yourcasualhomie

[yourcasualhomie]

I want to read some angsty saeyoung so badly!! I made this during my online class of chemistry, so yeah. I'm officially fucked (a lot of angsty recommendations are coming soon your way, xoxo) ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

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[yourcasualhomie]

✨ Mystic Messenger headcanon ✨

• No spoilers (I still haven't played his route)

• Angst, angst and angst.

V/Jihyun's mind is still stucked in between Rika and MC, but when you have conflicts between your past and present. Doesn't it means that you're still not over everything that has happened?

:) It is unbearable (:

(Jihyun x MC )

It was just another lazy morning when V and you woke up, with a little kiss on each other's cheeks.

You were in the kitchen, thinking about everything going on in your mind, as you flip the pancake.

After keeping the pancakes on the table, and you both sat on the chairs(I can imagine their house being minimal, artistic yet aesthetic.)

You were busy playing with the fork and food, as if the pancakes didn't reached your standard.

• "Mc?" V called out, with his calm voice. You looked up from the plate into his eyes and a tear made it's way down your cheek.

• "Mc.., you are you okay? I mean, did you burned your hand or maybe someone said something?"

• V bombarded you with questions in 2x speed trying to look calm and got up from his chair, coming towards the corner of your chair.

• You started looking back at the plate, and asked "Do you love me?" in such a low voice that it almost sounded like a whisper.

• "What?" V asked, even thou he kinda heard you said.

• Do you 'actually' love me? You repeated but this time, a little more firmly.

• "Just say no, if you don't and I'll leave. There's no use of crying over spilled milk, is there?" You told him, while shooting glares at him.

And as he was about to say something, you continued again.

• "And please, don't. Just don't lie, please.."

you warned him, as you were already so tired of him feeding you lies just because he was conflicted between you and Rika.

• "I.. I'm.. I'm trying." V replied, with all honesty.

• "But please give me a little more time? I, I'm all yours. It's just.. it's just that I need a little more time maybe."

• How should I forgive you for giving me hopes and never actually loving me back? It's all just a lot for me. Your mind said, whereas your lips stated that

• "I'm trying to understand you, V but I just can't. I genuinely can't, no matter how much I try to understand that little mind of yours.

Or should I say that I'm fucking aware of the lies you're feeding me just because of your bad decision making and hiding it all using time as an excuse?"

• "I.." V tried cutting you in between but you weren't stable.

• You started speaking in a little louder voice than normal.

• "No, please no. Not again. Not more lies jeez! You can't always escape from the truth." And the hurricane of tears rushed towards you.

• "You just can't!" You stood up on your chair as well, with salty tears and slammed your hand on the table.

Honestly, this was the very first argument where you were actually heated up because you both have always been extremely calmful.

You sat back on the chair again, whereas V sat on the floor Infront of you holding your hands, as if his life depends on them.

• You sobbed into his chest unceasingly, hands clutching at his shoulders. And he held you in silence.

• Your tears soaked his shirt, your howls of misery worsening and the pain making it hard for V while you were taking short pauses for recovering breaths, and then you distanced herself back. (These lines were kinda inspired by someone and I barely remember who)

In between sobs and hiccups, you said. • "Let's.. let's just talk okay? I.. I can't share you. Just as weird as it sounds it's the truth because I can't constantly think of myself as a competition."

• "I'm a human who needs love, not a toy who should be scared of his owner to abandon him anytime."

You took a deep breath and continued,

• "I love you, and I will always. I.. I promise, you've to be one of the bestest thing in my life but it hurts a little too much, A little too much."

• "The more I try to control myself, the more it hurts me when you dream about Rika and call her name after waking up.

• It hurts me more and more, when I see you seeing the memories, pictures, reading the texts of Rika. But it's okay, I get that you can't get over it.

• It's life, not a fictional fanfic where everything gets better all of a sudden. But.. how can I give you time when the time I'm giving you to move on from her is being used for sexual interaction between you and Rika."

And this was the time when it all came up to V as for why you were reacting the way you were.

