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Headcanoning characters I like as queer and neurodivergent and characters I hate as cishet neurotypicals. Thoughts?

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Tips for people struggling with motivation

Wait a minute. I don't have to like everyone. I can hate them, and I can despise them. And I can let my hatred motivate me to be better than them. I'll succeed out of spite

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Wait a minute. I don't have to like everyone. I can hate them, and I can despise them. And I can let my hatred motivate me to be better than them. I'll succeed out of spite

#in my evil phase #i am onto something #my entire apartment will be sparkling by saturday #i am so endeavor coded #bordeline shitposting

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You can't let just anyone into your vagina!!! It's a sacred space!! You must have a special emotional connection and trust each other

Well, counterpoint: ob gyn

#take off your panties and spread your legs we going in #penetration never felt so good #bordeline shitposting

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People are calling women who read ‘spicy’ novels porn addicts on TikTok and when women responded “um. That’s not what addiction is.” People are going “the first symptom of addiction is denial” like okay buddy.

#you know what #my grandma used to read a lot of books. grandpa would come and say she is 'obsessed' #then she would also embroider or knit. he would come and say she forgets about life and her duties doing that #recently i taught her how to use a phone and she began watching videos on youtube about some monkey idk #guess what grandpa says #it doesn't really matter. if you care about 'wrong' things (aka not cooking and cleaning) than you are a bad woman #obsessed addict or whatever #and you can say wait this post is about porn. well. my grandma did read cheap romance novels #god forbid women have hobbies!!!!

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(i have a feeling this poll will get way more views than some of my other ones so I am once again asking you to fill out https://forms.gle/66bRngwjD2fzWX7p6 if you know anything about the character)

#DRAWING SUCKS!!!!!! #writing sucks too but it can make me hyperfocused and I can enjoy it #drawing however!! even when I enjoy it mentally my body!!! my hands!!! my neck!!!

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Falins little dash is my favorite thing

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#fmab

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shitpost number 5 thousand

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kagurabachi commission work for @/casspng on twitter

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Thistle and Marcille had the exact same desire at their heart. To not be left alone in this world and be doomed to an eternal cycle of watching their loved ones pass before them. The difference lay in the execution.

Thistle, after experiencing the trauma of the king’s death and Delgal’s desperate pleas to save his son’s life, sought to give the people he loved immortality. To him, death itself was the enemy. His desire to erase suffering was so noble, in a way that only a child could feasibly commit to. But it did not make the people of the kingdom happy, for it stripped them of meaning and condemned them to an eternity of sameness. They could not help but grow dissatisfied, having that control of their destiny forcefully stripped from them.

Marcille, though, her approach was different. Instead of wanting to force everyone into eternal life, she merely wanted to give everyone the same lifespan. It’s like Thistle’s desire, but more well thought out. More reasonable towards people’s agency, and preserving the finite nature of the world even the demon found so alluring. After all, she’d had time, and support, and the opportunity to meet people of all kinds and learn from them. It truly would’ve been the most delectable desire the demon had ever eaten, if it had gotten the chance.

But at their core, the shape of their desire was the same. To feel connected and equal to those around them. And thankfully, though it may be difficult to achieve, with the help of others such a dream doesn’t require magic to make a reality.

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do you have any particular thoughts regarding marcille being a half-elf? its interesting to me considering the fact that she seems self-conscious about being a half-elf, but denies it when its brought up

i remember marcille looking visibly uncomfortable over laios simply asking her how old she is, which i think the only reason she might feel nervous about this is because it might reveal her as a half-elf to him.

she's never corrected anybody whose called her an elf either.

never mind the circumstances of the reveal, in which thistle goes on about how half-elves are inferior and accusing her of wanting to become full blooded elf, she seemed particularly upset like he struck a nerve-

i wish the half-elf thing was built upon more. also, underrated marcille line:

okay so i revisited this sequence just to make sure I could back myself up and it's just... man. there's a lot going on.

the first reaction we get from Marcille is this huge panel that takes up half of the page

she is viscerally affected. flushing to the tips of her ears with the intensity of it. and we see it again, a few pages later

so it might seem like she's embarrassed about it and lying to herself, but... I really think it's just that Thistle is accidentally hitting sore spots. If you really look at what he says to get these reactions

"you'll live out your entire life [...] and die that way too"

"a hundred years from now, nobody will be there"

Hear me out. I think, if he stuck to harping on about her inferiority without bringing up how terrifyingly long-lived she is, she wouldn't have been as bothered. But right now, Thistle is accidentally hitting all the marks on Marcille's deepest fears-- and this is after the Winged Lion promised her that her dreams could come true in an extremely vulnerable moment, so it also hits her slightly guilty conscience as well.

