#[ plus... after months of receiving the shorter end of the stick i'm just really tired ]

[unladielike]

To be honest, I could bring myself to get with the times and add an 'Affiliated with' and 'Mains' section on Vivian's Pinned Post like all the youngins on here, but I'm cursed with the affliction of threads on this blog rarely extending past two notes due to the fact I have abysmal luck when it comes to pulling roleplay partners that won't vanish/deactivate on me, so realistically speaking, @illholy, @spiritpyro, and @dis--parity would be the only ones I could say I'm affiliated with... while my mains would probably be a constant '???', just because I'm uncertain on who even considers me a main at this point.

I mean, I'm fine with not being considered an affiliate in return, especially since Judith is permanently a part of Vivian's default canon verse for example regardless, but mains wise, I don't wanna assume stuff or be presumptuous... so for the longest time, I opt not to update my Pinned Post. Like, perhaps one day, Vivian would end up being important to more muses, but she tends to not receive much engagement compared to other blogs, I'm unconsciously all, 'God, who even wants this trash girl as their main?'.

Granted, I know I should probably be more confident about my OC since I've been writing her for ages now; only... even after all the time, I still can't help being self-conscious about Vivian, since I get the sense I'm the black sheep of the RPC and I know her personality can be a lot.

#tbd #ask to tag #⸾ ❖︎ ⸾ ( OUT OF ) ⤹ •• 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟. #[ i should also follow more ocs... but at the same time I HAVE THE PROBLEM OF NOT LIKING MANY OCS WITHIN THE ANIMANGA RPC ] #[ due to the muns writing them not exactly passing the vibe check ] #[ or the majority of them are non-pro ship friendly which is an instant deal breaker for me ] #[ because while i may not self identify with the pro ship label i find people with 'proshippers dni' in their rules to be a major red flag #[ so in that sense you could say i'm EXTREMELY picky on which blogs i follow first ] #[ plus... after months of receiving the shorter end of the stick i'm just really tired ] #[ to the point where i now usually have the habit of queuing my replies and then dipping if i don't have stuff i owe ] #[ in fact... me posting opens this october is truly an out-of-the norm occurrence ] #[ but yeah with tumblr rp becoming less of a priority for me i REALLY wouldn't blame people for pretty much losing interest in vivian ] #[ or forgetting she exists ]