got will make this any better #Otherwise she'd recommend hormonal therapy and I'm not doing that #i just don't want to #but whatever #period talk #shut up amy #ramblings