#& I don't doubt that at some point she finds a way to genetically modify HERSELF in order to pull it off

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Miranda, Family, & Children

(tw for infertility, pregnancy loss) - this is an expansion of the Shadow Broker dossier entry for Miranda.

Miranda is incapable of becoming pregnant... and has tried many times over the years. Much of this started early on when she rescued Oriana and escaped from her father; while she was attempting to find somewhere that would home and raise Oriana, Miranda actually considered keeping Oriana herself, raising her from a baby. As a result, in the early stages of the adoption process Miranda was put in the role of caregiver for Oriana--only a baby at the time--and found that she had strong maternal instincts. After spending a few years with Cerberus, she missed that maternal instinct she'd had with her sister, and sought to change the fact.

However, after multiple tries, months of pain and treatments, Miranda finally got results... though not the results she wanted. Though she suspects it's due to her unique genetic makeup, Miranda is incapable of conceiving a child; her body cannot physically support it for unknown causes, and any child that is conceived eventually turns into a benign neoplasm--specifically, a uterine fibroid. This drastic change inside her body renders Miranda incapable of carrying a child on her own. Because her genetic makeup is so unique and Miranda is very meticulous about whom she approaches for such procedures, there is little to know scientific information as to why this abnormality occurs, although it's likely that it is, in fact, in relation to her genetic makeup. She suspects that her father was aware of this and this is the reason he genetically created Oriana as her replacement.

Though she has not tried it, Miranda is capable of using a surrogate with significantly reduced success; the problem is only partially in her own body. Whether Oriana carries the same defect or not is uncertain; it's possible that Henry Lawson was able to counteract this issue with Oriana, and she may not suffer from the same consequences that Miranda does. Though she has not tried it, she would also face struggles with an asari partner, as her genetic makeup is unnatural compared to that of other organics, and were she to attempt conception with an asari partner, even they would find difficulties.

Miranda's infertility is what contributed to the breakdown of her relationship with Jacob Taylor when they were growing close. Jacob, in an off-hand conversation, mentioned fatherhood; Miranda, not long after, found out the results of her own infertility, and cut her relationship with Jacob short after that. She believed that she didn't want her own defects--courtesy of her father--to ruin Jacob's chance at a family.

#headcanon. ❖﹙ i don't trust nobody and nobody trusts me ⋄ i'll be the actress starring in your bad dreams. ﹚ #things i forgot to read years ago: lotsb dossiers #but I figured I ought to expand on this a bit #so not only is the loss devastating for her emotionally--but it's also physically painful in a different way #her body just can't physically support a pregnancy #(even though otherwise--she would actually be a very healthy mother) #it would probably take... a lot of science for her to fix it tbh #& I don't doubt that at some point she finds a way to genetically modify HERSELF in order to pull it off #but this could be fun to play with #pregnancy cw #pregnancy loss cw #infertility cw