#(i'll never be as chaotic and impulsive and outgoing as this man - but features of his aesthetic and worldview?)

[an-organized-confusion]

Thinking about my feelings for Remus as a character.

Like. I find him absolutely adorable - but not entirely in a patronizing/sanitizing way.

But in the “I’m well aware that I find a lot a things most people don’t, cute“ sort of way. It’s hard to properly articulate it.

See, kid me, insisting on bring home garter snakes fairly often. Or chasing skinks around, in rattler territory. Or finding many other kindsa “Non-Charismatic Megafauna“ endearing/fascinating/valuable.

Or things more sordid/adult and still dig down into the endearingly flawed humanity in such affairs. Or look at the horrifying and weird and laugh, not necessarily in any party’s expense, but to face messy truths like mortality and nature with acceptance.

I think it’s just thanks to curiosity being one of my biggest drivers...

#sanders sides #remus sanders #(i'm just having another moment of 'go from finding the garbage man cute to getting all introspective abt qualities i legit appreciate') #(like p much any other side - i may not relate 1:1 w/ 'em - but i can def see where it resonates) #(i'll never be as chaotic and impulsive and outgoing as this man - but features of his aesthetic and worldview?) #(... and then brain swerves to himbo ro content after posting this) #(damn you heeeat) #(i need to wriite some familial aaangst istg) #(CA heat + wellbutrin = remote ctrl for brain no work good)