#[ also this prompt is so so so C.orinthiancore it's PERFECT fucking losing it here oUGHHJHK ]

[solarisgod]

Ever since Micah was a child, they would only dream of the infinite darkness, with its coldest and loneliest space ( yet, where it held the most peace that they could ever have ), and while they got older, the darkness would often fall into different colors and shapes, becoming more vivid, ever violent.

( There was the fire that burnt them.

There was the waves that drowned them.

There was Micah, strangling themself— )

Phoebus was the one who learnt how to develop their awareness in these aching dreams to control them better for Micah and their starmates who were haunted by the consuming nightmares. They soon taught Philos and Phobos how they could make their dreams be only of never ending light.

Nothing but love itself.

Their shared dreamscape became more brighter, then. Occasionally, bits of darkness will bleed over it, often hurting Micah who is the most vulnerable of the Starwake System, through, they will always try with everything that they can to make their dreams feel as much home as possible, and they could achieve it most of the times.

When July began and ended with blood, however, everyone had lost their control.

Blood consumed it all.

Then, in a dark dream, from the distance ahead, there is a silver glint.

Shaky breathings leave Micah in terrible trembles as they gaze at the field of corpses, unrecognizable, almost meaningless— though, how they still know that these ruined bodies once belonged to everyone who they had closely known and ever only loved—They fall to the red surface on knees and it ripples beneath them, their deep sorrow. Clenched hands grip onto the heavy chest while they try to collect their composure, find the calmness in their breathing pattern— they make an attempt to inhale deeply and everything in them burns like childhood— Micah tightly shuts their eyes and sobs harder, allowing their guilt and grief to tear them apart, so they can be eaten alive by the entity that stands perfectly still before them, smiling and smiling and smiling—

"To be loved is to be consumed."

Sharp echoes of a cutting truth tear across Micah's starless dreamscape. Awareness flickers, then, telling them that this is a being made of dream sands and dark shards. They do not try to move away, or even shift. Micah still remains on the infinite blood of their dead loved ones, feeling themself being slowly dragged in the sanguine sea. They can never understand why does the world look for every chance to hurt them. Have they not bled enough? Been bruised enough? Their body aches in every single ways that no others should ever get to experience— exist with for the rest of their life. Each pulse of a heart forms a phantom burn in the damaged body. Each breath taken makes Micah long more for a galaxy to hold them, loving them with unending lights.

"I want to die out of love."

Micah's thought breaks through the silence, causing the sky and sea to waver gently, saying, you have always wanted to die for love— their sobs fall into silent crying and they glance up to see @nightmarecountry for the first time, its endless terrible teeth. Still, even then while facing the white night destruction, they do not leave it behind. They only try to understand its horrors. "But not like this." Their mind continues to speak to it with softness, despite the violent dream the entity builds against them. Micah does not want to hurt it. They do not want to remember the pain anymore. They just want to be loved, but in ways that can remind them of the clouds and stars. "Loving and being loved," they say, "They mean more than what you are familiar with."

While Micah continues to stare at it, the blood beneath them both slowly fades away. "Please," a begging, "Let me live so I can teach you how love can mean more than hunger and consumption." How it can always mean more than all forms of horror.

How love will always be more than the endless violence.

#ASK TO TAG CW #DEATH CW #MURDER CW #NIGHTMARES CW #NIGHTMARECOUNTRY #/// #// #/ #𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ IC . › #𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ ANSWERS. › #𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ V : TSNMN. . › #𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ MICAH . › #[ ✨ : uuuuummmmmmmmm genuinely speechless here! ] #[ cried badly writing this but jhbgksgs UGH / not neg ] #[ thinking about setting this after C.orinthian uuuhhh stabbed them if you plan to reply to the prompt we just sent you UH ] #[ Micah has been through so so so much... I am so hrghrgrhgrhrgrhgrhrg HODLS THMEST ] #[ Micah and C.orinthian together though... gonna be such an interesting pair fr fr ... head in HANDS ] #[ also this prompt is so so so C.orinthiancore it's PERFECT fucking losing it here oUGHHJHK ]