I do truly believe that Marcille isn't bothered about being a half-elf the way that people assume she'd be bothered by it. To her, the biggest problem with being a half-elf is that it's isolating.

On one hand, it's not hard to imagine why she'd distance herself from elves in the west. A lot of them can clock her as a half-elf on sight, unlike other races, and therefore she's always branded with this weird stigma of being Othered -- I would even say that she considers herself lucky for being born outside of elven culture instead of having to grow up in it. I mean, just... look at the way elves talk about her.

Skipping past the uncomfortable implication of what 'not tolerating the existence' of half-elves would actually entail, this is incredibly fucking annoying. You can see why she wouldn't want to be around elves much. You see a lot of Marcille reacting badly here, but honestly, almost all of it can be attributed to her freaking out that her bluff completely failed. She's honestly more paying attention to Izutsumi's footsteps and trying to coordinate an opportunity to escape.

And in the end, you see her built-up frustration at being asked if she wants to be a full-blooded elf like 2-3 times in a row.

Yeah, yeah, "the lady doth protest too much," and all. But we know Marcille. We know that she's a lot more embarrassed and horrendously unconvincing when she's being prodded about something she's actually self-conscious about.

Moving onto the flipside of things, it might seem weird that she "pretends" to be a full elf around other races, but it's not really that strange if you think about it. Again, people are weird about her being infertile or whatever, and a lots of them don't even know much about what sets half-elves apart from everyone else. I mean, look at how uncomfortable Laios is just asking her about it

and look at how exasperated and resigned she looks

And like... she's right. Where would that come up in normal conversation? Why would she go out of her way to tell them? She's functionally a normal elf to other races anyway -- got the ears, the abnormally long "childhood", and the huge mana capacity. Unless it's directly relevant or important for people to know, I don't think it's all that strange or indicative of insecurity that she prefers not to bother with it.

(This combined with her sense of being an "outsider" to elf culture also explains why she thinks elf superiority is embarrassing. She sees the way elves treat short-lived races from the "outsider" perspective nonetheless, and thinks it's obnoxious; especially more so because she usually has to play the elf around short-lived races and deal with the reputation of arrogance that elves have built up.)

The sad thing is, this all means that... she doesn't actually fit in anywhere. She doesn't like going out West much because of how elves treat her. But she's also an outsider in the continents she was born in, treated like this exotic long-lived alien choosing to live among short-lived races for some reason. She is always an outsider, the Other, no matter where she goes. Add in the fact that she'll live longer than literally anyone she knows, and it's honestly kind of heartbreaking.

And I think that's the crux of it. Marcille really doesn't act like she's at all self-conscious about being a half-elf because of any feelings of inferiority or being half-made or whatever. She considers herself a perfectly legitimate being and might even, in some ways, consider herself superior to normal elves because she's not blind with elf supremacy or whatever. (And whatever "elven biases" she displays, all of them are born more out of the fact that she's kind of bad at conceptualizing how other races age and mature compared to herself, not that she actually considers herself better or more mature simply for being an elf.)

I think that whatever self-consciousness Marcille has about being a half-elf is, instead, related to terror and loneliness. The reminder that it ensures she'll never truly belong anywhere for the rest of her very long life. The reminder that, in truth, even she's not actually sure how old she is by other races' standards (hence the discomfort when asked how old she is). She doesn't want to not be a half elf, or be a full elf or full tall-man-- in her ideal world, she's still a half-elf. She just gets to live out her life at the same pace with the people she loves and doesn't have to say goodbye again and again and again until she dies.

and one last very important panel, right after Mithrun tells her that all her desires would be devoured

In her ideal world, she's still a half-elf and reality magically starts marching at her pace. But failing that, the second best thing is that she's still a half-elf-- but one who is able to accept reality and let go of her fear.

(But the rest of the story pans out the way it does because, to Marcille, taking reality apart and reshaping it was less scary than simply and fully reconciling with it.)

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?? CANON AROMANTIC REP IN THE NEW JUMP MANGA ??? 👀👀👀

(title: girl meets rock, currently 8 chapters)

#girl meets rock