#❀ LORE 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon.

[unmeiha-arc]

in co-wol situations where the other wol is the last person standing in ultima thule, koharu sacrifices herself with estinien. the dragons' deep sense of loss, their desolation, their grief resonate with her best, so it's the place that makes the most sense for her to go. as a result, the little wind currents that estinien's death creates have cherry blossoms swirling in them.

you're welcome. :)

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #endwalker spoilers *

[unmeihaa2]

tiny headcanon related to characters in zone 5, copy/pasted from discord

the textures of the amaurotines' eyes make me think of au ra eyes. they seem to have limbal rings, sometimes in a different color from their eyes entirely, and the eyes seem to kind of have an aetherial glow too them, too, much like limbal rings seem to have, so i had the thought that au ra limbal rings are a trait that they got as a remnant of the unsundered star.

also, azem!koharu / persephone made the elpis flower, send tweet

#❀ LORE 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon. #endwalker spoilers*

[unmeiha-arc]

thinking about how, for a very long time after the events at falcon's nest during hw patch, koharu only eats/drinks things she prepares herself and how she can't even bring herself to accept food/drink from the scions despite trusting them wholeheartedly. or, if she does accept it, she won't actually consume it.

nanamo being poisoned was traumatic enough, but being poisoned herself after that?? nah. she'll gather her own water, prepare her own meals, make her own tea. she tries to be subtle about it but something that obvious isn't something that can go unnoticed for long and i imagine either thancred or y'shtola eventually confront her about it after they deem it's gone on for too long.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #yeah sure that can go in the meta tag

[unmeiha-arc]

if, by some chance, someone managed to get their hands on koharu's adventurer journal, they would find that the entire thing is written in far eastern and thus would need to be able to read far eastern to be able to understand it.

canonically, the exarch has seen this journal from the black rose/8th umbral calamity timeline and it's between this journal and edmont's memoirs that helped him make an informed decision of where to pull the primary timeline koharu from. while it's a personal headcanon that he learned how to read it himself, as potential alternatives it's entirely possible he had someone else translate it for him before leaving the black rose timeline & moving the crystal tower from the source to the first or had a means of translating it within (or via) the tower itself (ie. the books in his study or through the tower computer). ✌️

the parts written by fray/koharu's esteem look at first glance like they're written in entirely different handwriting. while koharu's is neat and precise and elegant, "fray's" writing is messier, angrier. there are enough subtle similarities in the kana that if you look close enough you'll notice they are written by the same person, however, though being written in far eastern should be enough of a giveaway of that regardless. it's noteworthy in the sense that it just makes it all the more conspicuous, should someone find it.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta.

[unmeiha-arc]

young koharu and asahi (2 years younger than her) in doma had such an antagonistic relationship. like... just as an example, koharu defiantly refusing to learn to read/write/speak in common and asahi talking shit in common to piss her off (which would work every time because she doesn't need to understand the words to understand the intent) and then acting innocent the second an authority figure has their attention on them, meanwhile she has to curb her temper and not react (which is Not Easy at that point in her life). just... him doing things to get a rise out of her and knowing it works and knowing she can't do anything about it.

because she loses if she reacts no matter what. if he tattles to the imperials, she'd suffer the consequences; if she's caught reacting, she'd suffer the consequences; if she doesn't react, he gets away with it. there is no winning.

she snaps once and only once because the consequences of it weren't just bad for her, it came down on her entire household.

when he shows back up in 4.2, she immediately recognizes the innocent act but tries to give him the benefit of the doubt until he shows his true colors. and once again, she cannot react. if she does, she (not as the wol, but specifically as a doman citizen) could ruin everything regarding the peace treaty and prisoner exchange. he knows that and she knows that and it's like they're children again. it absolutely infuriates her.

and that's 100% why her encounter with him in the aitiascope is different from canon. he may have had a grudge against amon, but he also had a grudge against her, just as she does for him, and that culminates in a 1v1 in the aetherial sea. she specifically tells the scions to stand aside so she can handle it alone. she's been denied up until this point. she couldn't do anything as a child. she couldn't do anything in stormblood patch -- that deservedly went to yotsuyu -- but here and now she will finally get the catharsis she deserves.