It wasn't like he wanted to cheat you, he knew you're one of the most amazing thing he'll ever get but at that time all he knew was Rika and Rika. and he made a mistake, or should I say he repeated his mistakes and repeatedly felt guilty about it.

But in the end, it became a habit loop.

Him, going to the asylum. Visiting Rika, her kissing him and him getting more into the heat and it smh started becoming a daily thing

where his love for Rika triggers him, they have sexual interactions and he gains pleasure which results in guilt and the chain continues.

It finally felt like that mask of guilt and pleasure, was finally over and now he had to show his real face to you.

But was he ready for that?

Or was he ready to loose you just because of that?

Because no matter how much he tried to control, he just couldn't move on.

• "Jihyun" you said, with low yet firm voice filled with sweetness and at the same time, coming from your heartbroken soul.

• "I.. I don't know MC. I just can't control myself, I just can't find a way. But I'm trying, I am. And.. and.. and I promise I'll get better, I'll get better for you, for me.

• I'll get better in order to get it all done. In order, to give YOU all my love. Iloveyou but my mind just doesn't know how to control itself. Please.."

V pleaded and squeezed your hands.

"I love you." You replied, and after a second of silence you continued.

• "I genuinely do. I want you to be happy, because you totally deserve that. I swear, you do and I might never stop loving you, you know?

• But I've always believed that if someone has to think about choosing you then it means you still don't have their heart truly.

• And.. and it's understandable. Love isn't a quiz right? Where you just tick and cross and tick and cross and then think about the right conclusion."

Even you weren't getting what you were speaking, but you had to speak your heart.

• "Please please please, don't leave me MC. I.. I get that okay? I. . I allowed her to ruin my mind but but I won't okay? I'll I'll forget her, forget it please."

• "I.. I don't blame her V and neither do I blame you, Not at all because why would I? I know it's not easy to leave someone you love so much because I love Someone too.

• I love you but I can't do it all anymore. I can't be a part of all these choices and competition. I might not be good enough for you, and maybe you might found someone new.

• A good and happy beginning, and I genuinely pray you get that even if i'm nowhere in that happy beginning because.. because it hurts a little too much in order to stay.

And if I've to be more honest. It has become unbearable.

You stood up, and perhaps this was the last time you saw V before leaving his house, forever.

And perhaps, it was all for the best.

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Feel free to lemme know if you actually want an aftermath, because I've already made the aftermath scenario in my head and I'm totally enjoying it (;

@buddhajourney 's series where Rika comes back and MC gets left out inspired me for this fanfic, and it is so good and angsty that I actually started crying and it literally made me hate Yoosung (i'msosorrybutyoosungrikaisnotafuckingangel,pleaseno)

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[yourcasualhomie]

~The night under bridge~

After running away from the party, with tears in my eyes. I knew, I could'nt go back home.

Because, what would I reply? I just ran away because you heard my confession?

And I came back home knowing that you both know my address?! Dang it!

Neither were the tears in a mood to shut the fuck up, and now my mind was working so I did something which I don't know if normal people would do or not. But for a matter of fact, I did it.

I sat down under a bridge, and started crying like a homeless puppy.

"Home is, where the human you love is"

Have heard this cliche line, unlimited times from my granny. Haha, I saw someone staring as if I'm a maniac.

Obviously, someone just ran around the road. Sat under the bridge, and is crying while laughing? Why would that even make sense, lmao.

I took a little breath, and started looking at the people or should I say at the big town from my little gaze? I was catching a glimpse of what it was to live life? Or perhaps, I was just people who were walking down the street with salty tears kissing my lips (what is my mind even thinking, gross) And smh, I just slept.

I slept under a bridge, with nothing around me apart from a phone. Just a girl, with short height and hair who ran far away from her home.

