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I hate when people say “ you don’t look anorexic.” Like it’s a look and not a mental disorder. 6% of people with eating disorders are actually underweight!

#mental illness #depressing quotes #mentally unstable #depression edit #dead inside #deep quotes #anxiety attack #ptsd problems #life sucks #eating disoder things #eating disoder recovery #eating disoder trigger warning

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Why is it that people need to see pain in order to validate that it’s real? So annoying.

#mental illness #mentally unstable #depression edit #dead inside #deep quotes #ptsd problems #im alone #trauma #help #depressing quotes #anamic #anorecya #anorexjc #im starvin #intermittent fasti #anxiety attack #anxiety #suicidal #life sucks

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When people think I’m okay because I stopped self harming and recovered physically from my eating disorder. I’m actually not at all okay and very suicidal. I’m just not using those coping skills atm. My brain is still just as messed up.

#depression edit #depression #anxiety #suicidal #tw suicude #trauma #im not okay #mental illness #mentally ill #help #depressed #dead inside #im alone #intrusive thoughts #dissociation #kill me #unalive #gaslit #please help #self injury

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I need a reason to stay here.

Reasons to stay:

1) My Guinea Pigs

2) To prove to my family I can make something of myself.

3) Stop this messed up family cycle.

Reasons not to stay:

1) My presence only hurts people

2) I cant escape my family… not even through getting a job and moving out because that would require me to quit working towards my dream job.

3) I’m stupid and have no adult skills

4) All I do is take up space.

5) Nobody can handle my emotions and I’m im constantly invalidated and gaslit.

6) I’m tired

7) childhood and current trauma take over my life

8) I have very little independence no matter how hard I try to break free.

9) my family will be happier without me.

10) I’ve exhausted all mental health services and been fired by tons of them for being too ill.

11) I can never be in a relationship due to sexual assault trauma…I’ve tried.

12) My insurance will stop this year so no more therapy for me.

13) This world has went to shit.

#tw suicude #self hatred #selfinjury #mentally ill #depression edit #mental illness #ptsd problems #complex ptsd #13 reasons why #bpd #trauma #mentally unstable #broken inside #dead inside #anxiety #depression #deep quotes #depressing thoughts #please help #im not okay

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Love getting attached to my middle aged therapist who reminds me of a mom...love that for me lol.

#attachment #bpd #borderline personality disorder #depression #favorite person #i’m too attached #mentally ill #depression edit #self harm #self injury #therapy #mother figure #i hate my parents #abuso #unlovable #nobody #i hate myself #unfixable #worthless #kill me #dead inside #numb #depressed #depressed af #mental illness #anxiety #sewer slide #suicidal #triggering stuff #im fat af

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I never thought my eating disorder was real cause I was never severely emaciated. Yes I was underweight and yes I had a feeding tube at one point, but people would always make comments like "You are extremely skinny, but it doesnt look like you have an ed". Now my brain is constantly like prove it to yourself and get THAT skinny. Then another part of my brain is like, that's so stupid and will only make you more miserable. Anyone relate or am I just crazy lol?

#eating disoder mention #anorecya #anorexjc #tw ed related #recovery #trauma #depression edit #self love #positivity #mentally unstable #eating disoder recovery #eating problems #body dysmorphic disorder #mentally ill #eating disoder thoughts #eating disoder things #eating disoder tips #im fat af #depression #kill me #i hate my body #underweight #skinnnny #thinsinpiration #pro ania #may be triggering #healing #i hate myself #perfection #borderline personality disorder

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i want to be 90s/2000s skinny

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Does anyone sometimes cut to prove to themselves that your emotions are valid because you've been invalidated your whole life? Cause same.

#self harm #self injury #cutter #cuts #cutters #depressing things #mentally ill #depression edit #self mutalition #tw suicude #suicidal #kill me #i hate myself #depressing thoughts #self destruction #depression #depressed #depressed af #anxious #anxiety attack #i want to kms #i want to die #dead inside #empty inside #emptiness #im a monster #im alone #mental instability #mental illness #mental disorder

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I’m trying so fucking hard and no one sees that. I’m trying so fucking hard to stay alive but my breathing is getting shallow and my heart is beating slower and if I don’t wake up tomorrow just fucking forget about me.

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It was good for a while, being empty. I didn't hurt anymore. But as time went on, it was like I could hear myself from far away, begging for permission to come back.

— Myra McEntire, Hourglass