meanwhile with yotsuyu (3 years older than her) it's... different. with yotsuyu, they were friends (which no doubt also earned asahi's ire) but koharu, not getting involved in yotsuyu's abuse (trying to help her in literally any way) put strain on their relationship. she might be there to help with the aftermath, but self-preservation kept her from intervening outright.

her relationship with yotsuyu as an adult is interesting because of who they each became. yotsuyu is a reflection of what koharu could have been and koharu is a walking symbol of everything yotsuyu hates about doma and this is emphasized by their history. how dare she feign ignorance back then and then come back now and act righteous? to say nothing about koharu's feelings regarding yotsuyu being the one who issued the orders to raze of doma after the rebellion failed.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #endwalker spoilers *

[unmeiha-arc]

i think a lot about how koharu's first reaction to meeting minfilia and learning that she (and many others at the waking sands) had the echo was just this colossal wave of relief. minfilia really had no idea just what that did for koharu who, for the last five years had lived with echo visions and had no idea what they were or why she had them. she was deliberately recruited for this ability that drove her from her hom and family and was given answers about it that she would never have otherwise gotten.

... and how that first impression and those feelings of relief and gratitude for minfilia were briefly tainted.

having been part of the doman liberation front for the last ten years, koharu already understood what it meant to sacrifice and the weight such a thing carries and was already all too familiar with doing what is necessary. though she wasn't familiar with the concept of primals or tempering (stormblood explicitly states that's not an issue in the far east), that minfilia wouldn't (or couldn't) tell koharu herself painted minfilia, in koharu's eyes, as a poor leader. someone who can't be honest about what's at stake simply wasn't fit to be at the head of an organization championing the realm's woes.

of course, ARR koharu was much more closed off. the scions aren't aware of much more than her first name and that she has the echo, so minfilia being unsure of how koharu would react is understandable, but it was still the wrong call in terms of earning her trust and respect.

over the course of ARR, that trust and respect is earned, however, as minfilia not only proves herself to be more than capable of her role, but also proves herself to be a dear friend. there are a number of times during msq where she takes time to check in and make sure the wol is well, to apologize for constantly being the one to send them into danger, and in turn allows herself to show her more vulnerable side to the wol, and this support is absolutely crucial to koharu through ARR when she's at one of her lowest points.

it's also a little personal headcanon that minfilia would make up reasons (think silly fetch quests) to send koharu to coerthas whenever she'd notice koharu was feeling particularly down. she'd say it's simply to continue the efforts in solidifying relations with ishgard, but they both know the unspoken reason is because koharu always seems a little Better™ after paying a visit to camp dragonhead. minfilia is an excellent wingman.

she felt minfilia's loss after the banquet very keenly. having to leave her behind in the caverns was one of the hardest things koharu has ever had to do. minfilia's soft heart, her boundless love for the world and its people, and hardened determination to shepherd them to a brighter future would become a large source of inspiration for her moving forward.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #do u ever just.... *clenches fist* love minfilia

[unmeiha-arc]

teensy little headcanon that because of rejoining with ardbert's shard of azem's soul, koharu has a longer lifespan than she otherwise would have assuming she doesn't get herself killed in battle because the ancients were effectively immortal and she's slightly closer to being a "complete" being. ✌️

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #i haven't decided how much longer but it's at least noticeably longer than the average au ra lifespan

[unmeiha-arc]

if koharu were to dump whatever she had on her person ( like in her pockets, small inventory in a bag or something ) what would come tumbling out?

in a small pouch attached to her hip:

konpeito. you must be at least friendship level 8 (or be a child) for her to share.

an omamori

gil

her other job stones & azem's crystal

a single mega-potion

a single mega-ether

in her pack:

a journal, pen, and ink

basic supplies for tending weapons and patching armor in a pinch

non-perishable food supply & water

more potions + ethers

chocobo/chocobo saddle bag:

bed roll + warm blanket

change of clothes + winter coat (uses as a pillow)

more food (+ more variety, including perishable & tea leaves) & water

more gil and mending supplies

her shakuhachi

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #HERE HAVE A TIERED TRAVEL LIST #she is.... very practical

[unmeiha-arc]

koharu sleeps with a tantō under her pillow and depending on how she's woken up, the person waking her up may find it at their throat ♡

the tantō is part of the matching katana and wakizashi she wields as a samurai. while the swords are generally at her hip, the tantō is typically at her lower back. she keeps it on her even as a dark knight in case she's ever disarmed.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #i know i have a weapons headcanon already on here but #i was thinking about her being startled awake #either because of a nightmare or by someone #and reflexively drawing the tantō from under her pillow in a panic #just ptsd things. you know how it is.