~ To be continued ~

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[yourcasualhomie]

friendly psa from a library assistant!

do not write on our books!!!!

your selfishness not only wastes an employees time (we have to spend 2-4 hours checking every page and erasing) but also the poor book will never look clean ever again, there’s no good way to permanently remove pencil marks (god forbid pen) and the eraser shavings get everywhere too.

sticky notes exist for a reason!! DO NOT WRITE IN BOOKS YOU DONT OWN!!!

thanks for coming to my Ted talk

[yourcasualhomie]

WRITING PROMPTS

101

Please mention my blog, while using the prompt. I'll surely read it, and I might reblog it as well.👁️👄👁️

Theme : Kinda angst/yandere

1. “You've made it difficult for me to even look at you, without realising that you don't even look.. ashamed of what you've done to me.”

2. *Main lead is drunk* “Goddammit! I'm tired. I'm tired of thinking that whatever you did would have a reason, but what can be the purpose behind murdering people?”

3. “When you become a monster, you NEED another monster to torn you out” were the last words I said before chopping off his fingers. (What 👉🏻👈🏻)

4. “HEY, HEY!! Stop crying,okay? I've your back, I'll never let you be alone” (Manipulative relationship)

5. “You can scream at me, as much as you want. But your brother will stop breathing, the moment you step out of this gate.”

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That's all for now, folks!! ╮(. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)╭

Lemme know if you want a real large list of prompts (would be better if you let me know the themes as well) (:

[yourcasualhomie]

Pov : You're held by your yandere psycho lover and your mind has been fucked up at this point. All you want is for him to understand that this isn't how love works.

Warnings : Yandere and angst.

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You were sitting at the corner of your bed, curled up like a tiny little ball with puffy eyes and numb mind.

When you heard the door creaked, and footsteps of someone coming near you. Your whole body started shivering a little, because you know who it was.

He kept a plate but you didn't had the guts to look at what it was, "LET'S EAT"

He said, with a firmness in his voice, you looked up a little, still curled up. And looked into his eyes, assuming there might be guilt for what he did in the morning. How he gave you unlimited new scars with his belt, and how he didn't stopped even when you were screaming for a drop of water to satisfy your burning throat.

"Would you stop staring at me, and eat? You know you should not said not to me but you still preferred being stubborn, so that was the consequence of your actions" He continued while removing the chain from your right hand.

"Will you ever love me" you whispered with a low and soft tone, considering the fact that you didn't have the power to even speak.

"Why do you think I've kept you here? I absolutely love you as much as I love my video games" He came near you and pecked your forehead.

You looked at the floor,

"THEN WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?" You said, a little bit more loud this time and started crying out loud.

"Hey, hey. Shh, you just have to obey me and I promise we'll stay happy forever." He replied, while patting your head.

"I can't, I can't handle it. I'm loosing my mind and if hurts. It hurts so much. It hurts, to be a slave and to live here with a continuous fear of what I'll say that would trigger you."

Silence.

Let's eat, he sat on the bed and took the spoon in his hands.

"I can't sleep, because I'm in continuous fear that you'll come and start hitting me again."

Silence.

"You ignore me when YOU want to, and love me when YOU want to. "

He threw the plate towards your feet, with a loud thud and stood up abruptly.

"It just get's worse and worse and my heart can't CAN'T take it any more.

You aren't taking away my pain, you're.. you're giving me

More pain."

Silence.

In between sobs, she tries to talk to him again so that he might give her a reply, "I'm internally broken at this point, you can manipulate me if you want, you can drug me. But please

Please

Please

Please, let me live. If not with anyone else, then at least let me be a little happy. At least, let me live with myself. LET ME SAVE MYSELF."

And your screams and tears were unbearable at this point. And you could feel him glaring at you.

"You know how much it hurts, don't you?

Without saying a word, he started stepped towards the door.

Will you be happy if I'll just give it up? And you'll found me dea-

And he just slammed the door and went away. Went away.

As always, leaving me alone.

Will he be happy, if he'll find me dead in the corner of the bathroom?

Because I'm ready to go.

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It was honestly, my first yandere fiction. Lemme know your thoughts, they would motivate me for sure. ( ⚈̥̥̥̥̥́⌢⚈̥̥̥̥̥̀)

Lots of love (;

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[yourcasualhomie]

The number of zombie movies/otome games we've seen till now. I think, a zombie vaccine should already be here at this point (:

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