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You simply chose me, out of anyone else. 🤍

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Nikos Engonopoulos, from Bolívar, a Greek Poem

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Julia de Burgos, tr. by Jack Agüeros, from Song of the Simple Truth: The Complete Poems of Julia de Burgos; "To Julia de Burgos"

[Text ID: "in all my poems I undress my heart."]

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Ama Codjoe, from Bluest Nude: Poems; “Bluest Nude”

[Text ID: “I crave. I want to be seen clearly or not at all.”]

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Julia de Burgos, tr. by Jack Agüeros, from Song of the Simple Truth: The Complete Poems of Julia de Burgos; "Moments"

[Text ID: “Me, inside myself, / always waiting for something / that my mind can’t define.”]

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Mary Oliver, from Long Life: Essays And Other Writings originally published in 2004

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If time could heal,

we’d be better by now.

No raised edges where the knife severed our flesh.

No cover up tattoos to hide the pink scar tissue.

No triggers.

No flash backs.

No guilt. No regrets.

If time could heal,

Would there be enough?

//.

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This damn nervous system.

It fails me day after day.

I turn to grab dinner from the oven,

and suddenly I’m disconnected again.

I breathe.

My thoughts are with me at accurate speed.

But my vision is blurry

and my limbs don’t know what to do.

Like a video game,

lagging behind.

Respawn.

Please respawn.

If I start over maybe I’ll be fine.

I breathe.

And try another step,

but it’s giving out.

Fuck.

Why won’t you work damnit.

I walk like a toddler to finish setting the table.

Find the wall.

One foot at a time.

Breathe.

Don’t fall.

Postsynaptic glitch

.

.

Connection lost.

//.

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A tiny house,

filled with balloons.

Falling asleep to rain,

and Lo-Fi sad songs.

A vivid memory.

That doesn’t seem

like it is mine to have.

🎈

//.

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I think the problem with numbness is, you begin to forget that anything else ever existed. Passion, overwhelming love, anger, fear, excitement, it all melts away into a shade of gray. And then one day, you forget what color even looks like.

It happens so fast.

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Twenty weeks old Gray wolf pups (Canis lupus) from the Sawtooth pack

Pictures by Jim and Jamie Dutcher

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Virginia Woolf, from A Room of One’s Own

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i never held your little hands

though in my dreams, i had

we picked daisies together, we did

and your chuckles still reverberate

over my ears as i try to make sense

of it all

it doesn't make sense, nothing is

making sense

even the hole i try so hard

to fill with thoughts

of you glowing under the sun

seems fleeting

my darling, you were so perfect

but then you fade away

gently, slowly

a dream finally detaching

itself from reality

so i could wake from my sleep

did you think it will be easy?

did you think that it won't hurt?

when i opened my eyes, no words

could console me,

no amount of tears

could wash away my grief

the only thing that holds

my pieces intact is the knowledge

that your pain is over

while mine has just begun

-thoughts before d&c, katie

Image lifted from https://pin.it/1ra1G8Z

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by Giovanni Esposito

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You loved the intricate details,

that illuminated your soul.

You are the balsam firs,

the difference in the hard maple leaves

versus the soft maples leaves.

You are every topographic map,

that brought you to places

most haven’t gone.

The lines and elevations

will forever remind me

of the veins that brought you

such beautiful life.

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