[unmeiha-arc]

if you ever think lahabrea doesn't get enough flack from azem, please know that when she's having a bad day she will sometimes set her mandragora creations free in akadaemia anyder. usually they're contained in the words of halmarut, but when she's frustrated or stressed out, everything seems a little less awful with screaming vegetables annoying the akadaemia's top researchers for a few hours.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #koharu would never #but azem? gremlin

[unmeiha-arc]

thinking about how a friend asked what koharu's least favorite color is and i really had to think about it to answer her because i didn't think koharu really had a least favorite? she has colors she likes more than the rest, but never really had much opinion on colors she disliked

... until she came into possession of azem's crystal and she begins to dislike the color orange.

i headcanon that azem's crystal didn't only contain azem's signature summoning spell, but also a number of azem's memories (and/or emet-selch's memories of azem) and that the combination of proximity to the aether in the crystal and the echo means that she's constantly being drip-fed these memories (which are often more powerful/potent when further combined with something that acts as a catalyst, such as using azem's spell or coming in contact with something/someone azem was familiar with).

and as she unlocks these memories that are hers but aren't hers, she notices herself responding or reacting in ways that aren't quite her. naturally, this scares her. it makes her feel like she's losing herself, like she's being overwritten by someone else and she absolutely does not like that. she already experienced it once before when dealing with confronting her darkside/esteem in the drk quests, but this is something a little different, something more.

so she... sort of comes to a point where she begins resenting azem for it. for the memories, for the feelings she has about the ascians/ancients because of them, for feeling like the balance between her life as koharu and her life as azem is slowly being shifted.

and this resentment gets projected onto azem's crystal.

it's not even as simple as choosing to discard or destroy the crystal, either, because as much as she resents it and what it's doing to her, it's also something she deeply treasures. whether or not that's her treasuring it or azem is another question, but as much as she resents the memories and feelings and fears losing herself to them, she loves them just as strongly. she won't actively try to pry more memories out, but she doesn't entirely resist them, either.

and then there's the matter of the crystal also being a promise. "remember us," "go forth and seek discovery," " as the bearer of azem's crystal, you may consider your duty to see at least that much."

all this to say her relationship with azem and azem's crystal ultimately boils down to: it's complicated™.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #endwalker spoilers * #this probably goes in the meta tag KJSDGHSKHG #her favorite is blue for the record — not that you'd know because of how much red she wears but that has to do more with the cultural symbo #*symbolism of the color red #why yes she does understand and relate to amon's determination to be his own independent identity :)

[unmeiha-arc]

woke up today thinking about post 4.3 when doma is finally free and once the initial celebratory high wears off koharu picks up drk and has a mental breakdown

thinking about the scions being very concerned because she's clearly not acting like herself — she's clearly not sleeping, her temper is worse, sometimes the way she speaks changes entirely; this is obviously a trauma response to finally being able to let go of all the baggage re: doma that she's been carrying since she arrived in eorzea but even then isn't this a bit weird for a trauma response? and what do you mean you're having memory blackouts and when you come to again you're drenched in blood and don't remember how that happened?? and hey maybe this new job you picked up isn't such a good idea you're not well and this is dangerous, are you really sure about this??

thinking about how her going through drk 30-50 terrified her because she felt like she was becoming someone else — something else — not entirely unlike how she currently feels about what's been happening to her since obtaining azem's crystal and slowly regaining azem's memories. she... didn't feel like she could stop in drk, like she was just stuck on a ride she couldn't get off of, also not unlike with azem's crystal, but unlike with azem's crystal she didn't actually want to stop. it was terrifying but it also left her feeling strangely liberated. there was a relief it brought her that was addicting and with fray, who she trusted implicitly against all reason, not only understanding but actively encouraging her, she kept chasing that high.

