verycoldskin

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god I’m SO CLOSE lost 7 pounds in the past two weeks. kinda feeling like shit today cause I ate a huge breakfast (400cals) but I’m gonna go burn it all off. only 5 lbs to go until I reach my GW1 and my lowest weight!! i am honestly so proud of myself for staying consistent and keeping up with it.

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YESS THIS!!! so much better

so not counting calories and just eating as little as possible as helped me so much, it takes so much stress off of me and has actually helped me from having breakdowns that lead to binges HALLELUJAH

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I’ve been doing good for two months, I find myself relapsing and I can’t find out why. I have started to get with a guy recently and I think I just will never accept that someone can find my body attractive. If my brain literally will not allow me to be happy, I will stop myself from hanging out with him because he probably weighs the same as me and looks at me like a whale. Honestly why does it feel good to be back here? Like I have control again and I’m not just stuffing my face. I gained ten pounds in the last two months. Ten fucking poundddss. All the days of almost passing out gone to waste.

#eating disoder things #disordered eating tw #tw ana mention #anarecia

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do u ever feel like every single person you care about cares about someone else more

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I hate my body so much. I just want to be 10 pounds lighter. I cannot do this anymore I’m starting to get so tired.

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Can someone tell me what "mono" means? I don’t get it

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ok so I’m not going to post on Instagram until I hit my UGW, yeah it might be a while but that’s the point, I want to shock people once they see how skinny I’ll be and how much weight I will have lost

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sooo I’ve had my period for the past 4 weeks😭 ik ik something is wrong and I should go to the doctor but whateverrrr lol, let’s hope I get off it so I can maybe lose some weight

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dude I’m supposed to go the the lake tommorow and wear a bathing suit.. I’m so fucking nervous and I’m going to be around all my skinny friends. I’m thinking about canceling

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just a month apart, not a lot of difference but it keeps me motivated.

#beforeandafter #tw ed things

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I lost three pounds since yesterday morning YAY

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it sucks being 5’10 because EVERY SINGLE Victoria secret model is 5’10 or 5’11 and I always compare my weight to theirs and my body to theirs, kinda motovation tho

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I have to lose 26 pounds in 9 weeks to reach my UGW, which is a little over 2 months. To do this I have to lose 2.8 pounds each week, and not gain any weight. how the fuck is that even possible? i need to try my hardest because in 2 months is a wedding with ALL of my family+ a bunch of random people. I have to look skinny by then, I HAVE to get rid of my fat thighs. i didn’t binge today, and I’m honestly so proud of myself. I know I know it’s only one day without binging but it felt good to not give in. if I’m at my UGW by the end of the two months, I legit am going to be so fucking proud of myself. ugh fuck me for setting this unrealistic goal THAT IM 26 FUXJING POUNDS AWAY FROM WHRUIUSHWVWVW

ok I’m done now sry for the rant

#eating disoder things #tw ed things #thiinsp0 #disordered eating tw #ana relapse #tw ana #tw ana mention

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i wanna post my face on here but my anxiety is too high for that shit I would genuinely end it if someone I know found this blog, buttttt here are some things about me

my pronouns are she/her

i think I’m straight? kinda confused. I’ve done a lot with girls, not as much as I have with boys and I still can’t tell if I’m bi.

and I’m raging liberal

also, I’ve had an eating disorder for about 2 years now, if you can still get out of it then DO IT. I relapsed last week, after 4 months in recovery. It’s ok, it was bound to happen at some point.

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just ate dinner and I feel horrible. I wanna throw it all up but I know it won’t work. It was the first thing I’ve eaten today and I’m so full it feels disgusting

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dude omfg

175cm / 42.6kg (94lbs)