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Alain de Botton, Essays in Love [transcript in ALT]

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my brand

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if i was a vampire id be on like my 50th university course just Learning useless shit also sucking the blood off my college friends & pretending its a party trick “hey I can make you feel dizzy just by kissing your neck wanna see?”

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one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.

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quick someone colonize britain while they're weak

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yeah im over it *dies one thousand deaths*

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crumpling under the weight of two unanswered texts

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It took me a lot of time to understand the different types of relationships one endures and lives through. The funny thing about them is that you often miss out on the intricacies that hide in the strings holding a bond. In the incessant need of saving something with someone, expressing anger or disappointment, we lose what we have held so dear for so long. And this feeling, a double-edged knife makes us bleed just the same no matter if we're close or afar.

Overtime we've realised it's best to stay acquaintances. But how do you remain one with someone you've loved for so long. the pain doesn't allow you to try further, but the flashbacks leave you right there where they left you. The remnants of this bond are like a wine-stained dress, I can't wear anymore but I'll hold onto it anyways.

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spending time on theunsentproject website makes me want to curl up into a ball and die “when you told me what your favourite book was i bought it and read it over & over trying to find pieces of you in it” “i was going to buy you a star for your birthday” “im still not over u. i still think of u every time im drunk. id give my left leg for you to love me tom. id give it all” im spending time with the ghost of past loves and spiralling in2 a dark abyss

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there’s something so incredibly soft about the phrase “this made me think of you.” or, “this reminded me of you.” like!!!! being known is scary but then people see fragments of you in the world around them and can’t help but share that love and i think that’s beautiful.

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Are you still ruminating over the one that got away?

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to suck the marrow out of life? what's that?

mf sucked the marrow outta my soul

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it's so scary. the thought that I might never be able to give the kind of love I poured upon you to anyone, ever again

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I have given you so much of myself that now when I look at myself, all I see is blank space.

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a friend once said-

when you feel that you're drowning in your emotions, instead of fighting them, stay still. acknowledge it. accept it all. let their wave devour you. and then when you're familiar with it, you'll know the pattern and then, you'll rise.

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I question myself sometimes, how to move on.

is moving on just building walls so high that nothing about them effects you?

or is it fighting your emotions till the day they die coz you are so tired?

I really really really wanna know now