at the same time, she was being forced to confront a lot of the trauma and baggage she had been carrying re: both doma and being the warrior of light — which is precisely why she trusts fray so completely, even if she doesn't consciously understand why and every bone in her body says not to. well, that and the fact that fray/esteem is her. ("you knew fray was dead from the beginning, but you didn't care")

confronting esteem doesn't fix everything. she still carries a lot of guilt and hurt with her, and god knows it was not the healthiest way to deal with it, but she is infinitely better after drk 50 concludes... which... is probably a good thing, given 50-60 deals with themes of vengeance in the guise of justice, which is absolutely something she got a taste of in heavensward and then spent all of stormblood struggling with.

i've always kind of hc'd that estinien was a major supporting figure for her through stormblood; he was already kind of following the wol/scions through msq, so the main change being that he makes himself more known and is more able to help her keep a slightly more level head. he's the best person equipped for it, having lost his family and having to live with the subsequent survivor's guilt, devoting his life to fighting in a nigh unending war, and getting lost in a path of vengeance. she grew up in garlean-occupied doma, devoted 20 years of her life to the doman liberation front, lost her family to the razing while she was off saving eorzea instead of being there fighting with them and had to deal with the subsequent survivor's guilt, developing this deep, quiet anger through arr & hw until deluding herself into thinking that what she was doing in stormblood was for justice and the freedom of her people when it was just her own desire for vengeance.

and that support he gives her through stormblood sort of prepares her for the 50-60 arc in drk because she's able to easier recognize the signs in sid and acknowledge that hey, i've been there, i get it, but this isn't good for you or for rielle. you can talk to us, rely on us, and in turn i'll talk to and rely on you. something something trauma bonding.

and once she's worked through all of that, she's finally able to tackle 60-70, which... she was definitely not prepared for. the fact that myste looks like a combination of haurchefant and ysayle is one thing, but also being a child is. kind of a big thing for koharu personally, given 60-70 deals with guilt and loss and grief.

myste being a child is her grief for both the loss of her own childhood (which her parents tried to make as normal as possible, but there's only so much normality you can have in that kind of situation) and for the future she's already lost and the future she doesn't think she'll be able to have: she really!!! wants kids!!!! and the first time she let herself think about that kind of future was with haurchefant.

it's just... a lot to unpack on top of coming face to face with people who her actions as the warrior of light have directly impacted (the cousin of the heavens' ward knight, the woman who poisoned her in falcon's nest, the man she saved in quarrymill) and seeing the other side of the coin where, for some, she is a symbol of loss (which is great when you consider that she goes into shb after this and gets that bass boosted from emet-selch).

i still need to do proper in-depth metas on 50-60 and 60-70 but i've already rambled a lot here. the tl;dr is just that. she goes through all of this at the end of 4.3/before starting 4.4 — literally speed-runs drk in... idk, a few weeks/a couple months (i haven't settled on timeline yet) and the scions have to watch this happen and i was thinking about how they'd react/treat her and how that might affect their relationships going forward, if at all

because, like... she has this big mental breakdown/swaps from samurai to dark knight and then it immediately goes into the plotline of 4.4/4.5 with the empire attacking ghimlyt dark and the scions dropping like flies as the exarch summons them and i'm. is there really that much time to process that the wol just went through the equivalent of shock therapy and yeah she's still not 100% but somehow she's better than she was before the breakdown so maybe there isn't anything to worry about at all but at the same time are you sure you're okay? and then oop, summoned to the first where they don't even see her again for between 1 and 5 years, depending on the scion

and at that point it's like... yeah, they're all still the same people but they're also vastly different because of their time apart and i'm not sure when they really sit down to talk about that, if at all, because is it even worth addressing at that point, when everyone has become so different? (the answer is probably yes because she relies a lot on fray/esteem through shb to help combat the light and the scions get to see fray/esteem for the first time then and i have a hard time seeing them not saying something about it; meanwhile the exarch gives her a new drk sword* because he already Knows™ from the doomed timeline)

anyway, koharu's drk journey is wild, but that's kind of a given for anyone who goes through drk

