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[vitshi24]

At the graveyard

I’m thinking of the woman at the graveyard

back when i cried my eyes out

back when i couldn’t handle the pain

back when i thought i was going insane

Im thinking of the woman at the graveyard

and the way her steps came to a halt

I remember the faint taste of salt

left on my tongue as tears streamed down

I remember her kind eyes and that deep frown

But i cant remember her voice as i tried to drown all that noise

and im thinking of the woman at the graveyard

how her lips moved yet no sound reached my ears...

I was lost in all my fears 

Im thinking of the woman an the way she asked me if i was okay

I couldnt find a single word to say

I forgot how to breathe and how to live

Maybe she would have had some advice to give

but i never got to hear her voice as i shook my head and declined her offered help

Trying to silence my desperate yelp

But ill never know what she had to say

and i never said a proper hey

never wished her a goodbye

maybe in another life Ill try

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Things my friends said #71

Candy: I'd learn how to drive a car just so I can drive you around in this weather

Vivi: That's the cutest thing someone said to me

Candy: dude, that's so sad... Who do you spend your time with?

Vivi: you?

#the comeback #things my friends said #hate to break it to you #its you

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I don’t know if anyone else had that thought but yesterday I was listening to a song from 2012 and they were like; the year the world ends la la la… and suddenly I was like; if we knew back then whats headed our way we’d been scared of 2021… and then i was like… what if they misunderstood… what if we mixed up the numbers??? What if it was never dec. 2012 but dec 2021 and now i cant wait for Christmas to find out if I’m right…

#the end #theory #help me #what do i do #what do you think? #big bang #doctor who #my mind #my mindpalace #just life #the end of the world #the end of summer #2020 mood #july 2021 #2012 film #2012 tumblr #global warming #global pandemic #been thinking abt this #been there #done that #send hlep #send help #christmas

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Things my friends said #70

-Candy's brother asking if it's sleepwalking or nightcrawling-

Seri: It's nightcrawling (She was soo damn sure about it)

Vivi: What? No it's not? It's sleepwalking.

Seri: Really? Not nightcrawling?

Vivi & Candy: Noooo

Seri: Are you sure?

*looks are sent at this point*

#things my friends have said #nightcrawling #sleepwalking #can we rename it

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Journey

When you don’t know where you’re going,

there’s no real good way of knowing,

if you’re wrong or if you’re right,

who will stay right at your side, 

or who will leave and who will pray, 

that you never went that way...

Yet by then you will have gone

a certain way to find out if you belong...

If you can find a place to fit right in,

if you can decide what else to bring.

But when you don’t know where you’re going it’s hard to pack a bag

never knowing what you need or when you will get back...

#journey #poem #poets on tumblr #poetry #adventure #life #cheshire cat #vibes

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A shell of the woman

You are only a shell of the woman you used to be

And you’re thinking; if only they could see

But no one sees and no one knows

So the anger, the frustration, the desperation within you only grows

And you feel like you’re all alone

Sitting on top of that broken throne

And you don’t realize how you push them away

And you wait for the hours to pass, wait for the end of the day...

But at the end of the day you tiredly realize

That the sun will do nothing else but rise

And with her a new day begins

And as the world goes on and spins

You lie there in your bed

All the thoughts inside your head

And you talk to no one cause no one will hear

All of the things that you think you have to fear....

#poem #woman #i tried #unspoken #words of mine

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Things my friends said #69

-Vivi trying to open a caprisun, Candy's watching me-

-at the same time-

Candy: Do you need help?

Vivi *sounding very desperate and very british for some unknown reason*: I just... I caaan't

#things my friends have said #i need heeeeelp #i cant #too stupid to open a caprisun

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Things my friends said #68

-talking about fanfictions-

Candy: If it's not torture... It's. not. good. enough!

Vivi: Exactly! Fanfictions have to make you feel like a phoenix. You have to burn and crumble to the ashes... only to resurrect painfully, just to burn once again...

#things my friends have said #phoenix #fanfic #masochist #burn #we need torture

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Things my friends said #67

-writing a message to Candy-

Vivi: Hey daring

Vivi: darling*

Vivi: never mind that I'll go with daring

#things my friends have said #bald but bold #daring #darling

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Things my friends said #66

Jonas: I love you more than Nutella waffles.

