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“i didn’t think i was that hard to love”

— S // 

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I'm sorry, so sorry for being who I am.

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i hope that someday i am a little easier to love.

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Holly Warburton//Motion Sickness, Phoebe Bridgers//Sylvia Plath//Hard to love, Rosé//Love love love, Of Monsters and Men//The Crane Wife, CJ Hauser//Ghost world, Holly Warburton//Little weirds, Jenny Slate

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You ever feel like you have no choice but to reach out and talk to people, even when you feel unwanted by them?

Everything inside me screams not to message or call, but the fear of being forgotten about. That confirmation that I really do not matter, I do not cross your mind - that might send me into a whole different spiral.

That’s ultimately why I reach out, bc I crave so deeply to mean something to someone and I don’t want to leave room for them to show me how little I am thought about, loved or cared for.

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Believe me, I really understand why loving me will never be an option

I could never love myself either

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I just want someone to tell me that loving me is easy for them

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It’s a tiring feeling never feeling loved or accepted

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My favourite trope is when someone believes they are hard to love and someone who loves them like it’s breathing.

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there should be a thing like sick days but for when it’s just too nice outside . sorry can’t come in i’m busy smelling the flowers and soaking up the sun

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sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine

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“I was raised feral, and I mostly stayed that way.”

— Gillian Flynn, from Dark Places (via mythaelogy)

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Gertrud Kolmar, from Dark Soliloquy: The Selected Poems; "Lassan,"

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“you notice everything” yeah babe I was traumatised as a child

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i can’t do this i can’t do this i can’t do this

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taking applications now for someone to murder me