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #long post * #* the new drk sword was doomed timeline koharu's drk sword which he found and kept :) #me: i'm going to put more of my meta rambling on tumblr instead of twitter #also me: this might be too much rambling

[unmeiha-arc]

is your muse forgiving of themselves ? how about of others who wrong them ?

is she forgiving of herself?

koharu does not forgive herself easily and even in the cases where she does forgive herself, she still often carries the weight of that wrong with her. she will do better, she will be better, but it's often to her own detriment, which... basically lands us back at "no, she doesn't really forgive herself even if she convinces herself she does."

doma is a very good example of this.

she carried the weight of abandoning her home, her people, her family, for a couple of years even before the rebellion failed. when the rebellion failed, it got much, much worse. she was already fairly impulsive, but her impulsivity became much more obvious through heavensward after receiving the news about doma in arr patch, and peaked in stormblood where she was given the opportunity to liberate her home. she didn't expect to survive — didn't want to survive.

when she ultimately does free doma (and lives to tell the tale), it... lifts a very big weight off of her. doma is free and her people can move towards the future unhindered and she has nigh single-handedly brought this about, thus redeeming herself (in her eyes) to all applicable. even so, every free moment she has up until shadowbringers is actively spent helping with the enclave's restoration to the point of pushing herself to exhaustion. even when she can't be there in person, she sends a lot of money back to help cover the costs of supplies for rebuilding and to care for the people. she may have forgiven herself but she will still spend the rest of her life making up for it.

she will never forgive herself for haurchefant. his loss only compounded the feelings she had re: the doman rebellion and 100% contributed to her becoming more reckless. she's already lost so much, she cannot lose anyone else. she will not. if it comes at the cost of her own life, so be it. it's... not the healthiest. it's not that she doesn't value her own life, she just values others' lives more.

is she forgiving of others?

to a degree. she can and will hold grudges. case in point being those directly involved with doma (the brutus siblings, the galvus family), zephirin (regardless of his tempering).

... but also urianger! urianger is a bit of an outlier here, but she does not take kindly to lies, especially when those lies come from someone she should be able to trust implicitly and it robs her of her agency.

he lied about minfilia and that stung, but she was able to move on and forgive him for it because she did understand. she had lost a lot up until that point and she was being extremely reckless with her own life, so him doing what was necessary was something she found she couldn't blame him for — at least not for long — especially knowing that it is what minfilia herself would have wanted.

they move forward from this, but then shadowbringers happens and it isn't just about sacrificing one life for an entire world, it's about sacrificing a life for a world and her. the characters in shadowbringers constantly treat the wol like their worsening condition doesn't have a solution, all the while urianger and the exarch have already devised a plan that will save them.

koharu struggles greatly with loss, this is no secret, but she has also always resolved to do what is necessary when the time came to it. for her, there's a difference between having someone taken from her prematurely (especially in place of her) and someone giving up their life willingly on their own terms. this is the major difference between her family/haurchefant and minfilia/papalymo/the exarch.

so when urianger and the exarch deliberately keep her in the dark about something that not only has to do with risking her own life (which she has never had a problem with! and 100% accepted that she probably wouldn't make it through shadowbringers; she was going to go to amaurot alone and take emet up on his offer), would have ultimately lead to her having to relive haurchefant's trauma via the exarch, she... was not happy.

this is the second time urianger has lied to her at the (potential) cost of someone else's life. this is also the second time that the exarch/g'raha has deliberately hidden the fact that he intended to sacrifice himself — the first being sealing himself inside the tower which, while it certainly counts as a loss and can be grieved as one, was not a death. both of these people took her agency away with not informing her. as the one putting her life at risk, she had a right to know, especially when the plan involved more loss. she might not like it, but she would ultimately agree to do what was necessary if there were no other options.

the difference between urianger and the exarch is that while both profess to do everything in their power to earn forgiveness and regain trust, the exarch genuinely tries to do just that. urianger, on the other hand, promptly asks thancred to keep early events of eden from the warrior of light — temporarily, but it does show that he did not learn his lesson. this is further cemented in endwalker when the loporrits attempt to conspire with urianger and only after being caught does he come clean and ask for help/rely on the wol. meanwhile, g'raha is (rightly) affectionately bullied by alisaie about never being self-sacrificial again.