#things my friends have said #love quotes #declaration

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Things my friends said #65

Seri: I lived through everything

Vivi: You call that a life?

#things my friends have said #burn #life is hard

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wanderer

Don't we all have nothing? Yet we want so much...

What if you think you have everything?

Do you still want more? An then? What happens afterwards?

You wanted too much and that's how it disappeared in the mist of your greed...

And everything was gone, the ground became invisible, your home was taken by the flood.

And everything you thought to be yours was eliminated.

Where's your home refugee?

Where's your family?

Where's everything you thought you owned?

Tell me wanderer, can you now enjoy the small things? Can you be happy with nothing but yourself as a companion?

After you lost what you loved most, can you walk without a stick to lean on for support?

Would you have learned it anyway? Did you really have to let it come to this?

Was it necessary to lose it all?

Weak and too shocked over what happened, you didn't fight for what's rightfully yours. You watched as they took everything from you, you didn't say goodbye...

Silently you watched, trying to suppress the reality

Till smoke became fog and fog turned to mist. But you dissolve wanderer, don't you see? How you float away led by pain and fear... You're about to disappear..

You're loosing yourself because you don't want to see what lies right in front of your eyes.

#poems #excerpts from my diary #wander #writing #kinda sad #mysterious #freeform #loss #life

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Things my friends said #64

Vivi: Oh I have to tell you I've made a good mistake

Candy: Well that happens a lot..

Candy: The mistake part... the good part... eeehrr... not so much...

Vivi:... I bought a bow...

Candy: That was the mistake... what's the good part?

Vivi: It's a bow!

Candy: ....ou.... that's great?

#things my friends have said #gee thanks #mistake #its a bow #you can have my bow

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Things my friends said #63

-watching a Christmas Carol and the scary ghost is about to appear and knock on the door-

Candy *in a creepy voice*: Do you wanna build a snowman?

Vivi: Don't. Do. That.

#things my friends have said #creep #why would you do that

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Summer nights

And I miss these old times

Your smile, a thin line

The nights were long

Our bond was strong

The stars were out

Happiness was all our conversation was about

Now I'm alone,

You're long gone

But even though time doesn't slow

Sometimes, on a clear summer night,

I look up to see the moonlight

And when the sky is clear and the stars shine bright

I remember these past nights...

#excerpts from my diary #poem #summer #summer nights #nostalgia #nostalgic #memories #love #death #let me know what yall think #past life #change #conversation #star gazer #i miss you

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Mirrors

Mirrors

Tell me, woman,

Can you look into the mirror?

Not to count your beauty score, but to see

All that's left is debris

Can you look behind that facade of yours, that you built?

What lies behind all that sadness, anger and guilt?

Yes, mirrors can be deceiving they don’t always show what lies within...

But they do show the look on your face, the dullness in your eyes, that faded grin...

How pale you are...

How sad you look...

You feel oh so misunderstood...

I can see through your smile... but can you?

What is it, that you would like to do?

You constantly tell everyone, that you don’t have enough time for the things you love

But every time you talk, all you do is show off

Like there’s nothing wrong going on...

is it a lie you tell to lead people on, or is it a lie you tell yourself?

Hey! What’s up with your health?

Are you really too proud to go and get help...?

but all you say is, you can handle it, it’s nothing new, nothing you haven't dealt

but that was before now...

So i look at you and raise my brow

you’re standing at the edge

with no one there to catch

And you don’t even want to see that you could fall

Even though its hard to believe but after you hit rockbottom... there’s a darker place for you to crawl...

#depresjon #mental health #aware #poem #get healthy #cant you see #because i do #mirror #excerpts from my diary #family #i noticed #mental help #mentally drained #overworked #burnout #spread awareness #this is not norm #philosophy #a bit #dark academia #let me know what yall think

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Things my friends said #62

Candy: I always feel like I'm high when I'm tired...

Vivi: I feel like a dinosaur... I always have the urge to scream and die.

#things my friends have said #no sleep #dinosaur #scream #high