g'raha makes a clear effort to live up to his word. urianger does not. even if she does end up forgiving him one day, she will never trust him.

the ascians are another somewhat complicated one. to say nothing of the calamities the ascians have brought about, emet-selch personally founded the empire that occupied her home for 25 years and given how much of a sensitive spot doma is for her, that is not something she can look past. that's something that directly affected her.

fandaniel orchestrated the entirety of the second coming of the final days and that was something that directly affected her in a lot of ways. the end of the world (obviously), the blasphemies (doma's blasphemy in particular took on the name of the kami that she personally worships; ishgard's blasphemy was literally the amalgamation of the heavens' ward), having to watch everyone she loves sacrifice themselves so that she could silence the endsinger. and that's to say nothing of the lasting trauma that ripping her out of her own body left her with.

... but learning about their motives also made her far more sympathetic/empathetic to them than she would have liked. she can't say that she wouldn't burn the world down for a chance to bring back those she loves. had she not had the support network she did, she very well could have gone down that path just as easily. likewise, she empathized with hermes and fandaniel a lot more than she would have preferred. she may not be willing to forgive them, but the fact that she's willing and able to look beyond what they've done* is a testament to her growth, i think, given how strong her sense of morality is.

* very, very dependent on the verse/situation/character/portrayal.

ultimately, forgiveness overall is obviously on a case-by-case basis. it relies on the degree of the offense, whether or not it directly affected her, the motives of the offender, and whether or not the offender makes any genuine attempts at repentance in any form. while she naturally gravitates towards forgiveness, she can, has, and does hold very nasty grudges. even then, sometimes forgiveness simply just isn't in the cards. there are certainly instances i can think of where "i can't forgive you, but i trust you*" would be an apt description of her relationship with someone.

* @ everyone: play twewy, i beg

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #long post * #i need u to know that i am kissing u right on the mouth for all the questions you sent you actual angel #this was such a lovely excuse to ramble i appreciate it #and boy howdy did i ever ramble. idk how much of this even makes sense or if i even answered the question KDSJGHSK #tl;dr: not really & not really (but kinda)

[unmeiha-arc]

koharu has always had issues with nightmares, but if you don’t think that she frequently woke up in a panic after in from the cold and had to make sure she was still in her own body you are sorely mistaken.

it was bad enough being ejected from her body back in ala mhigo — that took some time to process and get over. but it’s a whole other thing to be removed from it entirely, have her soul placed in some unknown (severely injured, presumably already dead!) garlean soldier’s body that she has no ability to manipulate aether in, have a stare down with zenos wearing her body before he vanishes (with all her soul stones! meaning she can’t rely on fray either!!), and then be made to crawl back to her camp on the bare thread of hope that she’ll make it in time to save her loved ones.

most nights this happens, she doesn’t get back to sleep and residents of the rising stones will likely notice that she keeps close to reflective surfaces throughout most of the day, subtly (but frequently) checking her own reflection.

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[unmeiha-arc]

okay, well, since i can't find it anymore (???) lil miscellaneous fishing headcanon:

koharu has an association-related fondness for fishing because her father loved to fish and would take her with him (which is where all her fishing knowledge comes from). fishing reminds her of her father, so she enjoys it on that level, at least. aside from that, she doesn’t really like or dislike fishing on its own, and mostly only does it out of necessity — which, as it turns out, is fairly often because of being on the road so much. though she does keep provisions on her, longer trips lead to having to forage or hunt for food, which is where fishing comes into play.

#❀ lore 「 桜吹雪 」 about : headcanon && meta. #definitely not because i've been fishing in ff15 what are you talking about

[unmeiha-arc]

i think a lot about the fact that no one knew koharu’s birthday until stormblood and that she just. didn’t celebrate it for several years and probably would have continued to not celebrate it but i think that as soon as they know, the scions make a point to celebrate it whether she acknowledges it or not and i think it actually means a lot to her 😔

the reason anyone finds out at all is because she gets ratted out by hien on the eve before battle when everyone is resting and taking a minute to breathe before they storm doma castle the following day. it’s always been a little self-indulgent headcanon that the day of doma’s liberation takes place on her birthday and the cherry trees are in full bloom 👉👈

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